November 23rd 2011 6:30 pm
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hi scootercrunch!! its me, mommie... sure you know that..
i mISS YOU SO MUCH!! the holidays.. the holidays.. what are they without you?? yes, i have rascal now.. yes, i'm loving her..don't misunderstand me.. i take nothing away from her.. she is a sweet pup.. and.. i do love her.....but...
oh how i miss you!! WE should be together this thanksgiving.. we should be together at christmas!! WE should JUST BE!!!
i hung your stocking, scootercrunch.. how i longed for you to pull it off the wall like you did..lol...i could never put your gifts in it till after you went to bed, lol.. i loved seeing you so excited..oh droopy, my dearest friend and love.. my heart hurts so bad.. i know probally that everyone is tired of hearing me say all this.. but i can't help it..YOU SHOULD BE HERE WITH ME!!i wish i could just go in a dark hole and sleep through the holidays... because thats how i feel anyway..like i'm in a dark hole.. my heart is broken & will never, never heal again..
part of my heart is allowing me to love rascal.. and she is bringing much joy back into my life.. but.. i also have this HUGE, black emptiness inside of me that nobody will ever help..
it will remain that way until i see you again..
i will love you forever droopy & miss you till my very last breath....until i open my eyes again & see you running towards me..into my arms & i will HOLD YOU!!! OH HOW I WILL HOLD YOU!!
i will hold you, kiss you & we will walk off together, never, NEVER to be parted again!!!
droopy, I LOVE YOU!!! i still cry every single day.. i cry in the morning, i cry at night, i cry on my way home from work..
i cry at work.. i just...cry.. I MISS YOU.. JUST MISS YOU & its just not right!! i'm sorry..its just not...
go get some rest now, scootercrunch & i will talk to you tomorrow.. i just know you will be havin a big thanksgiving feast at the bridge tomorrow.. you enjoy, but take it easy..o.k. remember to rest..
I LOVE YOU DROOPY, MY LOVE, mY LIFE!!!!
ALWAYS< FUREVER & EVER!!! love mommie!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING, my PUMPKIN!!!
November 17th 2011 6:22 pm
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I Saw an Angel
I saw an angel today, oh what a vision to see.
This beautiful angel sent only to me.
My eyes filled with tears at this glorious sight,
This angel so lovely made my heart feel so light.
I held an angel today, in my hands it did rest
Surely it had to be one of God's best.
So soft, so tender, so fragile it seemed
To hold such an angel was more than I dreamed.
I kissed an angel today, I just couldn't resist
As I looked at this sweetie I felt so much bliss
My heart over poured with a feeling of love
For this sweet little creature sent from Heaven above.
I lost an angel today; I guess God had other plans
This precious little life slipped right through my hands
My heart felt so empty as tears fell from my eyes
I didn't have the chance to say my good byes.
I saw an angel today, one I'll never forget
Those short precious moments I'll never regret
He took something with him on his journey above A piece of my heart to remember my love.
November 14th 2011 9:21 am
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hey droopster!! mommie here.. like i start everytime i write you
I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU SO, SO MUCH!!! i just still keep hoping i am going to wake up & everything will be right again..you will be here with me..but it never happens.. truth be told droopy, i sometimes just wish i'd never wake up..its been one month & 25 days.. 55 DAYS, droopy, 55 days!!! i can't deal with this.. i just can't.. this pain is so strong inside me.. i never have felt hurt like this before.. i don't want to sound like a broken record, but i can't help it.. its how i feel.. i want you back & if that can't be, then i want to be with you.. but i know i have to wait for god to take me.. i just, i just miss you!!! droopy you were something so special.. we had a bond that was so strong & true.. something i never had before in my life.. you also gave me so much love, friendship & fun..you taught me how to be happy again..and no matter what i do in my life, no matter what happens..i'll never feel that way again with anyone...i know you sent me the new pup, rascal..
i want you to know that i'm starting to love her..but she will never, NEVER take your place.. but i really think you know that.. there is nothing, nobody, no one that could ever take your place.. you are the most dearest, truest love of my life & furever will be.. i'm lost without you droopy, just lost...
and no matter what anyone says..i can't help but feel guilty..i just do..i feel like i let you down.. i know you were just laying there, you couldn't even stand up, couldn't eat, you couldn't even see me..but..you felt me..i'll never forget how you snuggled into me when i wrapped my arms around you.. it felt so wonderful to hold you & feel you cuddled up with me.. i know i couldn't let you live like that..just laying there..not able to move your one side..not able to eat.. i know i did what i did out of love... do you know this??? do you droopy??? i pray to god you do!!!! i know everyone must be gettin tired of me being like this.. i don't care, droopster.. i can't help how i feel. you were & ARE, a very special dog, droopy..very special!!! you will be forever... i look forward to the day i get to see you running towards me & you knock me over, kissin me, smiling & then we can walk off together & be with each other forever more... i love you scootercrunch, i love you.....
miss your smile....
miss your bark...
miss your chompers...
miss the way you ate, lol...
miss you snoring...
miss you next to me....
miss touching your fur...
miss you jumpin on me...
miss how you played....
miss watchin you run & be happy....
miss how you looked at me...
miss lookin into your beautiful brown eyes...
miss you snuggled up next to me...
miss you fallin asleep with your head on my lap...
miss your wiggle butt ....
miss you waitin for me when i got home.....
miss your excitment over a new toy or treat...
miss playin ball with you...
miss you sleepin next to me....
miss takin you places....
miss going for walks with you,....
miss your love....
miss your love..that you gave to me so easy.....
I MISS YOU DROOPY, sweet puppy, MOMMIE MISSES YOU!!!
your are my scootercrunch, my droopster, my love...
i thought we were gonna get old together... i miss you & my heart will forever be empty till we are together again...
only you droopy, can fix my heart & make me happy again, only you droopy...MOMMIE LOVES YOU!!!! i wILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS & FOREVER !!! i'll miss you droopy till i take my last breath & open my eyes & see you runnin towards me...only on that day, will my heart heal.
if i had just one wish, it would be for a stairway that reached up to heaven, so i could bring you home....
my special angel, my droopy...i love you & I"LL LOVE YOU ALWAYS!
miss you & will MISS YOU until that day we are together again...
have a good day droopy at the bridge..you run & play with all your new friends.. you b happy..please don't be upset over me, i'll hang in there so i can be with you one day...
talk to you soon, my love, never forget how much mommie loves you, droopy.. never forget... I LOVE YOU!!!!
November 7th 2011 6:30 am
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hi my sweet puppy, mommie here.. i wanted to talk to you.. i first want to tell you, like i do every single day..
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! i still keep hopin i'm going to wake up from this nightmare & you will be by my side...but it just goes on & on.. this pain inside me will never heal.. no matter what..
you were a very special pup, very special..one of a kind.. you gave me a love & a feeling of happiness i never, ever felt..
you saw me through bad times, sad times & happy times...
droopy, you were & ARE my only true love & will furever be!!!
now..i must talk to you bout your new sister, rascal..
i know you sent her to me.. we had that freak snowstorm, it was a saturday... i cried so hard..cause i know how you so loved the snow.. then 2 days later this puppy is brought to my attention & her name is "snowflake" that was too much!! i felt in my heart you chose her droopy... i changed her name to rascal(it suits her perfect) but snowflake will furever be a nickname & a name i keep in my heart.. even though i so truly believe in my heart you sent her..i can't help but feel guilty.. i know you are probally doing flips from cloud to cloud up at the bridge..i know you are happy mommie has a new pup to share my love with, i know this.... its just how i feel though..
i am loving your new sister, don't get me wrong... but i can't help that every time i tell her momma loves you, that i feel horrible inside... i hope this doesn't make me sound like a bad person.. droopy, you know how much love mommie has in her heart for pups..i think its just that my heart is just so ripped up by how you were taken from me & i think maybe i'm afraid to let myself feel that kind of happiness & love again..the love we shared & the bond me & you had droopy, will never be felt again..we really had something special.. but i know i can love this pup & give her happiness also.. i guess i just need to let myself feel that again.. i think i am afraid to let myself be happy again, droopy.. hopefully i will learn that its o.k. to feel that way again...
oh droopy, i will tell you this... your new sister is adorable & sometimes when i look into her eyes, i swear i see you looking back at me.. i mean i truly feel like i see you looking at me.. its like rascal's eyes are your eyes.. i don't know.. i'm probally not makin any sense so i will close this out now...
droopy, i'll tell you again honey... mommie MISSES YOU SO MUCH & I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU my ONE & ONLY SCOOTERCRUNCH!!!!
FUREVER & EVER!!! until i see you again droopy, you will furever be in my heart & my very soul... have a good day sweet pup.. play & run..but remember to rest... you always over did everything & wore yourself out, lol... so make sure you take time to rest... I LOVE YOU DROOPY!!! mommie
October 31st 2011 9:34 am
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hey droopster!!! mommie here, but, you know that!!! i just wanted to write to you a bit..i'll try not to ramble, lol...
oh droopy, where do i start??? its been 1 month & 11 days since i had to say good-bye to you.. yes, the tears are falling... it hurts me so much inside, droopy.. i truly don't think anyone understands this pain i feel.. except for all the wonderful pals you have here at dogster & all of the dear friends i've made.. i know, i know they understand.. for some have been through this & they know, all to well, the pain of losing a dear best friend. and my heart goes out to all of them also.. for i would not want anyone to feel like i do...
droopy, my love.. I MISS YOU!!! i'm so sorry, honey.. i try, TRY so hard to not let myself get like this.. i know how you hated to see me cry.. but i'm hurting, so much inside.. i still think a part of me is in shock & i keep thinkin i'm gonna wake up or come home & you'll be here!!! but.. another day, still i am alone. oh we had so much fun together & oh, oh how we loved each other!!! there are times i can look at your pictures & smile, even laugh..i remember every moment of everyday of each of your pictures.. you were so full of life & so happy.. that, at least, gives me some comfort..i do know you were a happy pup.
i was blessed & honored to be your mommie. your favorite time of year is upon us.. winter is near... we already had snow..
i cried so hard that day.. the first of many days to come i fear.. when we truly get our first major snow, i know i'm not going to do well.. you loved to sit on the porch in the sunshine, to run & play at aunt lisa's, get squirted with the hose.. you cracked me up... but.. to watch you play in the snow,
OMG, droopy you were beyond happiness.. you just loved it!!
i remember one year, we had so much snow..over 15 inches!! me & aunt lisa shoveled out paths for little layla & you, it was like a maze.. plenty of paths for you pups to run.. but you,
my droopster, didn't need the paths.. you ran right through the big piles of snow!!! somehow you found a ball(only you, lol)
and i would throw the ball into the snow & you would pounce on it, head first into the snow.. come out and you'd look like a snowdoggie!! lol.. remember the snowman...droopy?? lol.. me & aunt lisa built this snowman & you come runnin & plowed right into it, knocked its head right off!!
OMG!! we laughed so hard.. you were a character..my silly, crazy, full of fun puppy!!!
and the holidays..you loved them!! don't care what anyone says..i know you loved the lights.. just like mommie.. you'd sit there, so good while i struggled to get them up.. i could never put your presents out though, till after you went to bed christmas eve..you kept takin your stocking down, lol...
christmas morning we'd get up & i'd take you out & we'd come in & you were all about that stocking.. you had such excitment in your eyes.. i mean your eyes were so full of wonder & happiness & you truly were like alittle kid on christmas morning..
you'd be so happy to see your new toys & of course.. the biggest jumbone i could get for you!!! christmas night we'd sit there, the two us, together & relaxed after a long, wonderful happy day.. you'd take your new favorite ball to bed & snuggle next to me & go to sleep with that ball still in your mouth.. memories... so many of them..and so many more that we didn't get to make... your stocking will still be hung at christmas droopy, this year & every year.. a new ball will still be bought for you...i miss you so much, pumpkin..i wake in the night & long to have you snuggled up right next to me...
its so empty here without you.. my life is empty, my heart is heavy..i can't say my heart is empty..for its not.. its full of memories of you & me, full of love for you, full of sadness & pain...i pray so hard that you just know, know how much i miss you & LOVE YOU!!! no matter what droopy, mommie will always, ALWAYS LOVE YOU & I"LL ALWAYS MISS YOU!!! you were one of a kind.. you were something so special & you gave me a love so true & so strong. you showed me true love, droopy.. you showed me how to be happy again.. you made me appreciate the "little" things in life. and... droopy, you saved my life.. you brought me out of big, dark hole that i was living in..you saved my life & i feel you saved my soul.. you are truly my hero & truly, my dearest & most loyal friend. i wanted to grow old with you droopy.. i wanted you with me forever..i know you are still with me, in my heart & i know.. even though i can't see you, i know you are here... but oh how i wish i could just touch you one more time!!! just feel your fur against me.. look into those big, beautful brown eyes, kiss your nose, rub your belly, just hold you....just hold you..one more time....
i WILL, hold you though, everyday, every second in my heart.
you are my love of a lifetime, droopy...thank you for all the happy memories you gave me. run free & have fun with all of your new angel pals.. we will be together again, someday....
and i'll hug you so tight!!!! then instead of sad tears, they will be happy tears!!! tears of joy that i'm together again with my dearest, best friend!!!! you'll always be my scootercrunch, my droopster!!!
MOMMIE LOVES YOU SO MUCH & MISSES YOU!!!!
I LOVE YOU FOREVER DROOPY!!!!!!
October 31st 2011 8:21 am
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Look not where I was
For I am not there
My spirit is free
I am everywhere
In the air that you breathe
In the sounds that you hear
Don't cry for me Mom
My spirit is near
I'll watch for you
From the other side
I'll be the one running
New friends by my side
Smile at my memory
Remember in your heart
This isn't the end
It's a brand new start
October 28th 2011 4:31 am
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droopy, my best friend & love of a lifetime, i hope you had a wonderfur & pawtastic birthday!!! i'm sure you did!! i know all the angels gave you a pawty fit fur a queen!!! i know you took a break though, last night, and came to me.. i was sitting there quietly, i had two cupcakes, one for me & one for you,yours had a big number 8 candle in it... i sat there and waited...i felt you were there... i sang you happy birthday, i tryed so hard not to cry, afterall, it was your special day, i did not want to upset you...but again, i failed... the tears just came pouring out.. i heard myself scream your name & just collasped into a sea of tears... i composed myself.. it was your day..i would not upset you.. i sat there ..quiet tears running down my face.. i again sang happy birthday to you & blew your candle out.. i miss you so much sweetheart!!! we had big plans for your birthday... but i know the angels took care of you & you were in heaven singing & celebrating with all your new pals.. i'll stop back later droopy.. i'll write you more, i promise.. you know mommie will never leave.. have a wonderful day sweetheart!!! get some rest, o.k. i know you are tired..i know you played all day, so rest some...don't worry bout me, mommie will be o.k. i just miss you so much honey.. so so very, very much!!!! words can't describe how much i miss you or how much i dearly, deeply love you!!! go rest now... then have a day full of fun & surrounded by all your pals that i know love you so!!! you will always be my scootercrunch, my precious puppy, my droopster... my love... always know, MOMMIE LOVES YOU!! ALWAYS & FOREVER< I WILL LOVE YOU & MISS YOU!!!
October 24th 2011 7:13 pm
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droopy, my scootercrunch, my precious angel... I MISS YOU!!!! i want to write you so much more.. and mommie will will.. but right now sweetheart..i just want you to know how much I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU!!!you are & furever will be my puppy, my bestfriend, my love & my life...thank you droopy.. you gave me so much.. so much.. dear god how i ACHE inSIDE & MISS YOU!!!
i'll stop back tomorrow sweetie.. just can't do this right now..
but..droopy, you know I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU, FUREVER!!!
i'd give anything to have you right here beside me...to reach out & touch you.. feel you next to me in bed.. WHY!!?? WHY??!
yes, i still ask??? could i please just have one more chance to feel you..hold you, kiss your nose..snuggle you?? PLEASE!!!????!!??? no..i won't get that chance.. but..i will furever keep asking & praying...maybe..maybe..one day i WILL!!!!
goodnight sweetheart... i will stop by tomorrow.. promise you sweetie!! MOMMIE LOVES YOU DROOPY!!! FUREVER & ALWAYS!!!
i'll see you in my dreams, sweetie..i'll hold you close in my heart..all night lobg.. you will never b ALONE, droopy///
never!! MOMMIE LOVES YOU!!!! OH SO VERY VERY MUCH!!!!
October 14th 2011 6:13 pm
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"When you bring a dog into your life, you begin a journey. A journey that
will bring you more love and devotion than you have ever known, yet will
also test your strength and courage. If you allow, the journey will teach
you many things, about life, about yourself, and most of all, about love.
You will come away changed forever, for one soul cannot touch another
without forever leaving its mark.
Along the way, you will learn much about savoring life's simple pleasures --
jumping in leaves, snoozing in the sun, the joys of puddles, and even the
satisfaction of a good scratch behind the ears. If you spend much time
outside, you will be taught how to truly experience every element, for no
rock, leaf, or log will go unexamined, no rustling bush will be overlooked,
and even the very air will be inhaled, pondered, and noted as being full of
Your pace may be slower, except when heading home to the food dish, but you
will become a better naturalist, having been taught by an expert in the field.
Too many times we hike on automatic pilot, our goal being to complete the
trail rather than enjoy the journey. We miss the details: the colorful
mushrooms on the rotting log, the honeycomb in the old maple snag, the hawk
feather caught on a twig.
Once we walk as a dog does, we discover a whole new world. We stop; we
browse the landscape, we kick over leaves, peek in tree holes, look up,
down, all around. And we learn what any dog knows: that nature has created a marvelously complex world that is full of surprises, that each cycle of the
seasons bring ever changing wonders, that each day has an essence all its
Even from indoors, you will find yourself more attuned to the world around
you. You will find yourself watching: summer insects collecting on a screen;
how bizarre they are; how many kinds there are; or noting the flick and
flash of fireflies through the dark. You will stop to observe the swirling
dance of windblown leaves, or sniff the air after a rain. It does not matter
that there is no objective in this; the point is in the doing, in not
letting life's most important details slip by.
You will find yourself doing silly things that your dog-less friends might
not understand: spending thirty minutes in the grocery aisle looking for the
exact brand of food your companion must have, buying dog birthday treats, or
just driving around the block an extra time because your dog enjoys the
You will roll in the snow, wrestle with chewie toys, bounce tennis balls
till your eyes cross, and even run around the house trailing your bathrobe
tie with a puppy in hot pursuit, all in the name of love.
Your house will become muddier and hairier. You will wear less dark clothing
and buy more lint rollers. You may find dog biscuits in your pocket or
purse, and feel the need to explain that old socks adorn your living room
floor because your dog loves an impromptu game of tug. You will learn the
true measure of love--the steadfast, undying kind that says, "It doesn't
matter where we are or what we do, or how life treats us as long as we are
Respect this always. It is the most precious gift any living soul can give
another. You will not find it often among the human race. And you will learn
humility. The look in my dog's eyes often made me feel ashamed--such joy and
love at my presence! She saw not some flawed human who could be cross and
stubborn, moody or rude, but only her wonderful companion. Or maybe she saw
those things and dismissed them as mere human foibles, not worth
considering, and so chose to love me anyway.
If you pay attention and learn well, when the journey is done, you will be
not just a better person, but the person your dog always knew you to be--the
one they were proud to call beloved friend.
I must caution you that this journey is not without pain. Like all paths of
true love, the pain is part of loving. For as surely as the sun sets, one
day your dear companion will follow a trail you cannot yet go down. And you
will have to find the strength and love to let them go.
A dog's time on earth is far too short, especially for those of us that love
them. We borrow them, really, just for a while; and during these brief years
they are generous enough to give us all their love, every inch of their
spirit and heart, until one day there is nothing left. The dog that only
yesterday was a puppy is all too soon old and frail and sleeping in the sun.
The young pup of boundless energy now wakes up stiff and lame, the muzzle
gone to gray.
Deep down we somehow always knew that this journey would end. We knew that
if we gave our hearts they would be broken. But give them we must, for it is
all they ask in return. When the time comes, and the road curves ahead to a
place we cannot see, we give one final gift and let them run on ahead, young
and whole once more. "God speed, good friend," we say, "until our journey
comes full circle and our paths will cross again."
October 12th 2011 8:07 pm
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my droopster girl... mommie here... i have so much i want to write to you.. but right now my mind is just not, its just not ready to , well, my mind is just very confused & overwelmed right now, sweetheart. so for now i just want you to know how very much i love you!!!
droopy, you did so much for me.. so very much.. you showed me the true meaning of love.. you made me feel the true meaning of love...i never would of thought i could fall in love with a "dog" but oh how i did.. head over heels in love with you i fell, droopy . completely,.. my whole heart & soul i gave to you... and i know... you gave me your heart & soul also...
i think of you every minute, every second of every day..i miss you like i never have missed anyone or anything..
droopy, you opened my heart..you brought life..LOVE, back into my life.. you saved me... you taught bed time fut now..sweetie.
I LOVE YOU!!! oh dear god HOW I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU!!!
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