April 20th 2014 8:36 pm
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Today it has been 3 weeks since my final goodbye. My parents were sad this Easter without me and I know they miss me terribly. It did help that the hubro was home from college but mom was still very saddened. She knew I loved holidays.
Even though I am not here, I was there in spirit. The weather was picture perfect, much better than anyone could have expected. Everypup got several walks and even a tiny bit of Easter ham with dinner (I really wish I could have had that). Mom took several pics of Teddy today but wasn't able to post them to Dogster because of the website problems. They will be posted once it gets fixed. Anyway, please know how much I appreciated all the love and prayers during my illness. I was blessed with such wonderful friends and I will always be grateful.
Happy Easter. I love you all and I miss you all.
Muah! Kisses from Heaven
April 17th 2014 7:14 am
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It's National Haiku Poetry Day
A beautiful soul,
Fur of flowing black and white
Brings memories of love.
I'm sure it doesn't follow all the Haiku rules but it's mine
April 16th 2014 10:49 am
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Can anyfur help me get some beautiful animated wings like Sandi and Kammie have?
April 13th 2014 2:50 pm
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Two weeks ago we said our final goodbye and my heart was shattered. From the moment you entered our lives, I knew you were special. I often think of the family who lost you and whether they ever thought of you. I can't imagine anyone not moving heaven and earth to bring you back home, but at the shelter you remained. I am so thankful it was us who were able to adopt and bring you home. Thank you for nine wonderful years of love and companionship. I hope Dogster will fix the site so I can once again decorate your page. It saddens me to see it so plain when it was once so beautiful. I searched for some poems today and these are two that I thought were beautiful. Missing my perfect angel and wishing you were still here with us.
The moment that you died my heart was torn in two.
One side filled with heartache the other died with you.
I often lie awake at night when the world is fast asleep,
and take a walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks.
Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday,
but missing you is heartache that never goes away.
You came into my life one day
So beautiful and smart,
My dear and sweet companion,
I loved you from the start.
Although we knew the time would come
When we would have to part,
You'll never be forgotten,
You left paw prints on my heart.
April 6th 2014 1:35 pm
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It's been one week since we lost Mia and it is still every bit as hard now as it was then. Never in a million years did we expect to lose her so suddenly. That second when the attending vet called and told us Mia was dying was a life changing moment. To say we were shocked is an understatement. I hope my precious angel knows how much she meant to us and I pray she knew we were there with her at the end. We will never have another dog like Mia but she will shine within us forever.
Right now most thoughts of her only bring tears and sadness but sometimes they bring a smile to my face. I really am so grateful for the past 18 months that we may not have had. The cardiology department at the U of M gave us time we never imagined possible. Today I sent them a photo card to show my appreciation. I only wish I could say the same for her primary vet. After 9 years of being Mia's veterinarian and then refusing to squeeze her in that Saturday, I felt at least a phone call would have been appropriate. Perhaps grief makes me feel that way, but to me her card meant nothing, a call would have meant so much more under the final circumstances.
March 31st 2014 9:47 pm
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Waking up this morning, my only prayer was that I had a terrible nightmare and everything was now back to normal. The reality of this day and moving forward without Mia brings such unimaginable grief and sorrow. I know in my mind that she is in a much better place, free from pain and joined by her siblings and friends but my selfish heart just wants her back. I really believe she was my heart dog. Sandi was my DH's and Mia was mine. I cannot imagine another perfect companion to ever enter my life and bring me the constant love and joy that Mia brought. I have considered some very close but not quite as perfect as her. When I am up to it I will write more but for now I did post a video compilation of her pictures.
Thank you all for being on this journey with us. Thank you for the love, prayers, dogster gifts, and most of all friendship. Without you all, this would be even more difficult. I'm also grateful to Dogster for keeping open the community. I'm not sure if I will get out individual thanks but please know how grateful I am and how much I appreciate your support. I never thought I would lose Mia so quickly, this has been a very difficult time.
March 30th 2014 9:23 am
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I don't even know where to begin except to say God has gained the most special angel in the world today.
This morning just before 9:00 AM the attending vet called to let us know Mia had slipped into a coma and we should probably make the decision to let her go at this time. I asked if he thought she would make it until we got there (about a 30-40 minute trip) and he could only say he would do what he could but that time wasn't on our side. Bless her heart, she held on until we got to the University and we could properly say our goodbyes.
Mia passed away this morning at around 9:45 AM.
I am beyond devastated, she was the most special little girl we ever had in our lives. I love you so much Mia. I know you fought long and hard and thank you for that. It is your turn to rest. We love you
March 29th 2014 3:49 pm
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Today we had to rush Mia back to the ER. She completely stopped eating and started vomiting. Mia is now in renal failure (her kidneys values doubled since her blood test just two weeks ago) and they are keeping her for at least 24 hours but more likely all weekend at the ER. They were prepping her for a nasogastric tube when we left so they can give her fluids and some clinicare. They are also taking her off of her diuretics to see if they can help make her feel better by stressing the kidneys less. Of course, treating the kidneys can cause her to go back into CHF. They asked and we painfully made the decision to make her DNR if her heart fails during treatment. We are praying for the best and cautiously hoping this works. We are truly on borrowed time.
March 27th 2014 8:58 am
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Since learning of Mia's rising kidney levels and adjusting her medications, she seems to be getting worse. We really don't understand since the levels were getting high but not yet out of control.
Mia is not eating at all unless she gets an appetite stimulant and she is having some stomach issues as well. I'm not sure what is going on, her respiratory rate seems to be fine so this must be attributed to the kidneys.
We're not as bad as October of 2012 but there is a definite cause for concern now. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers that this is just a passing bug and not the start of her major medical issues again.
March 6th 2014 6:33 pm
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Sorry I've been missing in action a bit, BOL
Today was a great day! I celebrated my 9th Gotcha Day with my family and it was a really good day for eating, too. I'm back to being pretty picky lately but managed to eat my breakfast and most of my dinner plus a little bonus ground beef as well.
I'm hanging in there and doing OK. I'm embarrassed to admit this but mom shaved most of my fur off a few weeks ago and now I have been wearing a sweater all the time with a winter coat to go outside. This winter was terrible! I think the worst of it is finally over so the sweater is still on but the winter coat is off unless another cold front comes in. Tuesday mom will be taking me and Mei Li to the vet. Mei Li needs to have her Lyme's test to see if her previous treatment had worked and I need to have my annual exam and cardio check up. I've been feeling pretty good so right now I think we are most concerned about the kidney levels. Hopefully there isn't any significant change from last time.
Remember when I said Mei Li was Mia approved? Apparently she wasn't Teddy approved. She has to be separated from him now because they don't get along :( What a downer that is but Teddy was here first and has top billing.
Our house offer is still at the bank. Every positive step forward seems to go back two steps with each new update. We did finally get a negotiator a few weeks ago but they were dropped and a new one is being assigned (perhaps even already assigned since our realtor is slow to update us). This short sale game is no fun, we have absolutely no idea if we even have a chance at closing the deal. We're really hoping the deal goes through but if it doesn't, at least we already have a great home to live in.
Thanks for all my Gotcha Day well wishes and pressies. I'm so happy to still be here and enjoy them. I've been truly blessed