Thinking of Bella

There has not been a day that has gone by that i don't think of Bella. My life has felt terribly empty and not much seems to be going right since she has crossed the bridge. i sometimes think that Bella was sent to me to help me through the hard times. I have to think that because now that she is no longer by my side, my life is out of sync. Yes, i have my boy Bocci and he tries so hard to comfort me when I am sad but well bella just knew when I needed her most. I am not sure I will get over her passing but I move on knowing she is running free with all the dogs that were just like her...loyal...loving...and the best friend they could be.

Over a month

it's been over a month since Bella crossed the rainbow bridge and it hasn't gotten any easier. yes, we go along with our daily lives but I still expect to see her when I walk in the door. I had her ashes returned to me and i got her a beautiful urn with her picture imprinted on it, however, I am not able to display it yet because it hurts to think that what remains of her physically is in that urn. Yes, I know that the memories I have of her will live in my heart forever but it makes it no easier at this time. When I got Bella I never had a thought that someday she would no longer be here with me, I guess I thought she would live forever. yeah, that is dumb to think like that but everyday she lived, she brought so much joy to my life that I never for a second thought that the feeling would have to end. Now that her beautiful face doesn't greet me at the door, I realize how truly happy her days on earth had made me. I know she is happy and in no more pain now that she crossed the bridge and someday, I will see her again.

Chicken poxs

Bella used to shed soooooo much that she just knew that she shouldn't be on the furniture. However.........when my daughter had the chicken poxs, Bella jumped up on the over sized chair we have and sat with her as my daughter laid there miserably. Bella would not get down unless my daughter left teh chair and as soon as she sat back down, bella jumped up there rigth next to her. Since the chicken pox went away, bella never, I mean never had a ned to go back ont he furniture. She consoled my daughter and once she felt better, she knew that it was safe once again.

When my son was born

I didn't know how Bella was going to react to bringing a new baby home but I knew one thing for sure, she would not harm him. Bella was full of love..And boy was I right. When we would lay my son in the bassinett, Bella would lay her head over it and onto the mattress he slept on. I have many pictures of that. When he would cry, Bella alerted us before we could even hear him. When I used to walk the floors at night as my son cried, Bella would walk behind me..I even walked in circles and there she was, walking in circles right behind me. Until the day she crossed the rainbow bridge, Bella protected him as if he were hers.

first time I saw her

The first time I went to look at the litter of pups, I was not sure that I wanted a German Shepherd, but when I saw this black little bear looking pup sitting with it's litter mates, I had to have her.She looked so sweet. I couldn't wait to bring her home and start to love her. She was so beautiful so I named her Bella. (which means beautiful in Italian). I took her everywhere with me. When she was small she could sit on the floor of my car but as she grew to be over 100pounds, I had to put the seats down in my SUV.