My amazing boy Merlin

Good morning my handsome big boy. I wish I could snuggle up with you right now, its so cold, its very windy, I think we may have a storm on its way. Knowing you, you would have gone outside to do your business and run straight back indoors, open my bedroom door and jump on my bed. You do love your comfort my boy.

Bella is getting really nasty lately with Molly. I know Molly can be a pain in the neck at times, but there's no need to turn nasty, well not as nasty as Bella is getting. I do understand why, Bella is getting old and wants to be left alone. But the thing is, when the dogs go outside and Spud tries to annoy Bella, Molly stops him. I am REALLY waiting for Molly to get a lot bigger and heavier and give Spud a taste of his own medicine, he does go over the top with Molly at times, I've had to step in lots of times and and stop him hurting Molly.

Oh dear the wind has just picked up, it really is nasty outside now, I bet the sea around the Cape is really bad right now.

Time to go play my lovely boy and have some amazing fun with your buddies. I am really looking forward to the time when we are together again, but this time forever.

I do love you so much Merlin, please never forget that.

Your ever loving Daddy.

My wonderful and amazing big boy Merlin

Good morning my lovely boy.

Its a bit wet and cold outside this morning, it rained just about all night long. Usually I have problems getting Spud in after he goes to the toilet at night, last night he ran out did his business and ran straight back in.

Molly has got a new trick, she attacks her shadow and I am not kidding. I just roll my eyes, turn the lights off and then she wonders where her shadow has gone. I thought you did some daft things like trying to come in through the front door with a ten foot tree branch, then wondering why you have come to a dead stop, but Molly really takes the cake.

It was so cold last night, Molly jumped up on my bed to get warm, then during the early hours of this morning I woke up to find Hobo laying there. The problem with Hobo, he really takes up too much room so I had to shoo him off. If looks could kill I'd be stone dead right now, he was totally disgusted that I made him get off.

Time to go play with your buddies Merlin and have some fantastic fun with your buddies.

I do love you so much Merlin my sweet and handsome boy.

Your ever loving Daddy.

My amazing boy Merlin

Good afternoon Merlin, hows my wonderful big boy today?

It's not a nice day today, it's been raining and its very cold, but thankfully no wind. I wanted to work on your mums car today, but the rain has put paid to that.

Molly behaved herself yesterday despite Spud trying to influence her to be naughty. I gave her a good girl treat and gave her a hug. She can be a good girl when she tries. She does however, try and lick Bella which ends up i Bella snapping at her, Molly and Spud are so jealous, if I am giving Molly a cuddle, Spud starts snapping at her and trying to push his way in, and if I give Spud a cuddle, Molly gets jealous and tries to push her way in. It gets worse when Bella gets a cuddle, both Spud and Molly try to push in leading to lots of snapping and snarling.

Mind you, you use to get jealous when I gave Spud a cuddle, you snarled and growled at Spud and pushed your way in, I had to tell you "I love both of you," and give both of you a cuddle at the same time.

Time to go play my lovely boy and have some amazing fun.

Remember, "I love you so much Merlin, my love for you is bigger then the universe."

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Good morning my amazing boy Merlin.

Its not too bad a day today Merlin, but it could also change in an instant as you know.

Molly was so naughty yesterday, she would not do as she was told and lead me on a merry chase all around the property, she would not obey me to "Come here," She didn't get her usual "good girl" treat when I finally got hold of her and she looked very put out. She didn't even jump up on my bed last night, I think she knew she was in the dog house. I never had any problems with you at all Merlin when you were a puppy, I could take your lead off and you would follow me everywhere, if you did run off to chase a butterfly I only had to call you and you came running. You were a extremely good puppy, very obedient and you always did as you were told.

Poor old Bella is really feeling her age now, she just wants to lay in the sun and chill, when Spud lets her! I'll say one thing for Molly, she does chase Spud away from Bella.

Time for you to go play my lovely boy and have some fun with your buddies.

I do love you so much Merlin and I miss you more then you will ever know.

Your ever loving Daddy.

My amazing boy Merlin

Good morning Merlin, I am so happy to be able to talk to you my boy, as it does dull the pain of losing you a little.

Its not too bad a day today, overcast no wind but quite warm, quite a nice day to run and play my boy and because of the high winds we have had, there are lots of sticks on the ground for me to throw and you to chase.

It always amused me that when you got to the stick after I had thrown it and you had gone running off at full pelt, there was a huge cloud of dust, then there was you coming out of the dust cloud looking for all the world like you were grinning and so proud of yourself. Sometimes you would tease me by dropping the stick at my feet, then as I bent down to pick it up you would grab it and do a little dance around me with it in your mouth. So to get my own back Id turn my back on you, you'd drop the stick and bark at me to pick it up, when I refused you really got annoyed. Then I'd pick it up and throw it for you. We had so much fun Merlin, I wish we had those days back again my boy, I miss them so much.

Time to go play Merlin and have some fun with your buddies.

I do love you so much Merlin, far more then words can ever say.

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Good morning my sweet boy.

I think of you every single day Merlin. Sometimes I sit and cry that you are no longer beside me, other times I sit and smile when I remember the good times we had together. When you left me Merlin I wept for days, my heart felt like it had been ripped out, but one thing consoled me my boy, you were no longer in pain. I do miss you so much and the past 6 months since you left at times feels like yesterday, other days feels like forever, many times I cannot really take it in that you have gone. I look forward to the day when we will met again Merlin, what a wonderful day that will be, with my beloved Merlin forever.

Molly's colours are changing, her tan is starting to replace more and more of her black, but it does look like she might end up with a tan "Bitch Stripe" down her back. She is getting bigger and stronger and heavier. When she lays on my legs she cuts the blood supply off just like you did.

Time to go play my sweet and wonderful boy and have some fun with your buddies.

I do love you so much Merlin and there is an empty feeling in my stomach, and I do miss you so much, my perfect in every way big boy.

Your ever loving Daddy.

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Good morning my amazing boy. Its not a bad day here today, its sunny, no clouds and a little wind, not gale force as it can be at times. I think you would enjoy yourself running and playing.

I was thinking this morning about the times when Lady Zara (the mother of your puppies) from next door came onto the property to play with you. I'd throw a stick for you, she would run with you but never attempted to pick the stick up. She really was such a sweet little girl and without a doubt you were boyfriend and girlfriend. Whenever she came into the house you never minded when she jumped up onto my lap, you looked as if to say, "Its OK I don't mind sharing my Daddy with you." Then she disappeared for a while, and one day I saw Bella looking towards the woodpile and sniffing, I investigated and found she had made a little den and gave birth to her babies. When she saw me she came running over with her tail wagging as if to say, "Come look at my babies I am so proud of them." She allowed you to come look at her babies, but she did not allow Bella or Hobo anywhere near them. I was scared that snakes would bite them so I relocated them. She didn't mind at all when I picked them up and carried them to somewhere safer. Wonderful memories Merlin.

Time to go play and have some fun my special boy.

My love for you is total and forever Merlin, please don't forget that.

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Good morning my amazing boy, it's so good to talk to you everyday.

Its a bit cold this morning again, but the sun is out and there isn't a cloud in the sky neither is there any wind.................so far.

I watched a video on youtube about a little boy who was being chased by a litter of puppies, the boy fell over and was immediately jumped on by the puppies, then I remembered you being chased by Lady Zara's litter. It really was so funny to watch Merlin, I was amazed how they kept up with you. I hoped that you would tire them out so they would go to sleep, but no such luck, as soon as you stopped they were all over you. You gave me one of your pleading looks as if to say, "Get these little monsters off of me please Daddy." You really were so patient with them, it was if you knew they were your babies. I use to love watching you interact with them, them looking up at you and you looking down at them, I could imagine the puppies asking, "Are you my Daddy?" and you answering "Yes my boy." You always did have a wonderful kind heart Merlin, it was bigger then the universe.

Time to go play my boy and have some fun with your buddies.

I do love you so much Merlin and I so wish you were by my side again, I really miss you Merlin as God is my witness.

Your ever loving Daddy.

Good morning my sweet and wonderful big boy.

Hello Merlin my amazing and handsome boy.

Its is so cold this morning, the sort of morning that you would poke your nose outside, sniff and them come back inside. Nutty Spud however, wants to go outside, that boy really needs his head read.

I just had a couple slices of your mums home made bread with slightly salted butter, yum so nice. I know you loved her bread too, you would stare at me while I was eating, watching every mouthful I took, until I gave in and gave you some. If I turned away you would get up and sit in front of me again looking at me until I gave in. You really could twist me around your paws.

I hope you had a good Fathers Day yesterday Merlin, Spud is still being his normal annoying self! I don't think he is ever going to grow up, he still thinks, acts and plays like a puppy. Bella's eye has gone down now, but she is still very grumpy with Molly, she gets so fed up with annoying pups who tries to lick her and wont behave. Remember how grumpy Bella use to get with you? How you never got bitten by her, I'll never know.

Time for you to go play my boy and have some fun.

I love you so much Merlin and I miss you beyond words.

Your ever loving Daddy

My wonderful big boy Merlin

Good afternoon Merlin, hows my special boy today?

As you know its Fathers Day today, so Mike took me for lunch, it was quite nice I must admit. Its Father day for you too Merlin. Happy Fathers Day my wonderful boy. Melissa brought Mia into me this morning and I had a lovely cuddle with her, she was looking at me and laughing. She is such a pretty little girl Merlin, I know you would have loved her and protected her. I hope Molly takes after you my lovely boy.

Its a bit cold today, it began to spit with rain awhile ago and its very overcast. Not a play kinda day my boy, more of a cuddle up to keep warm kinda day.

Molly is laying in your favourite spot under my desk. She takes after you in so many ways my boy, if she is half as wonderful as you, I will be very happy with her. No dog will ever be as good as you my boy, you are so special Merlin, a boy like you only comes along once in a life time. I just wish we had more time together, but the time I did have with you Merlin I will cherish forever.

Time to go play my boy and have some fun with your buddies.

I love you so much Merlin and Happy Fathers Day.

Your ever loving Daddy