June 21st 2007 12:20 pm
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Something happened. Wasn't expecting it, but it happened. You know that when Brandi my golden retriever passed away, she was the one who lead me to my 2 additions Mandi & Rootbeer, where I adopted them at the pound. Since I brought them home, Rootbeer reminds me so much of Brandi in everything he does and his mannerisms too.
One of my favorite movies is called "A unfinished life". Robert Redford and Jennifer Lopez, & Morgan Freeman are the stars in this movie which is about accidents and things happening for a reason in our lives. It was on yesterday, and for the 5th time, I sat and watched it.
At the end of this movie, Robert Redford finally had forgiven JL for the accident which killed his son and how JL came back 10 years later with Robert Redfords grand daughter. So at the end of the movie Robert Redford is sitting in front of a cabin with his friend played by Morgan freemman and says to him "My grand daughter told me you had a dream last night. she said you were flying". The friend says "Yes, I was flying so high that I flew to where the sky turns from blue to black.". Robert Redford asks his friend, "Do you think the dead care what we think or do?". His friend says "Oh I believe they do, I believe they do. Everything in our lives happens for a reason my friend". I felt as though it was a message to me regarding Brandi for some reason , and so I looked up at the oil painting Donna my friend from Kentucky gave me of Brandi that's on my wall in my livingroom and started crying and thinking to myself at that second, "what was your reason Brandi?" No sooner did I think that thought as I looked at Brandi's picture, out comes Rootbeer from the back bedroom and comes to me where I am sitting on the couch crying silently, and walks up to me and licks my face and then puts his head on my knee and he looked up at Brandi's picture.
My God, right then and there I knew in my heart again and becasuse this was happening now, just confirmed it all over again for me, that Brandi is really in Rootbeer, and that Brandi lead me to R & M to 1st, save them from being seperated, but also for me to love not 1 golden, but 2 more. I looked up at the picture of Brandi and said out loud, "Brandi you are in Rootbeer aren't you"? and as soon as I said that out loud, then Rootbeer looked at me and snuggled up to me for me to hug him, which I did. The feeling in me at that moment was over whelming to me, along with a feeling of peace finally for my pain of losing Brandi.
I have no doubt in my mind now, even after all the innocents that have happened prior since Brandi died and since Rootbeer and Mandi came here to live with us, that Brandi girl now lives on in Rootbeer. I could feel it once again that warm tingling feeling inside and for Rootbeer to come walking out from the bedroom when he was sound asleep a few minutes earlier, at that exact time I was thinking what was the reason for Brandi dying and him doing what he did, well that was my answer, finally confirmed again..
After that a smile came to my face as I wiped away my tears of saddness and now I feel I can go on and give Rootbeer and his sister Mandi all my love in my heart for them and not hold back any longer like I have been doing. I know Brandi is near now. I know for sure now she is still with us and inside Rootbeer and that makes me feel so good. I mean I wish Brandi was here, but since she isn't, what better way to have her. Yes I guess everything in life does happen for a reason and sometimes it takes a while before you get your answer or realized it has been in front of you all this time but really didn't understand it or believed it..
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