Missing you so Bad

I am sorry Polar bear, I just miss you so much, its been almost 2 weeks still I can't stop crying. I miss hearing your feet on the kitchen tiles, the howl when I drive up to house, Oreo still looks for you...
I was hoping maybe another entry by and talking to you this way would help me..
it does a little
I miss you cracking the bathroom door open and checking on me in the tub
I think about everyday and heart breaks everyday, I hope you still know how much I love you!
I can't believe you are gone...
love you always and forever

I am at peace and in Heaven now

Polar Bear had to be put down last Thursday, as the cancer was getting much worse. Polar I write this with tears, I love you so much and I miss more than I can say...
I am sorry I did not write this sooner for you but my heart breaks so much and this so hard to do. You were one of kind and we were so blessed thank you! I miss you! Those 14 years went to fast, but I know you are no suffering and are perfect again in heaven. I miss you not being there to peek on me in the bathroom, or put your head in lap I miss your bark and sound of your feet on the kitchen tile, I hope and pray you know how much I loved you! I miss not being able to give you treats, having you sneak food off the table, Oreo misses too, even though you thought she would not, she has been looking for you all this week wondering where you are. I am glad we were with you in your last hours and now you rest next to buddy, today once again I placed flowers on your resting place...
Love you, miss you...

My Last Days and a Good Bye to all My Friends

Hello to all it has been a very long time since I last wrote in my diary. My mom is very sad it must because I am so very ill with sickness called cancer. I have not been very playful these days as the big lump on my back leg makes it really hard to play, these days I have a hard time keeping my balance cause I can't seem to put much weight on it. Mom had to take me to the doctor a few weeks back and the doctor said the lump this time could not be taken off. Sometimes the medicine makes me not want to play. I will not be writing anymore after the 4th of july and this makes mom cry lots. I just wanted to come and say good bye for now to all my friends here at dogster, I will miss you, most of all I will miss mom and I know Ruffles will miss me, I think she knows there is something wrong with me, she has been loving me lots more than normal. I will miss my long walks and rides in the truck too, but I know there will be long walks in heaven and rides I am just sure of it. Please remember me as I was, a happy go lucky guy, with a ton of love to give as I have stated this will be my last entry with you all, I will be watching over all and this is only good bye for just a short while mom.

It's been a Long Long Time....

Gosh! it has been a very long time since mom and all us dogs and cat have been on dogster and there has been lots happening some of it not so good but it is just good to be here visiting with friends for the seconds we have. Yup those girl dogs are still grumpy as ever to me darn it! I think Oreo has even gotten more grumpy since her last birthday and watch out for Lilly; what is a guy to do? I can not understand why mom will not bring in a male!
I am getting to old for these girls and Ruffles is even a girl cat so I guess I just go lay the couch for a while and brood over is girl thing for the rest of the day.

Coming Home Later Today

The vet just called and Polar bear gets to come HOME!!!! He is much better, but he will remain on a special medication for another 2weeks and mom needs to make sure he takes that medication and not allow him to do his clever little trick of spiting pills and hiding them.
He will also have continue using a liquid medication for the ear also and vet will be showing mom how to do it. Polar bear did get 2 of the stitches out so that is a good sign, the vet said the ear is doing much better but the same rules will still have to apply. He can not be outside for long periods of time, the ear will need to be kept clean by using this new liquid medication 3 times a day.
Polar bear was amazing in a sneaky way....
he would eat the treat, but knew there was something in it, and I just can't figure out how he did it but he did, he held the pill in his mouth and so would go around the house spiting it out soggy half dissolved pills! Yes we found pills in some of the strangest places!
The vet even thinks he is too smart for his own good and yes he attempted to do it while at the vets! So they changed it so he got the medication right into his system.
It is just wonderful he can come home again! We will get him around 3 in the afternoon today.
It is true the power of prayer does work, thanks so much everyone! Polar bear is on his way HOME!

Another update from mom

Polar Bear will not come home today, he is doing better but the vet wants him stay today and come home on Friday. The infection had spread more and he was getting quite ill and we did not realize it. He was not taking the medications or I should say not getting enough of the medication since he was spiting out the spills. So there just was not enough medication his is system. The vet is making sure he gets it and he is doing better and she thinks on Friday he can come home. It was a scary time, but he is improving thank heavens!
Thank you for all the prayers and thoughts!

A Rush to the Vet a very Scary momment ( another entry by- mom)

We are not sure really what happened Polar bear got quite sick last night and we had to rush him to the vet.
I just spoke with the vet and he is doing better breathing good again, it may have been the medication, we just are not sure what happened? The vet is running some tests and he might get to come home later today or tomorrow. She is just a wonderful vet!
Thanks everyone

Mom's entry

It's been quite tough on my baby boy Polar bear, he has been quite ill and I am worried this will not be the end of it. Polar also has a large mass on his side also and the vet wants us to watch it closely for now. As he has been through a lot these past few weeks. Right now we fighting to keep the hearing in his ear, there is a good infection going on and it needs to be watched right now and that is more important to stop this infection. Polar bear is amazing but he knows something is quite wrong with the ear now, he does not understand why his ear will not stand up, its funny but he knows it does not work right,and his personality is a little different he used to be a ham about getting his picture taken and this picture was hard to get it was if he knew and did not want the picture taken.
I and Polar bear wanted to say thank you to all our friends so have sent gifts, it means a whole lot. We are hoping on Friday if all goes well the vet will begin to take out some stitches, I would not bug everyone but Polar bear is so very special so I am asking for every to keep him in their thoughts and maybe say a little pray for him.
Thanks everyone.

The Stitches are not out Yet.

Well was I bumped and blue when I had to go back to the vet more than just one trip. The first time the girls looked at me and told mom I had an problem.....
So one girls came back out and with some pads and pills, I hate pills and I will not take them, seems like mom and dad do nothing but give all kinds of pills lately. I have learned not to eat them but instead hold them in my mouth for long periods of time and go spit them out in different places around the house.
What else I do not like is that I can't play and stay outside for very long, somehow the vet told mom not to let me do this. Nor can I play with the girls although I have not felt like playing much mostly resting and I have been allowed on Oreo's bed! now is that not shocking? The biggest part of that is Oreo has been letting me?
Mom keeps telling me I have to take my medications so I can hear, what the heck I can hear!

It's Just been a tough Week

Today is another day of having to put up with these scratchy stitches in my ear. Mom really scolds me for wanting to scratch them and sigh my ear will never stand up again so mom tells me. I had to go into the vet a week ago and have an operation on my ear cause I had blood filling up in my ear after itching it way to much. It was a big deal for me I had to spend a few days away home.
I was so happy when mom came and got me, don't get me wrong I liked the vet and the human girls fell in love with me but there is no place like home and I will be so happy when I go in to have these darn stitches taken out.
The sad part is the ear will no longer have personality it is just going to flop there, mom says I am still so handsome but I know something is just so very different about me.