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Shadow-Fax, Shadow Meister, SHADOW NO!!! *giggles*
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March 15th 2002
His mom, the sprinklers and tearing up his stuffed toys
foster kittens because he could not keep an eye on all of them at the same time :)
tennis balls & Rahja
steak still on the bone
wherever there were no humans so out in the desert behind our property
scare people and go snickering off ~blast thru the dog door & thru the dining room & down the hall at such a high rate of speed that company would ask me "What was that?"
My then hubby was a lineman for the power company. One day his crew had to follow the power lines way out into the dessert to search for a power problem. They came across a litter of feral puppies living in a huge pile of dead mesquite trees. One puppy was larger than the others and it seemed as if he was left in charge while the mama dog searched for food. It was hot outside and all of the crew felt sorry for the pups. They ended up leaving their lunches and water for them. As soon as my hubby arrived home from work, he drove me out to where they had seen the puppies. Only the larger pup was there all by himself. We searched around and it appeared as if the mama dog was not happy about the human intrusion earlier that day and had moved the litter. After taking the new pup to the vet we discovered why he had been left behind. He sadly had a hole in his heart and was not expected to live much longer. We went back and searched but never located any of the other pups. I did catch sight of the adult dogs out there one time. There was a nursing mama with them and she appeared to me to be a brindle Catahoula mix. Shadow had definite shepherd markings and the chow's blue tongue, so I'm not sure if that was his mama or not.
Shadow became his name because there was a lunar eclipse that occurred the night we rescued him. His Auntie C and Uncle J were the ones who came up with and suggested that I name him this. Boy did that name prove to be true! He became my shadow and my protector.
I loved him so much, but at the same time he was the biggest pain! *giggles* In his short life he remained pretty much feral to all but me and a few others. Few ever saw the beauty, the love and the sillyness of the true Shadow. He loved to freak me out by doing clever things. Like perfectly lining up all, and he had a lot, of his stuffed toys in a perfect row so when I walked out into the living room my heart would do a double beat and wonder if I had a poltergeist in my house! Lol! When we installed the dog door he loved it, but did not trust leaving it unattended. If he wanted to take a nap he would drag out his big stuffed polar bear and sit it so it was in front of the dog door facing out into the backyard. Too cute! I cannot tell you how many times I was buzy doing something and turned around to find that polar bear facing me! Lol! If he heard any noise coming from out front, he would race over and stare at the security monitor. A few short yips at the monitor meant somebody was on our street and a few aggressive yips meant somebody was near our yard. He was such a nosey neighbor, lol! He was a goof ball and he loved to play tricks on the few people who he allowed into his world. It was on a Tuesday afternoon when he suddenly passed away. He was zooming around like normal, blasting in and out of the dog door. Out of nowhere I felt something and I can not really describe it. It was like a calm and peaceful feeling wooshed over me, I felt Shadow's energy and spirit all around me. Then my house became completely silent. At that moment I knew my beloved Shadow had just said goodbye. That precious little boy, who was not expected to live past a year old, died a month short of his fourth birthday from sudden heart failure. He destroyed my house, my backyard, the fence but I would do it all over again given the chance! :) I miss him and I love him so much.
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December 8th 2010 11:55 pm
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I was at the vet’s office today with Auntie P and Jo Jo when the lady came in with her doggie that reminded me so much of you. She had found him as a puppy out in the desert and he was so scared to be in a territory filled with humans and different smells.
I asked the lady if she thought it was alright for me to approach her doggie, was he too scared? His tail was tucked tightly between his legs and he was quivering. She said that he was, humans scared him and so I sat down in a chair and from afar reminisced about you. This dog had the same exact head as you, the same marked Chow Chow tongue, the same eyes and the same un-sureness you always had towards new situations and humans. When asked to get on the weight scale, this dog had the exact reaction that you always had… “I don’t think so!!”
Suddenly this beautiful dog yanked on his owner’s leash to approach me and he surprised her with what I would have done had it been you… she pulled back on his leash with un-sureness. It was o.k. as he came and placed his head in my lap and I hugged him and kissed him on his head and looked into his loving eyes. She then let the leash go and I felt that in some way you had something to do with this. Although I knew that it wasn’t you, I felt so bonded to this once feral dog as he reminded me so much of you and I knew that he felt my love and my pain of losing you too. He was so sweet.
The tears have once again started and have not stopped flowing since this afternoon my sweet Shadow. I miss you and I love you so much!! They say it’s like the blink of an eye to our loved ones who have crossed over when we finally are able to meet up with them again. Let me tell you, it’s like infinity and beyond for us!!
Gentle Hugs & Love,
October 24th 2009 2:46 am
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My Sweet Shadow,
I pulled out your cremation envelope today. I’m so sorry that I have not done this in the past. I read the Rainbow Bridge poem that’s beautifully printed on the envelope, I cried. I then pulled out the contents of the envelope, and held the precious matted card that enclosed your paw print and fur. I sobbed and remembered and missed you like you left me just hours ago!
You and I know, and nobody else does, that the person who cremated you and gave me these wonderful, timeless memories of you is the same person responsible for Muppet’s pain and suffering. I guess I felt like if I looked at these memories that she kindly gave me of you that I somehow would be betraying Muppet and all of my memories of the hell that all of the flock kitties had to endure.
I‘ll never forget the day you passed away and I called Sherry. I was first told that they were closed and would re-open in two days. When I said who I was, the tune changed and I was told that they would wait for you and me, as long as it took us to get there. Sherry, oh my…as many times as she must have heard people’s sob stories, not only was waiting by the gate for me, she empathetically listened to me sob uncontrollably and tell your entire story. She barely charged me a thing for her services.
I’m sorry that it took me so long to pick up your ashes! I honestly tried to make that drive many times and just couldn’t. I guess I knew once I picked up your remains that it was a sealed deal…. it meant that you were really gone! It was right after I brought you back home, that I was called out to flock. Flock blew my mind and broke my heart even more than I ever imagined it could be, and I never could bring myself to look at your preserved memories.
Well, I looked at them tonight sweet boy. Your fur is just how I remember it, and your paw print is just too precious. I know that you are running perfect and free on the other side. I just wanted to say that I love and miss you and that I can’t wait to see you again one day!
I’ve faced some pretty big shadows from my past lately and I’m still standing! I finally can let you, my protective Shadow, rest in peace now. Fly free! Until we meet again…..
I’ll always love and miss you!
March 23rd 2009 11:04 pm
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Mom has not let me freely trot around Dogster too much yet. She says it’s because her heart still hurts and she misses me so much. She did not realize that it would be so hard making up my special ‘room’ for me. She hasn’t been able to make one yet for Sweet Rahja. Hopefully soon she can go for walks around Dogsterland with me and we can start meeting some pawsome other doggies and their families. We so much appreciate the doggies who have asked me to be pals and have kindly left gifties on my page. *big grateful hugs* We apologize that so far I have not been able to be too active.
Well, we couldn’t believe it when I received an anonymous giftie from a sweet Dogster that contained a picture of me at the Bridge! It’s just lovely and we thank this kindhearted family very much for taking the time to ‘take’ this snapshot of me! *yip yips & big hugs of thanks*
Smooches & Happy Yips,
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