my life with my mommie, by droopy

my droopy..

September 22nd 2011 4:19 pm
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my many, many dear, sweet loving friends.. with my heart ripped apart & my soul shattered... i must tell you all, my love, my dearest , truest & best friend, is now at the bridge.. it came without warning.. it came without warning.. i am in shock & i am devasted..AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW DROOPY!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sorry.. i'm screaming.. my droopy was fine.. we had a wonderful weekend.. we played.. we were together.. monday afternoon..droopy ate.. i took her outside.. we came in.. she walked over towards the couch & i said, whatcha doin poop head...lookin for your ball...then i was like..droopy, whats wrong.. her eyes were vacant.. I SCREAMED.. DROOPY..!!!! she stumbled.. and she just collasped into a fit of convulsions..
i was A WRECK!!! i paniced!!! i just was freaking out!! i got hold of my little sister(droopy's aunt lisa) and my one friend.. they were here in seconds.. we picked droopy up in a blanket.. by this time she had taken 3 different seizures.. i had called her vet & he was meeting us there.. we got her there.. vet gave her a sedative & of course, said she needed to stay.. well, overnight, she took 2 more seizures.. my dear sweet droopy was given anti-seizure meds.. but.. they did not stop.. her dr. feels that droopy had a pre-existing condition..
not sure how to spell..but that she was a lightned?, blightned??
epeliptic... for whatever reason.. she had seizures..
i kept hope.. until wednesday.. when i spoke to the dr, & he told me that droopy's face was , don't know how else to put it, was drooping.. the seizures had caused major brain damage on her right side.. i went to her, she was looking around, but never, not once, did she ever look at me..her eyes were ..blank..they were just, my droopy was not there.. but.. i held her.. and she snuggled next to me.. i know she may not have been able to see me, but she felt me..i held her , i kissed her, i layed down beside her & she nestled into my arms & closed her eyes & rested.. excuse me if i typw wrong, but i can't see.. through the tears,,. she could not stand, could not even eat... i had to make the hardest choice of my life & let my sweet baby free.. its not FAIR!! NOT FAIR I TELL YOU!!! i think now..what did i miss???!!! what didn't i see???!! but there were no signs!! i LOVE MY DROOPY & I DID EVERYTHING FOR HER!! i would of given my life for my sweet puppy!! 7 years is NOT LONG ENOUGH!! MY GOD!! WHY!!! WHY!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!
DROOPY!!!!!! DROOPY!!!!!!!! i held my girl until she went to sleep and i collasped next to her.. we had so much more to do together.. so much more fun.. droopy loved the snow!!! loved it!!! now my puppy is gone!!! i am so full of anger!!! i have never questioned god before & i don't like it now.. but i'm sorry.. WHY!! WHY TAKE MY INNOCENT< SWEET BABY SO SO YOUNG!!!
i just am wondering around in this empty house..lost.. so lost & all alone..i love droopy, love her dearly!! please, please tell me she is safe!!! please tell me she is not scared!!
please tell me my baby knows mommie did what she did out of love!!! droopy could not of lived like that.. that was not living. her brain was damaged so bad that she couldn't even look at me or see me.. but.. what gets me the most is WHY!!! WHY ALL OF A SUDDEN THIS THIS HAPPEN!!! i know the vet explained to me.. but right now my heart is so full of grief & , yes, anger, that i can't think... justy please..my dear friends.. droopys dear, dear sweet pals.. go see her page.. sit & listen to her new songs & pray.. please...pray!! tell her how much mommie loves her & how deeply i am missing her.. my heart & my soul have been ripped out of me.. i have nothing left..nothing.i will never recover from this horrific lose.. when my droopy passed..my heart died.. droopy has so many dear, WONDERFUL PALS HERE!!! and you ALL ARE LOVED DEEPLY!! i'm in pain now.. please bare with me..i will not let my droopy's memory down.. but..i do need time to deal with this sudden & tragic lose of my dearest love.. karen, thank you for what you said in your e-mail.. i understand.. just please everyone..give me time.. it was me & droopy.. only us.. she was my gift , my love, my everything.. i will not leave dogster, droopy's dear sweet pals, don't worry.. my angel will be flying here everyday just has she always did.. just please, give her mommie some time.. i'm sorry for my outburst.. please forgive me.. and please, all of droopy's dear sweet pals.. don't ever forget her.. she is a great pup!! my scootercrunch & my one & only love, furever!! me & droopster will always have a bond.. always.. thank you all for your time & i love each & everyone of you !! and god bless you all for your kindness & support in this horrible time.. DOGSTER PALS RULE!!! I LOVE YOU & DROOPY LOVES YOU!!! GOD BLESS!!! LORI , droopys mommie

 
 

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Barked by: Hunter *Rest in Peace* (Dogster Member)

September 22nd 2011 at 4:42 pm

We're so sorry to hear of Droppy's passing. Letting our fur babies go is the hardest thing to do. Droppy knows that you love her and will always love her. Hugs to you, Droppy's Mommy.
Barked by: Flicka ~ CGC (Dogster Member)

September 22nd 2011 at 5:55 pm

Sweet lady...

Droopy KNEW you were there.. you snuggled.. she KNEW... KNOWS she was loved. You have just given her the greatest gift of love any can give.. you set her free to become whole again.

You gave her permission to fly.... she WILL come back to you in many many ways.. give her time.. and you need time too.

You did NOT miss anything.... nothing at all.... this is the way it just happened. I asked myself the same thing when I lost my 8 yr old Cleo in 24 hrs... I beat myself up over it.. but you know... we did NOT miss things. We loved like only true heartsong can love... and THAT is all that can be done.

No.. its isnt fair.. there is nothing remotely fair about loss. Our mistake is to look for fair play.. and that doesnt come into it. It isnt FAIR.. but it is how it is.

We here love you and love the wonderful kind loving person you are. Grieve.. but above all CELEBRATE LIFE... celebrate the love Droopy gave you.. and love never dies.. she is in your heart.. and ALWAYS will be.

There are many arms and paws here to hold you when and if you need.

With Love and HUGSSS

Pam

Why?
That's what we ask.
The truth is,
we may never
be able to know
for sure why.

But we do know
that there is no single
"should have done"
or "could have done"
or "did" or didn't do"
that would have changed that why.

All that love could do
was done.
Barked by: Monty (Dogster Member)

September 22nd 2011 at 6:48 pm

We are so sorry to hear about your loss. Droopy knows you love her and will always love her. She knows you were there with her until the end giving her all of your love. She will be waiting for you over the Rainbow Bridge and she will be watching you until you guys meet up again. She will never stop loving you just like you will never stop loving her.

If you ever need anything we are here.
Barked by: Braun Boy (Dogster Member)

September 23rd 2011 at 6:59 am

We are so very heartbroken and in tears over here. Such a sad, sad loss for all of us. Love & Hugs!!!!!!!!!!
Barked by: Louie (Dogster Member)

September 23rd 2011 at 9:49 am

We are deeply sorry for your loss. And are even sadder that we lost our great pal Droopy! We are all in tears here to see her with her wings on her page. Dear Sweet Droopy will be missed by all!
Barked by: Shiloh Ribosome Hunter (Dogster Member)

September 23rd 2011 at 12:30 pm

Dear Lori,
I always say that you don't have the dog you need, you have the dog you fight for and work for!
Your sweet Droopy knows that you love her and she will always be remembered. She is one of those dogs whose spark shows even in photos. Just exceptional. Thank you for what you did for her, it was the ultimate gift.
We will keep Droopy and you in our thoughts.
Barked by: Angel Petey- In Loving Memory (Dogster Member)

September 24th 2011 at 7:53 am

OMD lori, I just saw this now and Im in shock, and filled with tears. We are so so sorry to hear about Droopy, she was just a great pup and we love her very much. Please know that we are here for you when you need us,
Barked by: Turner - Gone Too Soon (Dogster Member)

September 25th 2011 at 4:55 pm

Lori,

This is shocking! You and Droopy were a team of one! She knew you did everything for her first. I know the pain of losing one so fast. I screamed and cussed God alot, still do on occassion. Go ahead and scream! The fact that Droopy had so much brain damage and that you let her go to be pain free was the best decision you could've made. She knows, trust me, she knows.

If I know Turner, he was 7 when he died, he met her at the gate and they are catching up on things. Running around chasin squirrels and playing. I know you pain first hand, it sux - period. You need to breathe, go for a walk, get out of the house and feel honored to have shared 7 amazing years with Droopy!
Barked by: Sadie Sue (Dogster Member)

November 19th 2011 at 6:20 pm

I am so sorry for this late response. We were unable to get online alot. Our hearts are broken for you and Droopy. She was our very first friend on dogster. Even though we weren't friends for long, she had a special place in our hearts. May God keep her forever in you heart and make each day a little easier for you.


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