God Leant To Me An Angel (continued from last diary entry)

God leant to me an Angel, with brown eyes and golden hair, long legs and an upturned nose, I couldn't help but care. She was so very special, but misery she had been foced to bare. Gods leant to me an Angel, and her life had filled me with rage, she was just too precious, to have spent her life in a cage! God leant to me an Angel, but today we had to part, and all my Fawn had to take with her, was the biggest piece of my heart. God leant to me an Angel, to love and to cherish. "Stay with me a little longer", was my only unfilled wish. God "leant" to me an Angel, but I wanted the word to be "give". I know this may sound selfish, but I wanted her to live & live & live. God leant to me an Angel, someone to fill me heart. I just don't understand this, why did we have to part? God leant to me an Angel, there was so much I wanted her to see. Her time to do this was too short, Oh how could this be? God leant to me an Angel, someone for me to love. And for our short time together, I must truely thank Him above. God leant to me an Angel, I just had to stop and ponder, just what was it I did to deserve her, she truly was a wonder. God leant to me an Angel, to some she was "just a dog", and to those unfeeling people I say: is is no coincidence, God spelled backwards is dog! God sent to me an Angel, and all that He ever asked, was that I love & care for her, it was my only task. I tried to do as God had asked me, and in my heart I know, He'll give to her peace and good health, and He'll give me a reward: the chance for her to once again be with me. Now that's the greatest wealth. God gave to me an Angel, He truested me with her care. The horrors that she had endured, were more than you or I could bear. God gave to me an Angel, He told me to love her, to hug her, to show her what life could be. Now if only he'd given us more time, there was so much more for her to see. God leant to me an Angel, no more suffering would she bear. I am so very blessed, He trusted me with her care. God leant to me an Angel, I thought with me she'd finally found a home. But now I must let her be free to roam, in what turely is "her FOREVER home". God leant to me an Angel, but he called her home today. Now there's nothing anyone can say, to take this unbearable pain away. God leant to me an Angel, but un-beknownst to me how many of her days were numbered. And now I have to send my baby girl to her final slumber. God leant to me an Angel, she brought sun to me every day. But now God called home by borrowed Angel, and my whole world seems cold & gray. God leant to me an Angel, it was for a very short time, still I loved her and I hugged her and called to Him "she's mine". God leant to me an Angel, but I forgot that someday this time would finally come, for she is ony a borrowed Angel and thus she is His, not mine. But still I will love her, until the end of time. God leant to me an Angel, it seems for just a day. Now all I can say is "fly free my baby girl", to Him this is what I pray. God leant to me an Angel, now I cry in so much pain. But I know that someday, God will send another Angel, and I will love again. I know that it too will only be borrowed, and I will cry once again. God sent to me an Angel, and now as I cry, all I can ask with a sigh is why God? oh why, oh why? God called home my borrowed Angel, she's gone swiftly on her way. Now that all I can do for her, is pray and pray and pray.God leant to me an Angel, I'll see her again I hope, but right this very minute, I need the strength to cope. God leant to me an Angel, but only for awhile. Still I thank God for the joy of you, you always made me smile. God leant to me an Angel, it was not long enough. The time I am without you, is just way too rough.God leant to me an Angel, and sadly she is gone. God lean to me an Angel, my baby girl Miss Fawn!

God Leant To Me An Angel (she brought me so much joy, and- now I am in so much pain)

God leant to me an Angel, so strong & brave was she, even though most of her life, all she knew was misery. God leant to me an Angel, but she was only for me to borrow, and now that God has called her home, I'm left with so much sorrow. God leant to me an Angel, I wanted her to know, her life was not in vein. I'm glad she didn't leave me before I got to tell her she touched my heart and was loved much more thn she will ever know. God leant to me an Angel, he gave me the chance to make up for the disgrace, of all the horrors brought upon her by some of the monsters in our human race. God leant to me am Angel, I knew for not how long, and so I spent my time, trying to make up for all that she'd been wronged. God leant to me an Angel, but it was not for near long enough, and so saying goodbye to her now is so very, very tough. God leant to me an Angel, I wonder if he knew, we would be so good for each other. God has called home my Angel, Oh God now what am I to do? God leant to me an Angel, but for me he called her home to soon. How will I fill this void in my life, it is much bigger than her empty room. God how could you do this? I need your help to get through this, she's simple gone too soon! God leant to me an Angel, and now my babygirl runs pain free, I know someday I'll see her, running right back to me. God leant to me an Angel, her life had been full of pain, he trusted me to love her, so she'd never be hurt again. God leant to me an Angel, didn't he know I'd feel it was not long enough? Didn't he know this pain would be just way, way too rough? God leant to me an Angel, why did it have to be, that her time to enjoy life and be with me, was so short before she had to fly free? God leant to me an Angel, did he know she'd be so tough? Did he know I could never love her enough? Did he know my days and nights with out her, would be more than just too much? God lent to me an Angel, today she flew from my arms to His, I just don't understand this, but I guess it was his wish. And so today I had to give her one very last kiss, and try to explain to her just how much she would be missed. God leant to me an Angel, so slender and so petite, so determined and so strong. I wish that He had warned me, it wouldn't be for long. He called her home and left me weak, and now an explination I do seek. God leant to me an Angel, and sadly she is gone. God lean to me an Angel, my baby girl Miss Fawn!

Please don't let her die in vain

After Fawn went to the Bridge, I was wracked with such deep, deep pain. Her suffering was so senseless, and her forgiveness was so amazing!!! I spent hour upon hour writing about her. Much time has passed, and I feel it would be an injustice to Fawn if I did not share with others how wonderful she was. So I think I will finally be able to share some writings about her now. I hope that those of you that read this will realize how wonderful and brave she was, what a difference she made in my life. And I hope you will help me spread the word that rescued dogs, and senior dogs, are so deserving of our love and so please give them a second chance at life and give them a forever home. And I most especially hope that you will help me in my fight to insure that Fawn's passing was not in vain by doing all that you can to educate others about the horrors these dogs endure, tell everyone you know to tell everyone that they know to please, please do all that you can to end puppymills!!

God called my borrowed Angel to fly home today

Jan 15, 2009 somtime just befor 2pm my sweet little girl flew to the Rainbow Bridge. I am crying to hard to see clearly to type much right now, but when I am stronger I WILL write her tribute here. I miss my sweet, precious baby girl soooo much already. I know she's free from pain..but the pain I am left in feels so unbearable right now. Please check back later and thank you all for your kind words and support.