I still miss you

My Angel

February 9th 2009 12:03 pm
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There are days I can go and be fine and other I fall apart thinking about by big buddy.
I was just listening to Angel and I was reminded of Sooke and Zoe. I miss them lately. My dogs are great, but I miss those two.

I love you pup pup. One day we will see each other again and family will be together again. I hope you can wait, I am not in a hurry.....


One year ago

January 31st 2008 1:57 pm
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One year ago I had no idea I would be spending my last moments with you. I would have changed so many things, more walks, more puppy days- just hanging out, more days at the beach, less frustration at you just walking away and wanting to see the neighbors.

I have no regrets about having had you in our life. You brought us so much happiness and love.
I treasure each moment that I spent with you and hold each memory of you close to my heart.
You meant more to me than the air that I breath and yet you are not here.
I still cry over the loss of you, not each day like before, but when I can no longer hold it back. The tears may not come so fast, but they are still as heavy and they still burn my eyes.
Thank you for being my angel. If I could I would never bring you back, because to lose you again would crush my soul.

Please watch over our new fur kids and teach them how to be kind like you were, teach them patience and love.

Sooke I still miss you.

Only true dog people understand this, but you were as much a soul mate as my wife is my soul mate. I am glad we had our time together. Now will you wait for me at the bridge for when we can truly be together again.



May 23rd 2007 6:55 pm
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Hey I have tagged by King and now I'm it. I get to choose 7 of my pals to tag.

Here are the rules:

Each player starts with seven random facts about themselves. Dogs who are tagged, need to post in their Diary the rules & their 7 pawsome facts. Then choose 7 dogs to tag and list their names. Don’t forget to bark them a pmail that they have been tagged and to read your Diary, or, send them a fun Rosette announcing they've been Tagged!

Here are 7 fun facts about Sooke:
1. He loved to stand in the rain.

2. He wanted to boink his sister till the day he died.

3.He would drink any water he was standing in. Lake, Ocean, ya see where I'm going now?

4. He only met one person in his entire life that he did not like.

5. Once an old piece of poo fell from his behind. Found out why he stunk! That is what you get with a furry dog!

6. He liked to chew the noses off toy animals first.

7. He knew all of his toys by name and could pull them out by name.

This is who I pick:
1. Nick
2. Dakota Sky
3. Baylor
4. Buffy
5. Sasha
6. Boomer
7. Harvey


He would have been ten

May 10th 2007 10:16 am
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So Thuesday Sooke would have been ten years old. I did not even think about it until later that night. Luckily there were some friends online that were there and talked to me and made me feel better. That was not the best of days. I had some good advice from one of the people, work on the memorial in shifts or moderation. I am going to try that. Working on it day after day was just getting to me. I have to make up a lot of work from being on jury duty for a few days and this weekend is out, so it will be soem time before I can work on it again. Maybe that is good.



April 30th 2007 7:02 pm
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I have been making a memorial skateboard for Sooke. It has taken over 3 hours so far and I am far from being done. I guess I never really want to be done if the truth be told. I feel him near me when I work. It is like he is laying his big old head on my feet while I bring his face to life.
The more I work on this the more I want to make memorials like this for others. I will not have the healing with theirs, but maybe I could offer healing to others. I don't know.
All I know is that I work and I cry, work and cry. Somewhere in there I feel that there is some healing going on.
Like I said, I hope I never finish. I like the feeling that I get when I work on this. Kind of like it is the old days again and he is waiting for me to finish my work so we can go and play again.
I'm gonna try and put updated pictures of the board on his page so people can see him, see how much I love him. I can't say loved, because my love for him will never fade. he was my first dog.
My birthday is coming up. It will be the first one without him there. I will have his new little brother there though, maybe that will keep me distracted. I guess I will spend too much time telling Gromit to be good to miss him memorial day weekend. Who knows.
Sooke if you are there with me on my feet, I love you man. Your head was always so heavy, it is so light now, it is because you are no longer here in the physical.


Another day another milestone

March 11th 2007 6:12 pm
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Today we went to Pooches in the park and saw so many dogs that looked like Sooke. Since he was such a mix, that is easy. I cried a little on the way to the park as we talked about Sooke, but something happened today. My wife and I have talked for years about raising a service dog. There were two or three booths there for service dogs. The reason that we have not been able to do it is because of the money, time and letting go. I heard some very couragous and telling stories that made me want to take the loss of Sooke and turn it into a good thing. What we are going to plan to do is next summer ('08) raise a service dog. I want to take the loss of Sooke and make it a positive thing. It sounds freaky, but I could not fathom loosing Sooke until it happened and now that it has, I can look at things in a differant light now. Yes the loss will be hard, yes there is a big burden, but I get to give something that someone needs. The love, companionship and service of a dog.
Wish us luck with our decision. We have alot to overcome in the next year.


New photos

February 25th 2007 6:18 pm
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I found some new pictures of Sooke and posted them. The kid is the neighbor's. The bald fat guy is me. The photos that I put up show what kind of a dog Sooke was. Just always wanting to be in the middle of the love.
I am moving on in some ways. Not on without my boy, but moving on without all of the pain. I know that the pain is there to tell me that I am not healed and I loved him so much. But, I do not need to cry to feel the love for him.
Around here we also laugh, because he was kind of silly. He would lay there and move his eyebrows up and down in the rottie kind of way as he would look at what was happening. And at just the right time he would pounce into action and get in the middle of everybody and have his butt scratched or have his belly rubbed, because he was playing puppy tummy. That is why I have that as his primary picture. The greatest thing in life was Sooke on the bed with Jen and I and have him laying there rubbing his big ol' puppy tummy.


I still miss you

February 24th 2007 3:56 pm
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Sooke, as the days go by things get easier to do. I cry less each day. But sometimes I look at your picture, somewhere I expect you to be or just a feeling of you and all the emotions come back again.
It has been over three weeks since you left us in the back of the Jeep on highway 9 trying to save you. I thought that you would pull through, you were so big and tough. You were my best friend, my first dog. Nothing can take that away, but god took you from us, so quickly. I know that we had not wanted to make the decision to put you down and you had recovered from your knee injury, but it was so sudden that sometimes I find myself just kind of lost in time, looking for you, hoping that you were just hidden away, somewhere in the house.
Like the time I took you to work and I could not find you. Someone said that you had followed the pizza guy back and there you were waiting for someone to drop some food. I was thinking the trip to the vet would be like that, just another scare.
Jen looked in the back and saw you take your last breath and told me she thought that you were gone. I could not believe it. I had never lost you before.
Now you sit above me in a beautiful maple box. I will never lose you again, but I will never have you lick my hand or fetch. One day I will see you again and I can pat your head and see your big puppy tummy.
I hurt more and less every day.

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