Endless forever full coffee cups falling from the skies....

Mom loves coffee. I chose my objects for Mom, some pink heart coffee cups falling from the skies because I just loved to sit by Mom on the bed when she was having her morning coffee & whatever she didn't finish went on the bedside table & I got some good licks & laps from the cup of that lovely sweet milky coffee & sometimes so did Agnes although I liked it best. Just loved to curl up to Mom the days she was well enough to sit up & drink her coffee & I could put my paws & head on her lap from one side & Agnes from the other. We just so loved Mom & just knew she loved us back. So the coffee is so Mom will always have a cup & remember me & Agnes.
With all my angel love for Mom, Babykins (BabyLove)

No Replacement for Me?

So don't know which method was better Dad yours or Mom's though I side with Mom of course & she did tell them when I died so they could cry it out. I was missed. I was loved. I was grieved & you lied & told them that Agnes was acting strange because she had been slammed into the wall but she lived and she didn't, didn't make it at all, so now they know & it's time to grieve her... Don't pull it Dad that Agnes II is the same dog. She's very different, has some of the same traits because you trained her to have them or someone did for you or a little of both, but don't tell them she's the same dog ever again because she's just not & they're confused as to how she can be an angel & they can sense her yet you say she's not dead. Yes, she crossed the Bridge & her body is of no use to her any more because that shell is gone. Useless to her when it was so mortally injured & ceased to function. Yes, of course, I know where she is. I'm an angel dog aren't I? So I know where Agnes II is & you just keep looking Dad, you just keep looking because those little boys will have their hopes up now that The Outlaw Josey Wales (Outlaw Josey) & Jesse James have been found.

Let's move on to me. I am as irreplaceable as Mom says but you know what? You still need another one even if she is different than me even if you don't train her to be a lot like me, you need another one, another Blue Heeler because we're very different & we're great dogs! German Shepherd cross Blue Heeler? You might not find another one, but you can find a Blue Heeler maybe even a nice puppy one. What do you say Dad? As soon as you're back together you start looking for a puppy or a young dog that can attach to Mom & to the children. Help you get over me it will, for once & for all? Well, you'll miss me sometimes & I will still visit...

Onto Mr. Spoiled Rotten Jack Russell Terrier / Basenji cross Mr. Jesse James. Wow dog were you ever spoiled rotten! You could do no wrong and all of Dad's ideas about how well behaved dogs should be & perfectly trained & somehow like old time servants there but not noticed unless you needed them just flew out that window. I was only there in angel form watching but what you got away with boy oh boy let me tell you, Dad would have been calling the dog trainer back in or placing a dog rehoming ad if we had done just and nth of what you did Jesse. Spoiled rotten little fox monster you were! The kids are going to demand some training for you & that you not be allowed to steal their toys & then whine & beg & run to Dad for him to yell at them for leaving their toys where you could get them. Hmmm. Did Dad ever realize that you can climb up shelves Jesse? That no place was safe when you decided that toy was yours? You'll have to learn to play fair with the kids Mr. Jealous, Mr. Green Eyed Monster has bitten you. They're the kids & you're the dog so you will have to learn how to fit in.

Outlaw Josey? Yeah, you grew. They told Dad you were going to be small & then you just kept growing & you weren't one dog darn thing like Mr. Fur Angel Josey Wales though you were and still are a Basenji. You always acted like you could play with the big dogs & like you knew you would be one of them one day. You're still not as big as August Max & Marc, so you need to remember that fact to survive around them in harmony with the household. Dad was so disappointed in you & so you became indifferent & acted like an outcast but see that you're starting to find a voice for yourself here. Know you will now with the Carolina Dog packs group helping to run you. Just too big and as someone called you all dog & all boy dog at that & you were too doggy for Daddy now. Thought you might eat the house up didn't they? Hey Basenji's are a force of nature like a cyclone & they need training & you were taking out your disappointment in Dad & the family on the house. Just don't eat the furniture this time Outlaw & don't pee on things especially not in front of people. You will find love & they are learning to miss you. They are getting to know you in retrospect & you're right -- you just weren't loved enough & they didn't see how dejected you were that tail drooping and that head down & you were so sad because Dad was talking of finding you a new place & so you ran. Bet you were the first one to run away. Just not like Augie even though he's rebellious, always fun loving & warm & funny & ready to play but he was the responsible one & watched out for everyone & was dependable just like that old time banker's suit he wore. Like an old man dog & a young dog rolled into one & he could be oh so serious & he was held to account for keeping the others in line. So he went after you didn't he, took off running to find you cause he knew he was going to be blamed. Well, in a way he has found you so he can come home again now & sometimes you can come home again no matter what Thomas Wolfe says. In spite of the name, he's just not a dog & so doesn't or didn't understand & maybe he's wrong about people too....
From the Clouds, Babykins

**** I will be very hurt if you don't find yourself another Blue Heeler though I know one of the kids wants a Red Heeler. You need to live out in the country is all I have to say. Big family & big fur family too!

Great Roaring Twenties Costume Party @ Dogster Junction!!!!

Oh had such a great time at the Marauder's Costume party @ Dogster Junction! Will have to find the link again later & put it at the bottom in case you might like to join cause that was such a wonderful Roaring Twenties gangster party! Actually could post & those barking for me could read the screen and it was absolutely furtastic & wonderFUR! Wow did we ever have fun! Some of the dogs were undercover feds & didn't let on until on into the party including Robin Hood though he kind of weasled back & forth on maybe he was one of the gangsters but anything for that first bust! He said this is my first raid! Yeah as a fed bud, right! Our dogs German Shepherds August Max & Marc of course turned out to be G Men, Feds in on the bust & it was a great time had by all! Too I had this great Clara Bow costume in a short dress with the hands on the side of the face & how cute is that outfit & not the stick woman normal boyish 1920's Flapper either! Wasn't she just great?! A normal size curvy plump woman and a movie star! What a cutie she was & how lucky I was that someone supplied such a great costume for me! Couldn't wait to see that one on the page at the party & knew, just knew no one else would have such a gem of a costume or think to be Clara Bow though she was a big silent screen star in the 1920's & her photos look like she is such a cutie & sweetie & like she's having a great time! Seems to counter the Louise Brooks vamp image the bad girl into everything with a sort of sweet girl next door type for Clara Bow though of course in real life you never know how much is fabrication and publicity and an image to uphold bad or good. We angel dogs got to dive bomb Maxi & throw meatballs & bacon balls at the feds so we had a really great time, just a blast of a party! Oh, not bird type dive bomb: same meatballs & bacon balls rained down upon Maxi's head, but at least he was oddly wearing a hard hat construction type. Guess he expected something to be thrown at him this party. Bear had these wonderfur party favors too of dish detergent to make everyfur slide around and pink dye used to dye white dog Bailey's fur a nice shade of pink & other great party favors! Will have to finish this one later as my barker typist needs to go answer the door!
Flying around my family, BabyKins

Kitthaven's Pool Party tonight @ 5 p.m. Dogster Time.

Just because we're not dressed up or in swimsuits doesn't mean we're not going, but both I & Josey Wales expect some new pictures as everyfur else except us has them now Dad! Okay we're going as straight angel dogs, no morphing into creatures such as mermaids or Nemo fish or getting into scuba gear with a pet dolphin to guide us there -- we're going the old fashioned angel dog way meaning of course we're flying. Thanks for saying that Josey could eat the food with us because they are having a BBQ cookout too & they have the most extraordinary food at some of these parties & our friends told us that Kitthaven's was especially good. In real life we would have only gotten a little BBQ as the sauce would have kept our stomachs upset, but we're angel dogs & so that BBQ can't hurt us any more Dad! Looking forward to the party even if things slow down on the evil box (meaning the computer) & we don't get to post or if it moves too fast & we can't post.

So yes, all of us are going to try to be there but some won't be able to stay long & some may just drop by & Josey & I will stay as long as you let us Dad -- know you're still recovering from those spider bites but hope we can stay awhile anyway.
Babykins aka BabyLove

**Next time it is another doggy's turn (hrmph spoiled Agnes!) to be an angel dog & let us have some fun -- okay maybe Josey can be a winged water angel or have a very special angel pic or maybe turn into some sort of whatever as the next one may not be a pool party. Hmm. Well, special angel pic anyway. **

Greetings from Mom to Dad! Oh, and Pool Party / Cook Out @- P*I*F!

So Dad pool party first and then onto you! Of course the pool party and what occurred there is relevant to you and to your beliefs and we are requesting that you allow Josey Wales angel dog that he is to eat the virtual food with us Dad! Seemed ridiculous to say wait a minute and let us fly the food over the Rainbow Bridge and back so that we can eat it, so please it's virtual food let Josey eat the virtual food because we just rebelled against you as you said we did in real life and ate the virtual food. Haven't read back to see if you let Josey eat and you know what? Know that some of the sons bark for the angel dogs sometimes so wouldn't necessarily believe that it was you even if Josey did eat food.

Had such a wonderful time at the pool party swimming with our wings in the water and flying around overhead. We have accepted that we will be angel dogs Dad and will go to all events as angels so guess it will have to be the photo background thing that dresses us up -- plus maybe sometimes our wings can be invisible? Understand. Accepted. Keep trying to get back to the pool party and can't make it back to that subject, just so much to cover but needs to be done. Understand that if at some future date on down the road not soon if we marry that it will be angel dogs and that's accepted. For now for you & Mom you both accept that our crossing dates won't be acknowledged or celebrated but you need to keep an open mind and to remember both of you that the boys do not accept this one and to think on that one some more and it's not about if you give in on this thing or that one that anything goes, just both of you think on this one, okay? Our WoofDays aka Birthdays will be celebrated and that's great! At least one day per year we will be remembered and acknowledged so that's great! Okay so back to the party. We had a great time and enjoy playing on Dogster and didn't feel out of place in the least playing with our wings on our backs and flying around. When you all get better at pics, maybe you could just do some pool and even pics for us flying around and that might make it a little more natural for those Dogsters and family members who find the situation a little awkward of unnatural.

At least you and Mom are talking again and are talking about family counseling again and that's a good thing! Think that both of you should agree on that one and talk to the sons about it, not your eldest sons who might agree to help fix the dynamic by going too, but please agree that this will not be a screaming match or word war or accusation session or a time to lash out and bash each other and kids too understand this is not a blame your parents with everything time as has been done widely in past decades via pop psychology. Makes me BabyLove feel better that you and Mom are talking and know that the young sons in particular will feel better. Stop the resentment older sons that they're getting something that you missed! They are, after all, your little brothers and think about the older sons when Dad was working all those hours Mr. Type A personality all engrossed in his work and forgetting sometimes that he had a family and work out the everything on a schedule garbage because that's exactly what that is: pure garbage! Infuriates your Mom too so you're not alone, but this isn't about sides, so rather than push your parents apart older ones because you think this is what's best for them, realize that these are two adults and stop being so angry and help them work things out. They know they have problems and that you got caught in the middle of those problems, okay?

Now best time of all. Kisses good night to my dear Mom and think about adding a Blue Heeler to your dog pack Mom even if not crossed with a German Shepherd like me. Will make me feel better. Wing tip touches to tousle the boys hair anyone who isn't an adult but the younger you are the more you need those angel wing brushes and kisses to the boys, doggy licks as Agnes put it. Hand shakes and truces to the adult sons. I kept you away from Mom because she was ill and she didn't need the stress you brought with you, needed to heal and then listen to you. Same thing that Josey Wales did for Dad what Agnes and I did for Mom and note that two of us were needed and Dad only needed one and doesn't say anything about comparative worth of us doggies either, just that you were kept isolated from him. You always did have August Max or GSD's like Max & Marc to protect you too and they would body slam Mom & Dad if they were arguing with you and tried to approach you so they were your dogs guys in the family kids teens young adults so remember that one and they are returning to your family plus a female GSD again extra large size for Mom & Dad because they needed protection from your angry words at times too.

Night Night children. Will fly by and check on you especially and Mom and give Dad a fly by and know that I will see Josey Wales in spirit form there.
Love from BabyLove

** Thought that I had remembered to thank TedEBear ~ In Loving Memory for the Rainbow Star and good message but guess that was just a paw mail so thanks so much TedEBear for that lovely rainbow star! Will have to see if I got others that have left the box that I forgot to thank for too! Really love my rainbow star though TedEBear! ***

By Your Side Mom

Mom can the near adult children be made to understand that they should not help Dad's charity their step Dad's charity? I mean no hope for Dad but they and the adult ones are still your flesh & blood. How did this thing happen their involvement with the charity of someone they despise? Often that happens that children do not like their step parent .... what to do Mom? what to do? How to resolve this one? You will always have my love from beyond even if you never speak to the man you call husband again. No matter what you do I'm the dog angel & will always be on your side, but you know I never liked Dad so that's part of it too. I spent a great deal of time growling & keeping him away from you as did Agnes because I never felt he had your best interests at heart & Agnes agreed, but if by chance you do reconcile with him just make sure you have a good dog or two by your side because we are most excellent judges of character & of intent. We will love you no matter what you decide in the end Mom.
BabyLove from Above

Ice Cream Tag!

Ice Cream? Look like? Okay not easy because I look like Mocha with dark chocolate sauce and blueberries and that doesn't sound tasty so what about my favorite ice cream? Dad had to search for it for Mother and think it's an old flavor but he had friends who had some stashed in the freezer whether it was old or not. My favorite was something me & Agnes shared with Mom called Ben & Jerry's Rainforest Crunch.


Vanilla ice cream with a cashew and brazil nut buttercrunch and that must have been old ice cream in the freezer because dates looked up in the Wiki and it was available from 1989 to 1996! Someone had a freezer stashed half full of the stuff because Mom just had to have ice cream while she was sick to cool down and she wouldn't eat much and so ice cream it was! And cold things of other kinds because most of the time she was hot and she couldn't stand hot food! We got to share the Rainforest Crunch! Even if just a little bit at a time, that stuff was great! When we couldn't get more, moved, Dad and the older sons had to figure out how to simulate it and make it homemade and took a few or so tries before Mom would eat it.

Okay so have another game of tag to play but first I need to tag at least one family member. Hmm. August Max is good. Your turn and know it might take you awhile to play unless your foster family is online and just happen to hit my diary because we still have a problem deciding who should open which paw mails and accidentally opening each other's so that it looks like it's been read meaning that we endlessly end up re-reading paw mails.
Babykins from Above

Tag from Josey Wales

Josey Wales, I have absolutely no idea what kind of ice cream I am so I'll have to come back to it later and don't know when I'll get to it just that what the devil kind of ice cream would a Blue Heeler dog be? Might have to be what kind of ice cream I like instead because I'm taking it this is what kind of ice cream do you look like as in appearance and uh, nothing coming from thought world right now. Just don't know. Later on that one.

Other tag I will play now:
1. What color is your collar?
Just like you on that one Josey or in a way. Mom was NEVER satisfied with my collar and Dad said it was because she was feverish but she liked a particular style was it called Marten? A fabric collar that was wider and came in colorful patterns best. She was always having nightmares that someone grabbed my collar and well, won't go into all the details but killed me because they could get my collar so it was a breakaway and that did help me live longer.

2. What kind of food do you eat?
Mom had such a hard time eating that she would often separate out what she was going to eat what she knew she could eat and then she would put the rest on the edge of the bed for me or on the floor. She was like Dad when he got sick from what you say Josey and couldn't eat much so I got pork chops too and ribs slow cooked but not barbeque and rare roast beef from her sandwiches and from the crockpot and slow cooked carrots and steak medium rare usually and all kinds of good food. I wasn't fat, but I did put on some weight. Yes, I had dog food but rarely did I eat it except some good dry food every now and then various brands.

3. What are your favorite treats?
Treats? My treats were people food. Dad said that he was suspicious of what was in some of the doggy treats and so he said if anything happened to me or Agnes or the GSD's that he didn't know how Mom would take it, that she had been through enough.

4. Do you have a Valentine or significant other?
No. Mom says that she will respect Dad's decision that we only have other angel dogs as significant others or will for now though she doesn't necessarily agree yet she says she understands so for now in the future any boyfriend will have to be an angel dog.

5. Do you get Table Scraps?
Yes. Anything the kids didn't want including hamburgers from various places including McDonald's and Burger King.

6. What is your favorite toy?
Whatever was put up and away and I was told that I couldn't have. Any toy any of the other dogs had such as squeakies. The children's toys and they would cry and Dad would fuss at them but they learned to keep those toys that they liked best out of my reach.

7. When is your Birthday?
8. How many times a day do you get to eat?
August 20th and we're not allowed to give a year for now.

9. Do you have a favorite color?
Varied according to what I wanted. Whatever color the other dogs blankets were that was my favorite color and I needed that blanket although I got fussed at when I took it.

10. Do you hope all your pals put this in their diary?
That would be great.

Babykins / BabyLove (Mom called me the second one because she couldn't get that Mother's Finest song out of her head especially when she was feverish -- so she would call me BabyLove.

Note from Mom.

I'm here. Hello my beloved dog. Yes, I know I'm supposed to be your voice and I will have to do better won't I now? I haven't written for you, given you much of a voice yet because I never dealt with your loss. I said that I would NEVER NEVER NEVER have another dog again, never get that attached to a loving little creature. You died because you were defending me & the kids. Your Dad didn't understand and he took out his rage on the memories of the dogs and made grief and thinking about you impossible. I wasn't happy when Josey Wales died but I was so happy that finally he understood what you pets meant to the kids in the family, to me and that's one reason I started looking for another dog. I'm elsewhere here on Dogster Babykins my beloved and much desired Blue Heeler. I always wanted a Blue Heeler because you reminded me so much of wolves somehow the feet especially for some reason. I wasn't too physically ill to know that you were there, to realize that you barked went to get Dad or one of the kids when I needed water when I was in pain and could barely move because the encephalitis made any movement of my back and neck feel like I had died and gone to hell. I appreciated you, was afraid to touch you too much but did when you came up and licked my hand, afraid that you would get sick too. Then you went and died on me & I was just bereft, but then you weren't dead and I had to get better to take care of you, had to force myself to move through a fog of pain to help you and that made Dad mad though what he didn't realize was that you were helping me. I was mad with God, the fates of the air, man, the world for what happened to you and I also had to get well to go after those burglars. Whether they know it or not I have legimitately gone after them and have made their lives a living hell. How dare they attack us all over again, how dare they do things that keep us apart. I have prayed for their deaths many a night and many a day, but then one day I started praying that some of them should live as how can they suffer in the same way if they're dead? Some certainly need to die and begin serving their sentence in hell.

Babykins, I am not known, it's not known that I'm your Mom, your beloved Mom. I'm elsewhere on Dogster as I've said and actually have two, three dogs now and cats. The kids were on Dogster before and so some might remember but they never knew my name or not my whole name. I was the subject of prayer and so were you before Dad crashed everyone off Dogster -- partly the burglar's fault. Why didn't I get another dog like you? Oh how could I? The dog wouldn't be you and it would be like betraying your memory and would also be so unfair to that dog to live in constant comparison to you. They said I would never remember. I had a terrible brain fever and I remember feeling like I was roasting alive all the time, but I remember you but it's distant sometimes like an out of body experience like watching from my death because surely I was dying. Your death near death helped me live truly and I was mad with God and man for working it that way. One day I'll have another Blue Heeler but there will never be another you, never. A cross Blue Heeler? Probably not for awhile yet, but we'll see. My dogs, one day I just had to have a dog and they have helped me remember you. As I said, I never dealt with your death, but I remember having to send you to the Bridge. Your Dad my husband didn't want me to go, didn't want me to be by you, said it would be too traumatic. I couldn't stand for you to be in so much pain, had not touched you petted you as much as I wanted in fear you would catch what I had and there you were injured spine and in the same sort of pain from different causes that I was and I hated pain pills and couldn't bear the thought of you having to live addicted to them and the research went as far as it could and you were a miracle and it seemed wrong to euthanize you to put you out of your misery but even more evil for you to suffer all the time. Loved you so much that I hated your Dad after you were gone and soon we parted ways and fought for the children and so they were sent to live with others for awhile until we could stop all the fighting.

Understand why the children, the teens, the young adults spent so much time on Dogster & Catster. Your Dad wouldn't let me have a cat. He didn't see the value of them -- until he took in a cat and some kids killed the cat after he came to love her. He was so furious and this evil place and there are so many here in the USA and Canada, didn't understand his rage and sent animal control out over and over again and he doesn't have any pets, will soon again, but didn't and doesn't just the memories of pets and the hopes of the returns of pets. I'm the one who just had to have a dog, suddenly couldn't bear to be without one and for other reasons.

Love you Babykins my BabyLove, from Mom

Mom Are You There?

You're the one who is supposed to be my voice Mom. Where are you? Do you remember me ... at all? Know you were really sick with encephalitis when I was with you and that you didn't need the added stress of losing a dog, so I lived for you or I tried. I didn't need you to go down hill because you were so very ill. Think you did better and got well faster to care of me your beautiful dog. Know you didn't want to send me to the Bridge but I'm happy that you did and happy I got that time with you when you were a little better to sit outside in the warm sunshine and to feel the rays on my face. Know after Agnes & I died that you said only guard dogs from now on, only pets for the children that you would never have a dog again and you felt like Dad didn't understand and you hated him for it. He did after Josey died Mom, finally understood. But he was like you. I will NEVER have another dog again said he. But you have one. Tell me Mom, were Blue Heelers bad dogs, was it cross Blue Heelers or why didn't you get another one like me? Love you Mom. Please talk to me & please talk for me.
From where I watch over you in the air, Babykins