May 5th 2010 1:26 pm
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I miss my baby so much
While I was in school yesterday Sandy started being sick so my parents called the vet and the vet said she also had a tumour that they didn't know about and that the kindest thing to do would to put her down. So I came home yesterday looking for my best friend...who was already an angel.
My parents payed £100 up front to the vet to get her sent down to Cambridge to get cremated and we get her ashes back.(£100 was the most expensive so she is still getting the best)
I miss her so much...I actually cried myself to sleep last night!
Some of you may not understand how I feel...but some of you may.
I haven't gone into school today...but my mum called and explained and they said it was fine. I can't deal with life anymore...I actually want to die aswell...to be with my baby.
It's harder on my because Sandy was born Jan 1997 and I was born in Oct 1997. So we grew up together...and I am used to always seeing her face. It feels like she is still here but she's hiding or something.
I just need to remember the good times I shared with her...but right now it's hard. My dad told me what it wa like....they both kissed her while she was being put down (they both gave her kisss from me & my sister too) My dad said that as she wa dying she kissed him and my mum and then just...went
The hard part is knowing I'll never see her again!
My parents gave me her lead and collar so I clipped the lead onto the collar and tightened the collar around my bed post so she'll be with me forever...my angel baby. My dad was saying to me earlier that it's nothing to what COULD of happened. He said that if she was healthy then she could of been in the park and a gang could of shot at her or set dogs onto her...or she could of been ran over...he's right but I don't want to believe it.
He said he didn't want it to happen either but he had to think with his head and not his heart...as much as he wanted to think with his heart. The more I think about...the more he is right. Sandy was never cruel to us and keeping her alive,in pain, would of been cruel.
I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH AND I HOPE SHE KNOWS IT.
I will never...ever forget the date May 4th 2010
R.I.P Sandy. Gone but never forgotten. You will be missed.
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sweet Sandy will always be with you--she is a part of your heart and a part of your soul. Sandy will send you another angel to love when she knows you're ready.
Deepest condolences to your Mom & family sweet grrrl. You are loved & will be missed Thanks for sharing your baby grrl with us. Hugs,pawrayers & pokes,