April 28th 2009

Today our beloved Beauty passed on. She went peacefully her in Grandpa's arms. She is now resting in peace with no more pain or suffering. She is running in the mountains of heaven with her brother Buddy & Sam.

May she rest in peace, we will always always keep you in our hearts!

bad news for me....

for a couple of months now, booty has been looking depressed. although she still played with bobby like the old times, she started to show signs of pain.

we took her to the vet's and they told us she had a "fat tumor" and that we shouldn't have to worry, (so we thought). about 2 or 3 weeks later we noticed that she was not going to the bathroom. 4 days later we took her to another vet. this time they did x-rays and all sorts of stuff. we found out that she indeed has several tumors in her abdominal area.

my little girl has several tumors, and they are developing fast. there is really no hope. they would have to do kemotherapy on her and if she would succeed it would only be 50% that she would live for another year. they also informed us that she has 1-2 months to live.

i am so SHOCKED! i am upset, saddend and desperate. i don't know what to do. most of all i am crushed! how could this happen to her? she is so full of life and love and i cannot even imagine not living without her. i cried for days! i am still crying! for now, she seems like she is doing ok, but what do i know? she can't talk to me and tell me how she feels.

future...

now that we know what has happened, we don't have much choice but to let her go once her time comes. it is a very PAINFUL decision that no one in our family is content with. but what can we do? we don't have $5,000 to try and save her, even that is not guarantee. so we have decited to spend her final days with her. do everything that she loves and give her a lot of attention. i felt so guilty sometimes and i often wondered does she know how much we love her? i would question myself? and you know what i think she does know. lately she has been really close to myself and the rest of my family. she looks deep into my eyes and i swear i can almost feel what she is thinking.

she will always have a place in our hearts. i am confident i will see her in heaven one day and i will spend the rest of eternity with her and buddy!!!