|Barked: Wed Nov 30, '11 11:50am PST |
| I am so sorry for your loss of Maggie.
When we had to put Lucky down I felt very similar to the way you felt. The right decisions are often the hardest; the hardest to make and the hardest to eventually accept/overcome. You did was what best for Maggie in life and even in her last moments.
The house was so empty, I felt very anxious all the time because Lucky had always been my protector. I was lonely. I was already going through a hard time and then to lose my best friend? The one I could always count on...
I myself needed dogs, so I volunteered more and spent a lot of time with my friend's dogs. And eventually a couple months later I convinced my parents to adopt a dog. Just like Annie, I'm not saying to go out and get a dog before you're ready, but Lenny was the best thing that has ever happened to me. He came to me when I needed him most. And slowly but surely dragged me out of the darkness.
I also found a lot of comfort in poetry (reading & writing it). Overtime I found myself able to remember the better times, the memories of days spent in muddy creeks and making my mom horribly angry with the both of us when we tracked it all inside. I found myself less consumed by my sadness for her loss, but my joy of the memory of her life. We all grieve at our pace, we all grieve in different ways. We don't 'get over' a loss...but we come to accept it. We come to a point when it is no longer just about our sadness, but remembering and celebrating the time we had. I'll always miss Lucky. I will never forget her and I'll never stop loving her. Just as you will with Maggie. Give yourself time.
We are all stronger than we think we are. Our hearts, especially those who have known the pure love of a dog, find ways to mend and slowly put themselves back together, even if like a broken vase, it isn't quite the same as it was before.
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