April 16th 2013 12:02 pm
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(April 17th 2003)wILL mARK THE 10TH yR. OF YOUR PASSING
It was the day you went to heaven
Today I reflect back on that day with a very heavy heart. :-(
Much has changed sweet daughter of mine. The world the people the Cruelty
And the Love. But
FOR MOST PART DADDY AND I ARE THE SAME. Just an older and heavier version of us LOL
Few wks. Ago I had a mild heart attack and I just blew it off. 2 days later I found out what it was and what had happened. Now mommy takes Nitro to make sure it doesn't happen again. Promised dad and Trixie and Tomcat that I would take better care of me. I often look at your ashes and I wonder what to do. Do I leave you her in your cedar box until I pass and you can join me. Or do I sprinkle you somewhere so you can be free. I wish you could tell me what you wanted
if I owned my own house I would bury your ashes in the yard surrounded by sweet flowers and plants as I know how much you loved to sit in the warm sun on a breezy day. But sadly I have no place I own to do this.
Trixie health is failing and I just fear losing her too. Having to say goodbye to you about killed me. I just don't want to go thru that again. So if you could ask the Big Guy up there if he could give you some special powder to sprinkle on her for health I sure would love that.
Tom Cat is still plugging along.no longer walking the walk with me every day. He is very old as you know and very fat and slow. Been in a few bad fights and gnawed on by a coyote which he survived due to $ and a great vet WHO DID An AMAZING SURGERY. But time with him is fading.
Daddy sure loves that cat> Jennifer has the cutest little one his name is Steven and he is beautiful he is 5 now. She is expecting another child in October. We are all hoping a little girl. I’m going to try to create something very special for your 10th anniversary tomorrow.
Looking for inspiration.....
LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETIE AND I KNOW WE WILL BE TOGETHER SOON
PS I lost my dad and mom in the past few yrs.
if you see them please ask them to come visit me WHILE I SLEEP
I Have been having such a hard time finding peaceful sleep lately. I have so much fear loneliness and uncertainty on my heart that I guess its keeping me restless at night. I miss you curled up in my side Trixie doesn't want to sleep next to me. Likes her space. There is such a cold where you were once.
God Bless you little Angel
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