Losing a Pack Member
9/11 affects us all in different ways. For Dogster Raven, it meant losing her daddy. Her daddy was one of the passengers on United 93. This is Raven’s mommy’s Tail of Devotion for Raven. My thoughts go out to Raven and her mommy on this sad anniversary.
My Tail of Devotion for Raven
Raven, your daddy loved you more than anything. You and Rich were totally bonded. You went to work with your daddy every day, and if daddy had to leave you at home for any reason, you would wait by the door until he came home. Even if daddy had to go on a trip, you would leave the door only to drink water, eat (very little), and go potty. Then you would return right to the door.
I met you when I met your daddy. We all instantly became a pack of 4. I knew that I was in love with your daddy at the end of our very first date, because as he drove away, he was snuggling and kissing and talking to you. We had clicked nicely during our date, but seeing how completely he loved you made me love him too.
Sadly, Rich was cruelly taken from our pack in the 9/11 attacks. You know he was a hero among the 40 passengers and crew who fought the terrorists on United Flight 93 that crashed in Shanksville, PA. Our pack woke up that morning so excited that daddy was coming home, but our whole world shattered when we found out that daddy’s plane had crashed. You spent 2 solid weeks waiting at the door for your daddy to come for you.
Knowing that you now depended on me to be your pack leader and to love you like daddy loved you is what kept me going. If I wanted you to be able to heal and move forward, I needed to heal myself too. If I wanted you to start eating and stop waiting for what wasn’t going to happen, I had to do the same.
Being devoted to honoring Rich’s memory through taking care of you is what made it possible for me to take care of myself. Raven, you are my protector, my companion, and my life-saver.
Mommy loves you sun and moon and stars!