|Barked: Fri Oct 26, '12 7:45am PST |
I just wanted to put a little note in here just in case I can't do it in a couple of hours...
It is currently 3:25pm (GMT) and the vet is coming to the house at 5pm to put Rocky to sleep.
I have done nothing but cry all day knowing that it is my last day with my boy.
It's beautiful outside which is rare for October in Scotland and Rocky has had an amazing week. He has eaten what he wants and in general, done whatever he has wanted to do.
I took him to the park for an hour today and he played off leash with all his doggy friends as their owners hugged me and wished me and Rocky well for our last hours together.
I can't help but think that I'm doing the wrong thing. The past couple of days he has been fine. He's playing like he used to, eating lots and in general, being the dog he used to be. It has really made me question my judgement.
But deep down, I know that the bad days out number the good and want to make the right choice. I owe him that much.
We are going to bury him on my aunt's huge property and my whole family is going to be there. I have a little gravestone that has an engraving that says, "my beloved dog. My faithful companion. Always in our heart."
The next few hours are going to be the hardest hours of my life but before it is too hard to say, I must thank every single person who took the time to spare a though for Rocky over the past few months.
Mika, Kai and Pam... I don't know how to put in to words how much you have helped me and how much of a friend you have become.
Scooter, Sarah and the Beagle gang... You truly are amazing. So much so that Rocky is going to be buried with one of the toys you sent him, his favourite, the turkey sandwich
Flicka, Pam and the crew... Rocky's pebble made me cry in the nicest way. Thank you so much for adding him to your memorial. You have been a wonderful friend through all this and I can't thank you enough.
Everyone else who sent us their best wishes. Lexi and her family, Jackson Tan, Smiley Cassanova and many more that I can't think of right now.
I really don't know what else I can say right now. I only have a couple of hours left with my boy but he will always, always have a special place in my heart.
I can't imagine life without him.
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