April 4th 2009 10:26 pm
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I try to always remember you as you were. My heart, my soul, my best friend. We were one you and I. Never leaving your side during any of your health issues...I was always there. No vet would treat you without me. It was as if they knew I needed to be there, and you needed me there. You made me laugh the way you used to scold me when I was late. You always greeted me with a toy and a wag and I knew when I entered the door you would be there to greet me. You were and will always be my heart. It always comes back though to those last days when I should have listened to my heart. I was so afraid of the shot the vet was going to give to you. I did not know it would be four times the amount that you should have been given. I miss you My beautiful Sophie Marie. I fear I shall always miss you. Your spirit remains with me. I fear I will always blame myself for not listening to what my heart was telling me. You may have been with me longer if not for a stupid mistake. How do I live with that. You see it always comes back to that. A mistake. A careless mistake that cost you your life.
The tears flowed freely today as I thought about our last day together. As usual you tried to comfort my pain. You knew me so well. There could be no comfort though..because I had to let you go. It was four years ago today that my heart broke into a million pieces. It still has not healed. I miss you still and I always will. I love you so much my beautiful Sophie Marie. I send you kisses through the clouds across the stars and can only pray you feel my love. You remain forever and ever a part of my heart. Your mommy forever and ever and ever.