hi scootercrunch!!!

hey droopster!! how are you sweetheart??? you know...i mISS YOU SO MUCH!! i can't believe today is wednesday & its also the 21st...
6 months ago, on a wednesday, also the 21st, we had to say goodbye..
my god droopy, DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU!!??
let me tell you, my sweet big puppy..I MISS YOU & LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN SAY!! i feel like i am going through that horrible day all over again.. i can't believe its been 1/2 a year already.. it seems like yesterday to me, everyday..the pain hurts me so horrible & harsh inside..my body aches from crying so much, my mind is tired, my body is tired.. i don't sleep like i should..i worry bout you & i know you are o.k. now...but..i can't help but worry.. you know, thats how mommie is.. a big worrier..
i really think i am still in some kind of shock... i look at your picture on your urn & i just lose it..it just can't be, this can't be real!! NOT MY DROOPY!! i believed we would grow old together, i believed we would be together , together, me & you, till we went together...some may say thats stupid to think, crazy even, i don't care.. thats how i felt.. i long to touch you one more time, to look into your big brown eyes.. to feel you next to me while i sleep, look in the door when i come home & see you standing there, wiggle butting & waiting to jump on me & love me up.. i just long to have you back..
this pain.. this pain.. its almost like i can't breathe sometimes, thats how strong this hurt is inside me.. i sometimes actually gasp for air..i feel like i'm choking..
i'm doing o.k. with rascal, honey, your sweet, precious gift you sent me..i do love her.. and i know she is NOT a replacement.. first of all, there WILL NEVER BE A REPLACEMENT FOR YOU DROOPY, you are ONE OF A KIND, LOL...i know rascal is here to let me continue the love..
but droopy.. i can't hide this pain all the time.. i just can't..
i try so hard.. i laugh, i have fun in your groups...but.. so many times i am writing & you are laughing & dancing, i'm sitting here sobbing my eyes out, my heart laying in pieces..i'll never get another picture of you, i'll never get another kiss, a hug, that "droopy look"
i want to HOLD YOU DROOPY, RIGHT NOW!! i want to tell you how much I LOVE YOU SCOOTERCRUNCH & WILL FUREVER & ALWAYS!!
i will never understand what happened & why.. and droopy, if it was my fault, please, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! you know i would never hurt you!! i wish i had done more.. i just don't know what the hell i missed!!
but i sure missed something.. and no matter what anybody says, i'll never forgive myself.. never.. i only hope you forgive.. i know you will, thats the type of pup you are.. loving, caring & gentle..
my gentle giant..
just listen sweetheart.. MOMMIE LOVES YOU, mommie LOVES YOU SO DEEPLY & DEARLY!! i'll ALWAYS LOVE YOU!! my heart will always beat with your memories, our memories.. the greatest love of all was our love!!
our bond, friendship & love will forever live strong in my heart!!
our memories will always play in my mind..you will live forever droopy, in my thoughts, memories & my HEART!!
you WILL NEVER, NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!! for you are truly the only one true friend i ever had!! i cry droopy, i cry very much.. in fact..i sob like i never knew was possible..BUT.. I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD!!!
please don't forget me & all the love we shared.. we still share that love, in each of our hearts...we will forever, scootercrunch!!
MOMMIE LOVES YOU DROOPY, MOMMIE LOVES YOU!!
sweet dreams my pumpkin..i'll see you in mine tonight, like i do everynight..my big puppy, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! mommie xoxoxoxoxoxo
I MISS YOU DROOPY, MY GOD HOW I MISS YOU!!!

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