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I am a Golden Angel now.....forever in the hearts of all of- you.

October 16th 2011 6:23 am
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Dearest Friends,

Most of you already know by now I made my journey to the Bridge last Friday, Oct 7, 2011. It was one of the saddest and most difficult days for us all. I did not want to leave my family, but I knew it was time to get my wings and fly….my time on earth was drawing to a close and I needed to leave….how could I leave my mommy, especially now when all things in her life are so challenging…I know how much she needs me and yet, my body could no longer hang on.

On that day, we had a wonderful morning together…full of cuddles, kisses, Dogster time and snuffles…then mommy went to work. I know I made mommy worry as I did not want to eat my peanut butter sandwich….but I simply was not hungry anymore. I got to spend my day with my grandparents. I was their Princess Girl and they pampered and loved me the whole day long…no one knew what was happening but me. I could feel my body changing and failing…..I was peaceful and resting ever so comfortably on my tile floor. Mommy and daddy left work early to take Ivy Joy to the vet as she was not acting right. Come to find out she was sick with a urinary tract infection and gum infection. Silly Kitty….I had a talk with her when they brought her home and let her know she had to be strong and healthy for them as I had to leave…..she seemed to understand. I told her she had big shoes to fill as she was going to be all they had now.

As usual, when mommy and daddy came home, I was happy to see them, wagged my tail and got lots of love. Mommy said I didn’t have a sparkle in my eyes when I looked at her, but rather, my look had changed…I was communicating to her what was happening….she needed to know as I promised I would tell her when it was time to help me cross to the other side. Mommy suddenly felt sick to her stomach and told Daddy, “Sissy is not right….” Daddy got me up to go outside and I could no longer stand, walk, etc. I would simply fall over….my legs and spine finally failed from the cancer. Please know I felt no pain as it pressed nerves and caused total numbness…..Daddy carried me in the house and placed me on my special blanket with mommy. They gave me treats and Frosty Paws….I thanked them, but refused. I simply didn’t want to eat….I had grown so very tired.

Mommy starting crying and I put my paw on her leg and looked into her eyes…..”I know Sissy, I know….” She said. Mommy told Daddy it was time and she left the room for a little while. I know it was to compose herself and make arrangements. I felt awful leaving my family and maybe could have stayed a few more days, but I knew my family would never let me stay when my body finally began to fail in this way. We had a promise to one another….to let go when it was time. This was the first ever, I let them know….it was time.

My Daddy was ever so heartbroken…..it is so hard to bring so much joy to your family and then so much sadness when you have to say good-bye. Mommy and Daddy talked for a few minutes, hugged and I could hear mommy on the phone.

Mommy called Doggie Hospice to make arrangements…then my grandparents so they could come back over, and then to one of our dearest friends, Auntie Eileen….she needed some strength to get through. Thank you Auntie Eileen for always being there and loving us through in both the good times and bad.

Mommy and I had a private talk and she let me know how her heart was feeling…..it was one of the most special times we ever shared. I, too, told her what my heart with was feeling…and the gratitude I had for them all. I thanked mommy for her strength and for choosing to give me the best and most unselfish gift…a gentle passing. I was grateful my parents decided on doggie hospice….they had been thinking about it and decided it was the right choice for me. I knew it was really expensive, but money did not matter at this time…..all that mattered was my comfort and peace.

The Vet came to our condo and just spent time with us for a while….the concept is for her to be with us as part of the family so I was not uncomfortable with a stranger in my home….Goldens never meet a stranger, right??? She was such a kind lady…..she made my final moments more peaceful than we ever imagined.

She had mommy do some paper work and explained the whole process to us all….I was resting ever so comfortably on my blanket and knew I was getting ready to go. The first step in doggie hospice was to give me a gentle shot under the skin of a slow acting sedative and pain medications. These medicines have been proven to peacefully put doggies in a dream like deep sleep and to avoid any pain which may be felt during the transition process……I slowly drifted off to sleep….I could hear my family say “sweet dreams Sissy Girl”…..I felt ever so peaceful and my breathing was calm….I even exhibited I was dreaming and running in my sleep with little doggie leg twitches…mommy loves that!

Once I was in a total deep sleep and could feel absolutely no pain (which was checked by thorough exam)….I was then given the final gift to help me go to the bridge. It was quick. As I took my last breath, I felt angel wings all around me…..lifting me to my eternal home. It did not take long to arrive at the Rainbow Bridge….I opened my eyes to see all the beauty around me….Jazzi and Ck were there, along with Boss, my love, Belle, Shadow, Leo, Molly, Jayke, Duke Goofy, Coco, The Chicago Crew….Oh my….the list of angels there to welcome me was far more than I can ever write….I was surrounded in angel love. What a beautiful feeling.

Many paws reached out to show me the way…..I knew I was safely at peace and my journey was complete. Leo took me by my paw and showed Boss and I a special place under a tree in the lush green grass where the sun shone brightly through and said this is where I watch over my family…..I, too, could see my family…so devastated, so hurt. I love you, I said….I am always with you. Jazzi and CK joined me and mommy’s angels were together again….I also got to meet CheyAnne and Sugar…..wow, what special angel girls.

I want to say thank you to all of you for being part of my life and heart….you have added so much joy and happiness to my time on earth….each of you has touched me in a way I can never express in words…but I am forever blessed to have known you all.

Although you cannot see me….I have not left your heart…simply place your paws and hands over your heart and you will feel my big golden girl smile….
Thank you for helping my family, especially mommy, during this difficult time. I know I was her rock, her anchor, her best friend….and she feels so lost and alone…but knows she is not because of all of you.

Thank you for all the gifts, rosies, p-mails, phone calls, cards, the contributions for my pet portrait…..mommy and daddy has been overwhelmed with the outpouring of love and generosity….mommy says she can never write individual thank yous to each of you as her physical conditions do not afford her this luxury….but I know each of you understands. Mommy does not feel deserving all of the gifts you are sending, but she is….mommy has a heart of gold and does not even know it.
Please continue to give my mommy and daddy your support as the days, weeks and months ahead will prove to be challenging….their lives are an obstacle course right now and without me there, even more difficult. I will be their Golden Angel and watch over them and guide them to peace. Mommy’s angels are together again and we are watching over all of you…forever.

I am so glad almost 12 years ago….we rescued each other…thank you, Mommy and Daddy.

I am waiting to receive my official wings….and I know when I get them, I will fly by and let you feel my presence.
What a difference you have made in my life…..as sung by Ronnie Milsap and other artists:

What A Difference You've Made In My Life Lyrics


“What a difference you've made in my life,
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night.
Oh, what a difference you've made
In my life.


What a change you have made in my heart,
What a change you have made in my heart,
You've replaced all the broken parts.
Oh, what a change you have made...
In my heart.

Love to me was just a word in a song
That had been way over-used.
But now I've joined in the singing
Cause you've showed me love's true meanin'
That's why I want to spread the news.

What a difference you've made in my life,
What a difference you've made in my life,
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made...
In my life.

What a difference you've made in my life
)Listen to me)
What a difference you've made in my life,
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made
Yeah.

What a difference you've made in my life,
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night...
Oh, what a difference you've made....

Yeah.... yeah,
Yeah, yeah -h - h

What a difference you've made in my life
What a difference you've made in my - y - y life
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made
Oh what a difference you've made

In my life - e – e”


Good bye my special friends….our hearts are connected by paws.

Lovingly, your Golden Angel,

Sissy

 

I am an angel now....Put your paw over your heart...I will- always be there.....

October 7th 2011 8:20 pm
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This is Sissy's mommy....it is with great sadness I let you know Sissy joined the angels tonight. She left peacefully with the help of doggie hospice. She let us know it was time....

We are heartsick and thank you in advance for all the love and support.....

Our hearts are connected by paws...always.

 

Sissy Update

August 17th 2011 4:31 am
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Good morning sweet friends,

Thank you for the love and support always, but even more so these past couple of weeks....it is so hard with CK going to the Bridge and my failing health.... I really don't want to leave my family and I am doing the best I can to stay around a while longer....

My legs stopped working again yesterday and I was taken to the vet for a long acting steroid injection in my spine area....

Mommy knows this is "band-aide" type medicine, but is so hoping it will help me....

She and I had a long talk last night....we came to an agreement that I would tell her when it was time and we both know it is so close. It is even more difficult as I am so alert, do the happy happy doggie dance after eating (with my uppper body and face only), smile.....I am so happy...I simply enjoy life. I must admit, it is frustrating when my legs stop working.

The cancer appears slow growing.....but there is a possibility this spine issue could be cancer related. No one can say for sure and mommy and daddy have agreed no invasive tests at my age....there is nothing which can be done but palliative care and so putting me through anymore would be unfair.....

I love and appreciate you all.

I rested comfortably last night and get up, although difficult, on my own, and went out to potty.....so the medication is starting to work. Daddy is still going to stay home with me. Mommy struggles with her spinal cord to lift and care for me when I can't help and has been sleeping on a mattress on the floor with me for over a year...mommy wishes she could do more.....I tell her not to feel bad as I know she is always there for me. She does more than she should and always puts me first. My grandparents take amazing care of me, too. I am lucky.....

Our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy

 

Little Update

July 21st 2011 4:04 am
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Thank you for the well wishes, rosies, gifts and power of the paw. It helps so much...If it does nothing more...it does lift my spirits and that is huge....so thank you.

I am some improved with the steroids, but it does not appear to be a long term fix as things wax and wane. My cough is some better with the new antibiotics. I did have some GI upset yesterday....we are just taking it one moment at a time. I am going to try and go to my grandparents today.

Today is going to be another good day..I just know it! More good days than bad mean we will keep trying....never lose hope!!

Thanks again...our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy

 

Important Update....

July 14th 2011 4:39 am
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Good morning special friends,

We need to ask for extra power of the paw, prayers, woofs, and purrs….yesterday was not a good day and my health has taken a very sudden change for the worst. As most of you know, I have had hip dysplasia for several years and struggle with limited mobility, but still manage to do well, especially in my pretty non-skid socks!
Yesterday, I was really struggling to walk, my back legs were somewhat uncoordinated and would go out from under me, turn over, fold, and I would fall….and simply lay down and not attempt to get up again. Mommy took me straight to the vet and he found that my thoracic spine (middle back) is unhappy…reminds me of mommy! Apparently, there is lots of swelling and I have almost no reflex responses in my back legs. Given everything else that is going on with me (cancer) and my age, our options are very limited. I got a large dose of steroids via injection and have been put on a much higher dose of oral steroids for the next 5 days. I am to rest as much as possible and we should be able to see how I am going to respond, or….if I am going to respond. I was also put on a different antibiotic for my cough. After the five days….we will decide if I can stay here on earth for a while longer or will need to journey peacefully to the Rainbow Bridge.
The vet does feel there is some pain involved, but more than likely, it is minimal….as I am having more problems feeling my legs. The pain medications I take should be keeping the pain very tolerable. I don’t appear in pain and still smile. I am resting peacefully which leads mommy to think I am comfortable.
Mommy has set up the little downstairs living room with lots of mats on the floor, my water and food bowl next to me and the gate up so I can’t leave the room (much like she did when I had my tumor removal surgery). This is my favorite room and mommy and daddy sleep here with me. Mommy looks so tired as I know she didn’t get much sleep….mommy lost her smile and that makes me sad.
I have never pee-peed in the house, ever….but did leak some urine last night on one of my pads…the vet said this might happen with the increased steroids and water! It’s okay cause mommy is washing the pads this morning and keeping things nice for me. I must admit, it was a tad bit embarrassing!! : )
I know mommy and daddy were so thrilled this morning after I ate, I “snuffled” and did the little happy happy dance…..I must be feeling better. I have not attempted to get up or move to go outside to potty…
Mommy will have to go to work today, Friday and Saturday to make up the time she has missed caring for me. She feels so terrible about leaving me. My grandparents will be with me and make sure I am okay. Today, I will be alone a couple of hours and then the rest of the time….my family will be by my side. Please know, mommy will come in a minute, if I need her……I just know she is so hesitant and struggling to leave me. She is the best doggie mom ever…and I do understand.
OMD!!!! I just slowly got up on my own and walked to the gate…mommy let me outside and I pottied and walked a little. This is good news as the steroids must be reducing some of the swelling already! The power of the paw is working!!!! Please, Please keep it up….
Thank you for being such amazing friends…I don’t’ need gifts, rosies, etc… (although they are so appreciated when you send them…I hope you know that!)….just some extra healing energy and power of the paw will be enough.
We wouldn’t get through the trying times in life without all of you….thank you. I am one lucky golden girl.

Our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy (and family)

 

Have a sunshine kind of week!

July 11th 2011 4:24 am
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Dearest friends,

I want to say thank you for all the well wishes, prayers, rosies, gifts and power of the paw....wow, I am one lucky golden gal!

I am staying strong and enjoying life....I have a wonderful appetite and my mommy cooks special food for me. I get to eat what I love: peanut/cheese sandwiches, puppy food, mac and cheese, chicken and dumplings, frosty paws!!! Whoo Hoo....a dream come true! I haven't gained any weight and at last count, lost another 1/2 pound.

My cough has come back slightly, but it is not bad. My hips and back legs are weak, but my booties, ramp and family help me up and down. So all and all....I am pawsome!

I know my strength comes from the love I get and all the positive energy you send....so thank you. I say that with the deepest and heartfelt meaning I can express. My heart over flows with goodness and gratitude.

Mommy's schedule has been hectic, to say the least, so please forgive me for not pmailing sooner....does not mean you are not in my heart every moment of every day! If you ever wonder about that, please put your paw over your heart and you will know....I am there (all of us are)!

Thank you again for all you do, all you give, and all you bring to our lives....

A very smart man said:

"I feel the capacity to care is the thing which gives life its deepest significance."
-- Pablo Casals

Wishing you a sunshine kind of week full of happiness, good health and love!

Our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy and family

P.S. Sending prayers and power of the paw to all.

 

Thank you to all of you for making such a difference in my- life....please read my vet update!

May 31st 2011 6:47 pm
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Dearest Fur-Friends ,

I am so sorry it has been a while since my last diary entry….mommy has to type for me and she has been so overwhelmingly busy with all the challenges life brings our way…we are grateful we have her to keep us together and help us when we face difficult trials and tribulations. We have had a lot of bumps in our road of life the past 18 months and it seems to be something which is not going to be slowing down for a long while. I know my mommy is so tired, and yet she is the glue which holds our family together….Please don’t tell mommy I mentioned to you about her being so tired, as she is not one to normally complain; however, today’s vet visit added to her heartache and I know we could all use that wonderful support and power of the paw which is given so unconditionally by all of you!!
Most of you know I have been having some health issues the past couple of years….but for quite some time, I have been pretty stable. I am good at holding my own…mommy says I am one strong golden girl. The vet’s best guesstimation today is I am around 14-15 years old. This year will be the celebration of my 11th year Got’cha day….(12-29-2000-the day my mommy rescued me). The vets are pretty sure I was a fairly mature girl when rescued! So with that being said, I am doing REALLY WELL for a Golden Girl of my age.
In the middle of the night last night, I got sick to my tummy. This is the second episode in the past 4 weeks….so mommy decided we better let the vet take a look at me. So Papa and Mommy took me to see the vet late this afternoon. He took blood and run some other tests…..as he stated, diagnostically, things are not looking well. My blood work is better than last time, but my weight has dropped significantly. I have lost another 5 pounds…which means I have lost about 11 pounds since last September, 2010. Thing is….I eat like a horse….mommy feeds me all I want….I get rice, Chicken, Green Beans, Cheerios, dog food, frosty paws, etc. I eat about twice as much as I used too, but I am just not maintaining weight. There is some muscle wasting in my legs which causing it to be more difficult for me to get up and down. My special non-skid pink socks help me ambulate with more ease. The lab work has shown a great deal of fluctuations which is indicating inflammation, etc….My lungs and bronchioles don’t’ look as they should. We know I had a mass there some time ago….well, it appears I now am being officially diagnosed with that word mommy hates: CANCER. What Cancer???? The vet is 99.9% sure this is what I have….the exact type, etc. is not known as mommy, daddy and I have agreed to no invasive tests and it would not change the outcome or treatment plan.

I am happy…..but a tad bit scared as we have had so much cancer in our lives lately. I know it makes so many sad and really struggle….good thing is….mommy says I can decide how long I will stay here on earth and when I am ready to leave for the Bridge. She and my family have promised to honor my wishes to go peacefully when I am ready….mommy says our bond is so incredibly strong, she will know when I am ready. I believe that. Right now, I am not suffering….I am doing well with my medications, enjoying my little walks, and loving life. Mommy is going to inquire about the new doggie hospice service here to support me during my journey.


The vet did adjust my thyroid medication some to help slow my metabolism to help me possibly gain some muscle and weight. We don’t want me to gain too much as it will make it so hard for me to get around, but I could stand to gain some. I get to eat all I want…..now that is worth doing the happy-happy doggie dance over!!! Yippppeee!!!!

I know my family is really sad as this was something we have had lingering in the back of our minds, but hearing it finally diagnosed with almost 100% certainty is hard. Mommy lost her smile again.

When mommy rescued me….she says I rescued her….and it has been a mutual and unconditional bond of love and friendship. We are each other’s heart and strength….All of you are such an incredibly special part of our lives and we know you will help us through this journey….we thank you for all you are and all you give….for each of you makes our lives better.

We will keep you updated on how I am doing….but for now, I chose to live and enjoy each day filled with simple pleasures, sunshine and happiness…..keep sending the power of the paw.

To my family and all of you….thank you as you have made an incredible difference in my life. Please read the lyrics to the Ronnie Milsap song, What a Difference you make in my life. They are powerful:
_________________________________________________ ____________________________________
“What a difference you've made in my life.
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made in my life.

What a change you have made in my heart
What a change you have made in my heart
You replaced all the broken parts
Oh, what a change you have made in my heart.

Love to me was just a word in a song that had been way overused
But now I've joined in the singin'
'Cause you've shown me love's true meanin'
That's why I want to spread the news.

What a difference you've made in my life
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made in my life.

What a difference you've made in my life (listen to it)
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made, yeah.

What a difference you've made in my life
Difference you've made in my life
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made.

Go ahead and sing it.

What a difference you've made in my life
What a difference you've made in my life,
Yeah-heah-eah-eah-heah
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh yeah, sing it to me
What a difference you've made.

What a difference you've made in my life, woh-oh-oh-oh
What a difference you've made in my life
You're my sunshine day and night
Oh, what a difference you've made”


Our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy

 

Wishing you a good week full of sunshine and happiness....

March 21st 2011 4:09 am
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Hi Sweet Friends!!!

Just wanted to wish you a happy week full of sunshine and happiness....each day is a gift and we have to live in the moment and appreciate it!!!

"Until you make peace with who you are, you'll never be content with what you have."

-- Doris Mortman

We appreciate all of you and are grateful for all you bring to our lives...may you find peace within....

Our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy

 

Wishing you a sunshine kind of day!

March 10th 2011 4:02 am
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Hello Special Friends,

We are wishing you a sunshine kind of day. We are so grateful for each and every one of you!

"Of all the attitudes we can acquire, surely the attitude of gratitude is the most important and by far the most life-changing."
~ Zig Ziglar



I know it has been a while since I have updated my diary....mommy has been way too busy and does not find enough time to get all the things done she would like. She gets up super early in the morning and does not go to bed until late....so where does all the time go? : ) Work, taking care of my sick granny, taking care of CK and me, her own health issues, taking care of her friend with cancer, OMD....the list goes on!

We wanted to let you know I have been doing pretty well. I am still having good and enjoyable days with my family. Mommy is a tad concerned as I have started coughing more deeply while still on the antibiotics. Not sure if that means the pneumonia is coming back despite all our efforts or if the mass is growing....we just treat my symptoms and make sure I am happy.

My hips are still weak, but I am doing better. My non-skid socks help me walk. My family made me a homemade ramp to help me get in and out of the car to allow me to stay with my grandparents while my mommy and daddy work. I have always been used to spending time with them....it's like having two families. The ramp is light weight enough that it helps mommy keep from hurting her spine.

Daddy got a twin mattress and put in the living room downstairs....despite all mommies’ mobility issues, she sleeps there every night with me. I get into the bed with her and we cuddle. Mommy has a really hard time getting up and down, but we manage....she said she will never leave my side.

CK is doing well....for a 22 year old kitty which such a difficult start in life...he is doing great.

Have I mentioned what a lucky girl I am.....I have such a loving family and pawsome friends....my life is good?

Please watch the new video of me enjoying the cool breeze and sunshine.

"Good friends are like stars-you don't always see them, but you know they are always there. "
~ Anonymous


Thank you for your friendships, support and love. The power of the paw is amazing.

Our hearts are connected by paws,

Sissy and family

 

Happy Super Bowl Day! Wishing you sunshine and love!

February 6th 2011 6:13 am
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Good morning everyone!!!

Sending power of the paw to everyone who needs it!!! It does help! So sorry we haven't been around as much...with all the winter storms, it has been difficult as we kept losing power. We have also been spending a lot of time trying to revive our group, PAWS, as it does so much good to help others. Anyone who wants to join...please do!

Mommy was able to post some videos of me on her FB page that you would enjoy, but dogster has not accepted them!

Yesterday we were able to get out of the house for the first time in 5 days. Daddy had to shovel a path for us to safely get to the car. The ice was so thick. Daddy did take a bad fall on the ice, but he is okay....his back was sore. Mommy could not risk it as if she fell...

Good news is....I am doing well. I got through my really bad episode (again) and I am doing better! my antibiotive regime changes this AM as I did get one sore of yeast on my back. They are slowly cutting down one of the antibiotics to see if we can keep me well, but not getting anymore sores! At the signs of any increasing coughing, the dose will go back up!

My mobility is some better with the pulse dose of the steriods.....wow, do I have an appetite though!!!! Mommy, Daddy, MeMaw and Papa are so thankful I am having such good quality of life!!! Thank you for all the power of the paw as it has helped so much. We could not do this without all your love and kindness! We are so blessed.

Hope you have a happy Superbowl Day and great week!!!! Mommy will be working long hours to make up for all the work she lost due to the weather...and it is supposed to snow and ice again this week!!!!

We love you all!!! Have a sunshine kind of day!

"Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others, cannot keep it from themselves."

~ James Matthew Barrie

Our hearts are connected by paws, Sissy

 
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