Life of the Turner Dog

A million miles away :(

April 15th 2013 7:08 am
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Two years ago today we got the word. You were filled with cancer and that you were suffering. Me and dad were in total shock. There was no way you deserved to suffer. To be in any kind of pain. I told Dr. Mount that you should be put to sleep. But I told her something I will regret for the rest of my life. That I couldn't be there. I love you so much and you were too young to let go in my mind. I couldn't do it, couldn't see the light leave you. And I live with this regret forever. It kills me to this day - the shame that I have. You were held by the girls at the office when you passed. They loved you and you adored them. My life will never be the same since you. I didn't eat for 3 days, had no feelings, felt that I couldn't breathe. You went everywhere with me, people who were afraid of pitbulls met you and said what a sweet dog. How loving! You were made me a better person. Dad didn't know what to do either. He dove back into work. Me I just sat and cried with emptiness. Darcy was lost, so quiet, she knew. She had lost other friends while in rescue. They died right in front of her. She knew the loss as well. Then it happened. The reflection, the realization that you had been wronged. I got pissed. So angry when I looked back - hind sight is 20/20. I pulled out your folder, Lord knows I keep everything. And I started to see where things went wrong. I was pissed. I was focused, something could've been done so you didn't suffer. It all started with the first surgery. He was wrong! He had wronged others, there were loads of people who had been through the same thing, and I said enough. When the investigators left, shaking their heads in disbelief I felt like I could start to breathe. He would be held accountable, someone listened and agreed, where it all started - was handled wrong. And so your case was opened. We're still pending - almost 2 years later, but pending is a good thing when it comes to the court. I know one day I'll get a call from the prosecutor to report before the judge/committee/whatever. And I will be there, pictures and files in hand. And I hope to look him in the eye and say - you never gave me an option and Turner suffered. I'm so sorry that you did suffer, it wasn't right. We've done so much for other dogs in our lives, yet you suffered. You, my best friend, my road dog, my companion, my tell-all and you listened friend. For that I am so sorry, for not being their for your last breath I'm so sorry. Miss you... :( Love you :( Mom :(_ _ _

 
 

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Barked by: Angel Petey- In Loving Memory (Dogster Member)

April 15th 2013 at 7:47 am

tears are flowing....hugs
Barked by: Wrinkles (RIP) (Dogster Member)

April 15th 2013 at 1:21 pm

If only all pups could be so loved as you were.
Barked by: Flicka ~ CGC (Dogster Member)

April 15th 2013 at 3:22 pm

Sweet Lady.... Turner holds you in his heart.

He doesnt hold you to blame.. he holds you in LOVE

He KNOWS you will seek.. and GET justice. Time doesnt matter.. it WILL come.

Leave the guilt behind(yes.. we have all had the guilt) because HE isnt asking for your guilt.. he just wants YOU to be the loving person YOU are.

And you know.. you WERE there. You never stopped loving him... and you never will.....

You never left him... anymore than he has left you.

Love and HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Pam
Barked by: ✨ Whitley ✨ (Dogster Member)

April 15th 2013 at 10:02 pm

Sending you lotsa big hugs.
Barked by: Abbie (Dogster Member)

April 22nd 2013 at 5:27 pm

Congrats for having one of the DDP today, Tuner, ((( hugs )))


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