Almost 2 years at the Bridge

Wow, time flies. I can't believe I
have been at the Bridge for nearly
2 years now. This is my new normal
now. I miss my family very much and
always will, but love my new friends
and to feel good and strong again,
I've forgotten how sick I was. I'm
still in my mamma's heart, that's
how I know what is going on at home
still. She just has to think about
me and I know exactly what is happening
there. I know Bunky has been very
sick for the past 2 months (she
thought he was going to be joining
me here). But he is making a slow
recovery. And Sitka, she's not
feeling well right now either.
She is 15 years old and mamma
worries about her. I would
dearly love to have my brother and
sister join me, but don't want to
be selfish and take them away from
my family too soon. I'm an official
greeter at the Bridge, so I get to
meet all the newbies when they
arrive. Most cannot believe that
they get to be new again. That
all of their pain & suffering is
gone. They of course miss their
families too, but learn (as I did)
that they are forever angels now
and will live in the hearts of
their families forever. They
just have to think about them and
"poof" there they are, together
again.
Well I guess I'll close for now.
I haven't written in a while but
wanted to let everyone know that
I'm doing good and not to worry
about me anymore. I love you
now as I always did.
Love, Kodi

My First year at the Bridge

Soon it will be my first year at the Rainbow Bridge.
I arrived with much fanfare on Sept 14, 2008.
I was met by my new eternity friends: Elsa, Angel,
Charley, and so many others. They made my first
days here wonderful. They showed me so many
things and made me feel welcome in my new
surroundings. Their forever families made my
mom and dad feel better too about my leaving
them. In their search for answers and comfort
they met many people who were grieving their
own losses, but wanted to help others in need.
It made a big difference in their quest to find
help in their time of great loss & helplessness.
To Mom & Dad: I just want you to know I am
Okay. I am better than Okay. I have adjusted
quite well here. I run and fly and play all day.
All of this with no pain, no cancer. I don't
blame you for sending me here. I was so sick
and you loved me so much, you made the
decision to let me go. I didn't want to leave
you on my own. Your faces were so sad, you
both cried so much. I thought I should stay
with you and be strong even though I was in
so much pain. But you let me go and I bless
you every day I'm here for that hard decision.
Even though I miss you both more than barks
can say, I love my life here. I love to greet
the new arrivals and let them know how much
they are still loved and will be loved for
eternity.
I love you Mom & Dad, thats forever you know!
Don't worry, we'll meet again. I promise.

July 14, 2009

Hi sweet boy!
It's been nearly 10 months since you've been at
the Rainbow Bridge. Are you enjoying your
summer? You're such an active boy that I know
you have many friends and play all day long.
This time last year you were starting to get ill.
I am so glad your suffering is gone. I miss you
so, but cannot bear that you were in pain.
I know you have forgiven us for taking you to
the vet the day we let you go. Your loving
nature will be in my heart forever, you are
definitely one in a million. Enjoy your summer
my sweet, you are gone but never forgotten.

May 8, 2009

Hi sweetie:
Sorry I haven't written in a while. I'm finding it a little
harder to visit this site and see your photos as often
as I used to. It seems more real now for some reason.
I can't put it into words I guess. I should be getting
better and coping easier. But it's not happening.
I still feel such a hole where you should be. The house
is still empty without you there. I feel you still, but
I want to hold you again. Bunky is not well, I just
pray he is not going to join you soon. I can't go through
this again in less than a year. Keep your watch over us
like you always do.
I'll be thinking of you on Mother's Day my sweet and I
know you'll be thinking of me too.
Love to you always,
Mom

6 months

Hi sweetie:
I just have to look at your page and I start crying still
(It's happening right now in fact). Wow, little man
it's been 6 months already that you are at the Bridge.
It doesn't seem possible. It seems like yesterday &
it seems like forever. How special you are!! My heart
is still so full of your love, that at times it just wants
to burst. When I look back at my earlier entries,
and I say that my heart was broken or you took a
piece of my heart when you left, I now know how
true those feeling were. At six months, my heart
still feels such grief and loss (most people would think
I'm nuts!) But you and I know, don't we sweetie, the
bond that was there between us, the bond that will
never be forgotten. The bond that we'll know again
when we meet again at the rainbow bridge. I feel
very close to you right now and I'm going to close with
that feeling. I'm going to sit here a moment and just
feel that special love we had and enjoy it and treasure
it. Enjoy your day my sweet!
Love, Mom

Happy Valentine's Day sweet Boy!

Hi my Angel,
I just wanted you to know that a day doesn't go by that I don't
think about you. There is still a empty spot in my heart that
is for you. I still look at your pictures and still can't believe
you are gone. But my heart is only filled with love and
all of the wonderful memories we were blessed with of you.
So on this Valentine's Day, I just wanted to give you a big
hug and kiss because I LOVE YOU and I always will.

I'm on Tula's Team 1/24/09

First of all, welcome to Dogster. You are one lucky pup! You have a wonderful new mom who will (does) love you so much. And a beautiful guardian angel who will help you all the way (Elsa).
Now I guess I need to tell six things about myself. It's kinda
hard now that I'm at the bridge but I'll try.
I've been at the bridge for about 4 1/2 months now. I've
made so many new friends here. It's wonderful. I didn't
know how sick I was until I wasn't sick anymore. Now I can
do everything I did as a pup and so much more. My wings
are my favorite. They allow me to fly through the clouds and
see all of the beautiful places. We have races here (and don't
tell anyone, but I'm the fastest!). We get all the treats we want.
I like the T Bonz (porterhourse flavor). We get as many as we
want here, no one tells us that we had too many, that's pretty
cool. I've found some of my family who passed before me,
Teddy, Kitties: Mr Boy, Mittens & Mao. It's good to have family
here. Then I don't miss my mom and dad quite so much.
I still watch over my family every day. I don't think that
will ever change. They need me. They need to know how very
much I love them (that's a forever thing, you know Tula?)
I guess that's all I have, I hope that's six things.
Happy, rainy Saturday to everyone.

Kodiak

Jan 13, 2009

Happy New Year Little Man!!
I know I'm a little late in telling you that, but it's always
been in my heart to do so. I think the fact that I don't
post as much is a sign that I am healing from losing you and
not concentrating on the loss so much. I just concentrate
on feeling so blessed to have had you with us for so long,
and know that I couldn't have loved you any more or
would have changed anything about our life together.
That doesn't mean I don't miss you sweetie, it just means
you will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart, but
we have to push on in this life or we end up awash in
grief and sorrow, and you were such a happy guy that
I know you would'nt want to be remembered that way.
So here's to you My sweet boy, have a wonderful
new year at the Bridge with all of your new friends.
We will take of things down here until we meet again.
I love you so much.

Mom

Christmas 2008

Hi little man,
It's hard to believe Christmas is here. Our first one without
you here with us. The house is decorated as usual, everything
is going on as usual except you aren't here. I feel your spirit
still strongly within these walls. I can close my eyes and see
you again. When I think of you, my heart still fills with love.
We miss you so much, but know that you are in a better place
and will never know pain again. You are an angel with wings
to fly, to soar like the wind. Your soul, your light will forever
shine within us. My brave little man, you are my hero.
As we celebrate the birth of our Lord & Savior this year, we
also celebrate how He blessed us with you for 12 1/2 years.
And that's what you have always been, a true blessing.
We love you, Mr K.
Have a very merry, first Christmas at the Bridge.

Love, Mom

Christmas is coming 12/11/08

Hi sweet boy,
I haven't posted for a while. I guess I felt I was being rather
repetitive in expressing my grief for missing you. We trimmed
the tree last Sunday. I cried when I opened the box with the
Eskie Angel ornament. It didn't have real meaning until this year
now that you are gone. The first Christmas without you will be
strange, but then every day seems strange without you here.
But I want you to know that we still miss you so much, but I also know that it doesn't help us to dwell on you loss but better to celebrate the wonderful years we had together. I know that
we will get stronger as time goes on, but we will never forget
what a dear special boy you will always be.

Love, Mom

p.s. Sunday will mark 3 months since you have been gone.
I would normally post a diary entry to mark these type of "anniversaries"
But not this time. Today I celebrate your life, not when you
left us.