August 20th 2012 9:53 am
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My sweet baby girl. How are you today...do you know how very much I love you. I talk about you to whom ever will listen. I always begin by telling people you were not just a dog...you were in my heart my sweet baby girl. I think when you do not have human children your dogs become them at least they do for me. YOU were my child. I tried always to protect you and do for you what ever needed to be done. That last day...as I begged for someone to help save you.......there was nothing I could do but watch and pray and cry. I really think vets do not always know what to do in emergencies. If only they had placed chest tubes..if only. I will always say if only. That will never bring you back baby girl...it only adds to my guilt. Why did I not know how sick you were. How could I not know?? I carry that with me. I just wanted to tell you that I know you see my tears each and every day. I have not gotten over losing you. The grief grips my heart at times that it feels like I can not breathe. The tears flow so freely. You were my heart, my life, my laughter the joy. I miss you so very very much,. I send you kisses on angel wings each and every day. With those kisses is the message that I love you...and I will always love you sweet Lexey. You are my heart....forever and always. Your mom........