|Barked: Fri Nov 2, '12 11:43am PST |
|rewording to make my post shorter. sorry everyone.
First off. I'm very bad at communicating online. If something I say seems off or upsets someone, please ask me about it before attacking me.
The laundry list of things I've been diagnosed with: Panic disorder, Generalized anxiety disorder, PTSD, major depression, and even asperger's. (I think that last one is a load of bull.) I also get crippling migraines and I have occasional issues with mobility from a growth plate break when I was young.
The therapist I used to see suggested that since I was already trying to train a SD for myself and he was already alerting me to panic attacks and doing some useful trained tasks, I should get him a vest and an in-training tag and start working with him seriously.
I did for a little while, and was starting to feel really good about it.. but then I had a breakdown again, because my boyfriend told me he was uncomfortable being out with me and my dog. I feel like everyone (my partner and family included) thinks I'm just faking it and that I don't need him, like I'm trying to be one of those people who says their pet is a service dog to play around with him.
I DO NOT WANT to be one of those people.
I guess what I'm wondering is...
How do you know if you deserve to have a SD, vs just wanting a SD because you don't want to rely on pills and other people? Where do you draw the line between want vs need? If you can get by and have learned to deal with things without a SD, does that mean you're 'cheating' if you have one?
How do you find validation? Do you just have the internal strength to be able to say, 'this dog makes my life easier, I will defend that'? How do you deal with friends and family thinking you're faking it? (or at least feeling like they're thinking that)
Edited by author Fri Nov 2, '12 2:13pm PST