|Barked: Tue Oct 25, '11 5:38am PST |
|thank you everyone, I am so blessed to have such great fellow dogster who care.... God bless each and every one of you '''
I had a dog who died of mammory cancer. It crushed me...
I just had a rough day yesterday... thinking of my dad and thinking of my mom every day really. My mom had cancer, but she literally suffocated to death, bc my lovely guardian brother/wife let her die like that bc they refused to let her go back to the hospital and have her abdomen drained. It crushed me to see her like that in a million pieces. If you ever experience that you will know how it literally feels to have your heart ripped out. The last day she was here I went home sobbing like never before, it was my plan to wake up and be at the court when they opened. But, I fell asleep that evening after crying myself to sleep at midnight. A call that I didn't want to get at midnight.
It took me about 6 months to recover from this happening. My dogs got me through the worst of it.
So many negatives can bring a person down... and it has since Nov. hard to believe it'll be a year soon.
The only thing I have is prayer.
I appreciate all your love and prayers.
I just don't know if I'll be ready for what is to come. The vet said if anything keeps progressing in his head the worst will be he will loose control in his back end and he will go down. I'll need you guys if it comes to that. Because I will have uthanize him '''''
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