May 27th 2013 4:56 pm
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Mom wasn't going to put this in my diary. I insisted! Maybe down the road this will make sense and help me like other entries have.
On Saturday, Memorial weekend, mom took us for a walk. Dad was walking Grunt and mom was walking me. I saw a truck at the far end of the cemetary. I saw a man and a woman walking about the graves and became concerned. Well we got almost to the end of the cemetary and a couple of vehicles drove by. But stopped at the mini-horse farm. Uh oh.. Then we started to walk down the road and I was looking behind me and saw them! All of them cars! About 10 of them! Gaaaa!! Now the cars were stopping and tons of people got out. Some in uniform. Mom said, Oh no! BANG! Gun shots! BANG! Gun shots. By now my tail is tucked way under my belly, my eyes are popping out of my skull and I am shaking and trying to run away from everyone. Well dad was talking to the owner of the mini-horses about some fencing and I was trying to run away. Mom has a martindale collar and I cannot slip out. Mom leaned over and just put her hand on my side. I stopped shaking, but was still overly concerned. Grunt on the other had was Mr. Social Butterfly! He was sitting and watching people put flags on graves and everything! I tried to run several more times and mom said that we had to go. As we walked further and further away I was starting to calm more and more. Finally when we got to our property my tail was untucked and I appeared calmer.
We got to the house and mom told dad that we were just going to sit for about a half hour. No noise, nothing. Mom didn't want to put on my Anxiety Wrap because I had been so scared. But now thinks that maybe she should've because the situation was over and the house was calm...
Today our walk was wonderful! Nothing crazy, everything was good. Mom still didn't put on my wrap. She's waiting for dad to be at work and that way there is no noise no matter what! But mom and dad were talking about me, I heard them. Dad kept saying how scared I was bothered him. He wondered, like they both do often, what was done to me that causes me so much fear. Mom said that she was extremely upset, but kept taking calming breaths so I would feel her fear through the lead. Mom said she noticed me looking at Grunt constantly. Hoping that I would follow his lead and calm some, but I didn't.
Finally mom and dad both agreed, I'm safe with them. They constantly reassure me that I'm safe and they'll never let anything or anyone hurt me. Just wish I could believe them....
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Sometimes.. just like humans... there is no mending of some of the broken parts.
Once we realise that we can truly help.
Its ok to be afraid... but its ok to listen to others trying to help us too.
That makes it easier.. that means we slowly slowly calm. . As long as you have those around you love and trust as you do.. you can always find the calmness on the other side of the fear.
There is a path.. follow it.. walk the walk... listen to the words.. All will be well.
Some dogs are really scared of loud noises - we used to have a basset that freaked at thunderstorms and fireworks. We don't really know why, but he did.
sending lots of hugs & love to you, sweet darcy.. its very sad & upsetting to think that someone must of hurt you so bad for you to have so much fear.. it makes mommie very sad.. me too.. but NOW you has a mommie & daddy AND brother that love you so much! no matter what, you will ALWAYS have them & you will ALWAYS be safe & loved! we love you & your family so much darcy, you are part of our hearts, furever! you are always in our prayers. you are surrounded by love & will ALWAYS be safe! sending you lots of angel hugs & kisses! we love you darcy!!! droopy & mommie
Sometimes it is hard for us pups to put the past behind us. I am slowly putting my fear of brooms behind me. Mom couldn't sweep the floor for the longest time, because everytime I saw a broom, I would whimper and cry and slink away to hide. I am sorry someone hurt you, but you are now safe. Hugs.
I think you know you are safe with your Mom and Dad it's just sometimes worry beats all other emotions. I know I feel safe with my Mom and Dad but, I still can't do everything that Missy can. It sounds like your Mom and Dad just want you to always feel safe which is perfectly normal for any parent.