September 2nd 2012 2:11 am
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It's only been a bit over 2 months since you left. I was a wreck. All I could think of was: "What did I do wrong?" It took so long for me to realize that it was YOUR time-the Vet said you were okay at your last check-up. A month before you left. I was angry at the Vet.
I slept with your collar and tags for a month. I miss you sleeping at my feet. I always moved to give you room. I kept looking for you to be right by my side, like you always were. It took me a week to finally turn the page on my calenders to the next month, I hurt so bad.
I had prayed so hard that you were well and free and running about like a puppy again- On one of the calendars, the "Defenders Of Wildlife", where the wild wolves are so beautifully photographed, after that prayer, I finally turned the page to July- on July 5th- (You left on June 28th), and there was my answer.
A stunning photo of a black/white wolf, running at top speed, running, running. That was you, Vinster. I know now that you are free and running like a young dog.
Then another strange thing happened. After that, your brother, Sammy started to lay by my feet. Sammy never did that before- and Casey, well, she still has issues, but she's much better than before.
I was mourning you one morning, missing you, having my coffee, and I looked down, and saw a large white paw! It was Sammy! Under the kitchen table. He's been there ever since.
He was laying just where you used to. I think you sent a message to Sammy.
Thank you, my long-time and beloved friend.
I still miss you, just as I miss your brothers and sisters before you.
I know, now, that you are enjoying freedom from old age, and pain, and you told me that.
I Love You, Baby Boy, My Vinster. You travelled and had a great life, always rode in the van, walkies and too many treats!I tried to give you the best life, before I adopted you, you were tied outside by your previous owner.
You were the smartest doggie I ever had, and you were there for me when no one else was, and you helped Casey AND Sammy to be "inside doggies", after they came to live w/us from bad homes. Bless you, Vin.
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It takes a long time for us to forgive ourselves. They never have to forgive us cos they know there is nothing TO forgive.
They never leave us ... not EVER. We just have to know the shadow around the corner.. or the fleeting flash we see at the corner of our vision... is them.
Love and HUGSSSSSSS
Flicka ∆,,∆ & Lucas /..| Cleo (I.M.) ∆,,∆ & Pam X
Flicka put it so beautifully...your beloved Vinnie is always near & within your heart always. Thinking of you & sending all our love & lots of Hugs.
KJ, Rain, our guardian Angels & Mom