August 3rd 2006 8:39 pm
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Hedwig has moved on as of this afternoon. We had an amazing, sunny, breezy day today in which to say goodbye. We took a long walk in the Castro, where Hedwig once again touched the heart of someone, this time an elderly lady who was waiting in front of a clinic and feeling lonely. Leave it to him to try to get extra karma points on the last day.

We then went to the beach. It was so beautiful, and Hedwig said hi to some dogs and people, and even mustered the strength for a very short trot in the surf. I was reminded of when he used to run full speed. It was awe-inspiring. He played with a great stick, and rested in the shade when his hips started to hurt. He was quite happy.

At home, I lay with him for an hour, brushing him and giving him a frosty paw. Soon it was time. Too soon. We went to the van ( I couldn't carry him otherwise), with my support group and my pup. I lay with him in there, and fed him chocolate and sang to him. Soon it was over. Again, too soon. It was peaceful, and I held my baby's head in my arms as we drove to the vet.

I hurt so much baby boy. I know it was for the best. But already the loft is empty and my heart is broken. I'll be able to move on in time, with you always in my heart and looking over me. For now, please don't watch me grieve. Play with your new healthy body and spirit, and come back in a few weeks, when I'm able to smile again.

Love, your mamma, your best friend, your guide and your student.