March 26th 2010 8:09 pm
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I was looking at your page today and I cried. It's been several months since you left me and, yet, I still cry thinking about you sometimes. I read the diary entries I posted right after you passed away and I only cried more. Because I remembered how I felt in the days after your death and the feeling returned. That longing, that painful, empty feeling where you used to be. I'll always miss you. We're getting on great, though. Meepster has taken up position as "Stud of the house". Though, Sandy has taken your place as "Top dog". She may not have been here before most of them, but she sure can keep them in check. Lilo's starting to age, too. It's scary because everything Lilo is doing now is everything you'd done two years ago when we knew you were reaching senior age. Lilo's still got a good four or five years left on her, but her muzzle is graying and her hearing is no longer what it used to be and it's terrifying because every time I have to whistle for her, I remember when I had to whistle for you. Sakura is still as spoiled as ever. Still hogging all the toys. Remember how she tried to take one of yours once? Well, she did, actually. Precious has gotten very hyper. Even more so than last time you saw her. We're getting by. We all still think of you from time to time. Sometimes I look at your pictures and cry. But I know you wouldn't want us to go on feeling this way forever. I will never let you go, but I will keep going. Because I know that's what you'd want. I know that's what Sandy and Cinnamon and Lilo and Sakura and Meepster and Precious want. I've always prided myself on being strong and, so, I'm getting through this. I just wanted you to know that you were on my mind today. I was thinking about you and, though I cried, I realized I've come a long way since losing you. If anything, you made me stronger. And, now, I'm closer to the other six than I've ever been. How are things at the bridge? Just remember that I love you always. We all do.
Your faithful human now and always
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I just noticed...
it's been exactly five months. Exactly.