|Barked: Wed Feb 20, '13 7:36pm PST |
|Thanks guys. I need a program dog, because I don't have confidence in my abilities as a trainer and definitely would need the help of a trainer.
Well, I have run into a roadblock with my parents. My mom is okay, though she doesn't know much about PSDs and says that people and machines can do all of the tasks that would help me (wake me up, buffering crowds, help find lost keys/cellphone, deep pressure therapy, remind me to take my meds, etc.). My dad is the big problem. He doesn't think it would do any good whatsoever, that I'm becoming too dependent on the dogs, and he thinks that the best way to deal with my problems is to hospitalize me. I don't know, I'll describe my situation as honestly and clearly as I can, and see what y'all think.
At home is where the main problems are. I get majorly depressed every day, especially since I dont' have a job or school yet to keep my mind occupied; I'm looking, but it's been difficult with my social anxiety. Though, when I was in school, I was worse off than I am now, so I don't know if it will actually help or not. I believe I have mild agoraphobia, probably related to the social anxiety, since some days I really cannot leave the house, but most days I seem to be okay. When I do leave home, I have constant mild anxiety that sometimes peaks to the point where I lose control and become lost in myself, or I have to leave suddenly because of it. Like today, I went to petsmart and collapsed on the ground crying and cuddling Autumn, who was with me, because of a sudden, extreme bout of anxiety. This doesn't happen more than a few times a month, but it's very scary and embarrassing when it does happen. My social anxiety is the worst of it. I can't do crowds at all, I get very disoriented and the crowd pressing is often more than I can bear. I don't do well in a crisis at all. I can barely speak on the phone or in person (I know a service dog can't help with that, but I'm just trying to put some perspective on my disability).
As I said, I don't know if I could even qualify for a service dog. I don't even know what I'm doing, and my dad's threat to put me in a hospital has me really, really upset right now, so it's difficult for me to type out anything. For those who have hung in there with me, thanks.
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