Nicknames: Sunshine (Is his full name), Sunnies, Bunnies, Little Love
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Quick Bio:
-purebred
Birthday: July 10th 2008 Likes: Being with me - and doing anything! Pet-Peeves: He doesn't like me cleaning his eyes, and I am constantly cleaning the gook from them! Favorite Toy: Without a doubt: His soft, rubber, orange squeaky ball! He carries it with him wherever he goes! Favorite Food: Sunny has severe IBD and cant have anything but his special diet:( Breaks my heart. Favorite Walk: He enjoys walking anywhere - down the street is fine with him! Best Tricks: He is one heck of a dancer. You show something he wants, and you don't even have to say a word - he will start dancing! He he can also sit, lay down, come (when he wants to:), and give paw! Arrival Story: I had to put my last Toy Poodle, Rocky, to sleep due to kidney failure and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I couldn't stop crying. The next day, my mom was looking in the newspaper and saw an ad for Sunny. I couldn't bear to go look at another dog but she pushed me and I went crying and sobbing. When we got there and I saw Sunny, sunshine just swept into my heart. He was the cutest thing I'd ever seen. Although no one can replace Rocky, getting Sunny helped with the hurt and pain immensely. He brought the sunshine back into my life!! Bio: Sunny is my best friend! He is such a sweetheart. He trusts me totally and we share a bond that is inexplicable. He wants to please me, so he is very obedient. We mean the world to each other! Forums Motto: The Little Boy With a Heart of Gold
In the past, I've always been, (or tried to be), on top of doing "thank-you's". I think it's nice to personally acknowledge each fur/person who was thoughtful and generous enough to think of my sweet Angel boy. But, in this case, I just haven't been able to do it. The thoughtfulness and generosity was overwhelming - so much so, that I couldn't even bring myself to read all the kind messages of support and sympathy until just recently. I did personally thank some of you, but those I did not, please know that I know who you are, and am so grateful for you acknowledging and memorializing my Sunny's passing.
I miss him more than words could ever express. But as I look back on things, I see how much he was suffering. I think he was trying to be strong for me, because he knew how much I needed him. I think I needed him more than he needed me. Its so hard for me to accept, but I am trying to believe that he is healthy now and okay on his own up there. And I wait and pray for the day that we will be reunited.
The days are finally getting a bit better for me. I don't spend the entire day in bed anymore - just parts of it. I had a really good 2 days, but last night and today, the feelings of devastation seem to have returned. I know they say grief comes in waves - I just want an even flow. I cant bear to move any of his toys or things yet. The tears still flow daily... nights are the worst.
I will get another dog. Just not yet. I want to be mentally and financially stable first. And I don't feel ready to open my heart to a new dog yet. When my old dog, Rocky, passed, I got Sunny at my parents urging, just 2 days later. And Sunny helped the grief immensely. I just can't imagine another dog on my bed in "Sunny's spot", or walking outside in "Sunny's yard". I also don't feel ready to take on the challenge of a new dog quite yet. In time....
Through his passing, I've made some new, wonderful, and unexpected friends. It made me realize how many truly wonderful people there are on Dogster. And I am so fortunate that you all were there to support me in the hard times I went through with Sunny - and the good times too.
I am so grateful for the generous, thoughtful friends that I have here on Dogster. Sunny's page is filled with condolence gifts, and I've received many cards and flowers from special friends. I am sorry I am unable to thank anyone individually, or even thank them here right now. I am having a hard time with the loss of such a huge part of my life and I tend to isolate myself from everyone and everything. Please know how thankful I am for all of you here on Dogster, and the support you are showing me.
Sunny hadnt been doing well since his leg surgery. His IBD had been getting the best of him. I took him to the U of Penn about a month and a half ago, but the docs suggestions didnt help. He continued to go downhill.
Saturday, he vomited blood and had explosive diarrhea. He's never had these symptoms ever in his life, so I took him to the emergency vet. They found he was having severe back pain. Docs had thought he had back pain over the years, but chalked it up to his IBD. The doc told me it was most likely a vertabrae or disc (degenerative disc disease), and that he would need to be on pain meds. She said they can flare at any time, and in the future, he may lost total body control and just collapse. He just had xrays of his back when he had his leg operation in June, and they didnt show anything, so another xray really wouldnt help. In the future, surgery would most likely be necessary.
He stayed in the hospital overnight Saturday with explosive diarrhea, nauseau, and back and side pain. My baby has been through too much. He's been struggling and struggling - and the back issue was just too much for him to bear. I could not see him in pain any longer - b/c of his IBD, and now the disc disease.
I brought him home last night and a doctor who does in home euthanasia came to our home and layed him to rest. The doctor couldnt even find a vein to put the medicine in, because all his veins were shot from all the IVs he's had. It was so hard to watch.
My baby is gone, and I am devastated. I know tho that he is at peace now, and pain free, but the pain I am left with is just so great. I dont know when I will be able to come on the computer again, so I want you all to know how thankful I am for all who cared about my little boy.
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