August 7th 2012 6:18 am
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good morning my sweet girl.. i just wanted to say i love you! i know i tell you everyday how much i love you & miss you, but i just wanted to talk a bit. i've been thinking alot of how just last year at this time we were together & it just doesn't seem real that you are gone now..
i can remember things we did so clearly & i can see you so clearly that i feel like i can touch you. i heard this song the other day at work that just made me fal apart.. i didn't care who saw me cry, didn't care what they thought,the pain was so intense inside me that i could not hide it. i've heard the song many times, but that day, it really hit me. i went home, sat in front of your memorial & talked to you.. if only i could have one more day, just one day to spend completely with you. just me & you. no phone, no tv, nothing...
we'd play, go for a walk on your favorite trail, a ride just anywhere, you loved to go for rides...i'd make us your favorite dinner & we'd just snuggle on the couch & then go to bed & i would hold you all night. whispering how much i love you. but like the song says, if i had that one more day with you, it would leave me wishing still for yet one more and then one more....it would never end, because one more day would not be enough. but i wish i could just see you, if only for a minute, just to see you, look into your beautiful brown eyes & know you are alright. i miss you so much droopy. its horrible & i feel horrible inside. i pray you know how much i love you still & ALWAYS, ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU! i'm sure you know that, but still i pray.
i'm trying not to be sad for you droopy, i know how you hated to see me cry, but its hard scootercrunch. i've been calling your name more & missing you so much! time may help to ease the pain for some, but for me, all time is doing is making this pain grow stronger..i mostly keep it to myself these days. i'm sure some are tired of hearing about it.
i know you have so many wonderful friends here at dogster that understand, but still, i try to just keep it inside me..until my heart can't hold anymore & i break down & sob for hours..then slowy my heart starts to fill back up with pain again. most days i am just numb inside, but i've gotten pretty good at hiding it, unless i'm alone...
i never could hide my feelings from you though.. you always knew just how i felt.. you were that smart, that wonderful & that loving !
well my sweet girl, guess i better get going. you have a good day! go run & play with all your many angel pals! just remember to rest & stop by the pond to get a drink, o.k. you loved to play, oh how you were so full of life! your heart was so warm & loving!
oh droopy, HOW I MISS YOU!!! I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY PART OF MY VERY SOUL! i will never stop missing you until i have you in my arms again & see those beautiful brown eyes of yours! i will NEVER STOP LOVING YOU DROOPY, NEVER! talk to u soon, my scootercrunch, love mommie
I LOVE YOU DROOPY, FOREVER & ALWAYS!
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Love and hugsssssssssssss
Oh Lori, it breaks Mama's heart to know you are in such pain... One More Day ALWAYS makes me cry and think of Hanna and Tweek too.. Such a sad and beautiful song.. If you ever want to talk, you can always call mama anytime...
We love you friend...
Snapper and the Miller Pack
what a sweet post