|Barked: Wed Jul 3, '13 11:16am PST |
|I am so upset right now. My heart is broken I just need to share my story with someone.Monday my Obbie passed away. I bottle fed her as a baby. She was a little baby to me. I carried her around and she slept in my bed. She was like a real person. She had temper tantrums, she sneezed on people and coughed on people.
In December 2012 I gave birth to a baby girl. My daughter was in the hospital quite a bit with different issues. We had so many doctors appointments. I missed a lot of work, lost my apartment and was staying in a room in someone's basement with my two dogs and my daughter and husband. I crate my dogs all day when I'm at work. I thought that if my dogs were to go to a new home with people who stayed at home they would be happier. I rehomed both of them after what I thought was careful searching for the perfect home. I sent Obbie to a family and it was the biggest mistake of my life. I didn't go to their home to check where they lived. I trusted someone to take care of My baby. I had a bad feeling about it. I ignored it. I let them take her. That was Saturday June 29th. On monday July 1st, I got a call that my precious baby had "run out the door" She was tragically killed by a car. She was trying to find me. It was pouring rain, and she hated the rain. She just wanted her mother. I drove down there on Tuesday with a friend because I could not work I was hysterical. I wanted my baby, I wanted to bury her or cremate her. I called everywhere to find out what happened to her. The cop took her away after a neighbor identified her. The woman told me after she went to the laundry mat the cop was at her house. You gave up looking for my baby and you just went to the laundry mat when she was out in the rain????The woman said she "didn't want to look at it" She was not an it! she was a she and she was like a child to me! I just lost it. We called everyone no one knows what happened to her or where the police officer took her. We went to the police station, I've called every town department, every animal shelter, animal control. I have no idea what happened to my little baby. I used to rock her to sleep, tuck her in, kiss her forhead she was like a child. I just wanted solice, I wanted my baby. What a stupid, stupid mistake I made. I wanted the best for her. I am so upset I have never ever felt this way in my life. I can't eat. Please tell me it gets better. If only I had her to cremate. I have no closure. She loved me so much, she trusted me and I let her down. I can't eat, I can't sleep..my baby needed me and I wasn't there. All I can do is try to educate people who were in a similar situation so that they re-home their dogs to a good place, charge rehoming fees, and things like this won't happen. I don't want anyone else to experience this pain. I want to know how I can do that..can I start a website? I always thought she would go elderly, in her sleep. This is so tragic. I lost my best friend I feel like not even going on. Thank-you for letting me just tell my story. Please read her bio, she was wonderful. Thank-you
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