Life of the Turner Dog

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Last night...

April 23rd 2012 4:56 pm
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I was sleeping at grandma and grandpas. When I thought I heard you lick. That was your signal to me to lift the blanket so you could crawl under and curl. When I realized you weren't there I was freaked out. It was 4 am. I paced the porches until I calmed down. Missing you Mr. Man..

Mom...

 

1 year after your gone...

April 14th 2012 9:33 pm
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One this day one year, 365 days ago, we made the toughest decision in our lives. We had to let you go, you were suffering and it wasn't fair to you. Turner I miss you so much it hurts. I still cry and wish I could have you with me. It wasn't fair the way it all went down. You were supposed to live until you were old. I could handle that. But 7? No that wasn't fair at all. I think about the last week we had with you. After the 2nd surgery. How I just knew it would be bad news. And sure enough, when I came home from work there was Dad downstairs. When I got home Grandma said it wasn't good news. I went downstairs and all your dad said was, "why? why did you have to be right about this one." I told in the morning when I left for work him that I just had a feeling that it was going to be bad. I knew it, the last time I saw you, the light in your eyes was gone. I knew it was over, but didn't want to believe it until I heard the biopsy results. Cancer, nothing more can be done, loaded with masses, the end result will be the same and worst off - suffering. You did not deserve to be in any more pain. You were my best friend, we spent so much time together while dad was at work. We traveled from Florida and Texas to the north all the time. You were the best road dog I ever knew. I always felt safe with you beside me. Dad knew it too, he didn't worry as long as I took you along.

Now I live with the guilt that you suffered. That was why I couldn't hold you when you took your last breath. For as long as I live I will regret that. I was so shocked that I was really going to lose you forever that I just couldn't be there. Your dad, having seen so much death inside the prison walls looked at me and cried, he couldn't handle anymore loss of life. Especially yours. After we gave permission to have you pts we cried for hours, days, months and yes a year.

I didn't eat for 3-4 days afterwards. I was so numb. I couldn't believe what happened. How could you be gone. The house was silent. Darcy was like a lost ghost. What was I going to do now? Then I started to go through your file. And I realized that you weren't give a fair chance. I found a lump, had the other vet remove it. He hurt you, and I swore he would never touch you again. And he didn't. He failed both you and me. And I am making sure he never fails someone and their companion again. I gathered your information like it was an investigation at work. Got all of the paperwork, photos - evidence together and got pissed off. If there is one thing about me, once I'm angry, not mad, angry, I do not quit. Once I got your ashes back I started. I filed a formal complaint with the licensing board. It took quite some time, but 2 investigators came to the house to interview me and dad. 2 1/2 hours later they left, shaking their heads in disbelief. Now there is a prosecutor assigned to your case. I'm calling on Monday for my latest follow-up. This person failed us and he will be held responsible. When the investigator asked if I would come to Harrisburg for a hearing and I agreed he actually smiled. Like they've been after this guy and nobody would go the distance. I told the investigator that I'm patient, my dog is dead and I'm not going to rest until he is stopped.

My only saving grace is that I found Dr. Mount and her staff. You loved them and they found the Turner-man's magic irresistable. They were completely understanding about me and dad not being there for you at your last breath. They were very honest with us from the beginning, never promising a miracle - yet they hoped as did us. We just weren't lucky and loss you on April 15, 2011 - the worst day of our lives. I waited until Midnight to write this as I will not be on-line during this day at all. I don't want to read this and be reminded of my real feelings, for they hurt till this day like they did a year ago.

I miss you Turner, I think about all of the things we did together and smile. But the loneliness can be overbearing sometimes. We have Grunt now - he's nothing like you. Which I guess is good, because there will never be another Turner. He keeps me company and is learning to alert if something isn't right. But it's not the same, it will never be the same and that sucks.

I'm going to sleep now. I finally stopped having bad dreams about you and just remember the good times we had. I love you and miss you so much it hurts...

Hugs...

Mom

 

10 months yesterday.

February 16th 2012 6:55 am
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Not a good day when I think of you. I cannot believe it's been 10 months. I miss my boy. Darcy is doing really well. She actually let me rub her ears and rolled on her side... I was thrilled. Grunt passed his STAR classs. He's doing really well and makes me laugh.

10 months, 10 freakin months - just sucks Turner...

 

Dog of the Day!! Yippeee!!

January 28th 2012 6:12 am
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Thanks Dogster for having me as Dog of the Day!! I love Dogster and all of my friends here! This is the BEST place to laugh, cry and have an overall good time!

Have a great day everyone!!! :):):)

 

Your case...

January 20th 2012 8:52 am
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Talked to the State Licensing about your case. Your case was assigned to a prosecutor. I'm hoping that's good news. I hope we go for a hearing. I would love to look at him as his world crumbles just like ours did.

Miss you Turner, love you..

Mom

 

Happy New Year Mr. Man

January 1st 2012 5:24 pm
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I miss you terribly! I'm glad 2011 is over, it sucked. I lost more friends and friends dogs to cancer, motorcycle accidents and heart issues. It sucks - period. Remember Mojo? That's when I learned about reactive dog issues - he passed and then 6 months later his brother Max passed. So sad...

So for 2012 I hope that things get better. I hope. I hope that I go to the Licensing Board and my complaint against that mean ol vet gets found in our favor. I hope that Grunt continues to learn and be a good boy. I hope that Darcy continues to come out of her scarey world. I hope that life gets just a little bit better...

 

Merry Christmas Turner - Miss You!

December 25th 2011 9:47 am
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Miss you so much! The house isn't the same - no presents for you to open. You loved opening presents. I put a tree up but that is pretty much it. Just not in the spirit without you. I'm ready to take it down now.

You sent us Grunt and he's a good boy. Thank you. He sticks right by me when I'm home. I'm using your Gentle Leader on him and hoping your spirit is still there to teach him.

I'm sorry you had to suffer with cancer. We never knew and I'll live with the memories of you crying in pain and being uncomfortable. It haunts me to no end. I'm so sorry. :(

I hope you're up there somewhere with the girls (we love and miss them also) but you were my special one, my once in a lifetime one. We haven't had much snow this year. You saw more snow that most dogs we know! Darcy is doing good. Grunt keeps her on her toes and they play and sleep together during the time I'm at work. Grandpa met Grunt and was pretty rude to him and now Grunt doesn't trust him. I wish grandpa would realize that Grunt is not you. Grandpa loved you so much also. He bought you a toy before you died and you never got it. He still has it as far as I know. So maybe you could send some magic down to grandpa for us? Thanks bud.

Well Turner, I've got to get ready for work. It takes my mind off of alot of things that make me sad right now. There is no snow on the ground and it's cold, just not how it should be. We love you Turner and miss you so much. Merry Christmas!

Love to you my boy,

Mom and Dad

 

8 Months

December 15th 2011 7:45 am
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You've been gone, I still think of everything that happened. I still cry when dad isn't around to see. I still hurt thinking about you not being here. It still sucks not holding, walking, talking, just being with you. I wish we never moved here, would you still be with us if we stayed in Texas? I'll never know...

Love you Turner,

Mom

 

Investigators

November 8th 2011 4:35 pm
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State investigators came yesterday and talked to me and dad for almost 1 1/2 hours. It was interesting to say the least. They had lots of questions and me and dad and plenty of answers. Now we wait, again. They have to have their "expert" verify all of the information and then they will determine weather to pursue it further legally. We have our fingers crossed. I have to say I did pretty good, I only cried a few times. The investigators were very patient with me and were also impressed with the information and evidence we had against the mean vet. So, Turner, we are still trying to get justice for your undue suffering. We love you and miss you terribly...

Mom and Dad

 

Monday....

November 4th 2011 2:05 pm
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The investigator will be out on Monday to gather/confirm the information and discuss our case. No other dog or owner should go through what we went through. Hopefully we'll win our case...

 
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