One year without you.......

My dearest, dearest, sweet Molly girl,

You have been gone from my sight and my arms for one year today. But you haven't been gone from my heart and my soul. I think of you every day and wonder how you are doing at the Bridge.

You were our first dog. You taught us to love unconditionally. If it weren't for you, we probably would never have seen Riley and braught him home for you. My love for you will never die. When you took your last breath, a piece of my heart broke off, never to be fixed.

I love you Molly girl......

I miss you Molly girl.....

I wish you were here with me right now.......

One year.....One life time....

Momma

Take care of him.......

To my dearest Molly Golly Girl,

I know you are safe and happy up there with Bubba and all your Bridge pals. But, I miss you. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like I should have been in the end. For the first time, I had to chose a human over you. My dad. I know you were fine, but after your first siezure........I asked God, "Why???? My dad is dying and now you take my dog from me?" I know it was you time. That's why I chose it for you. But it seems like I never even got a chance to mourn your death. Then.......dad died. Is he up there with you? I don't think he would have fun in Doggy Heaven. Are you at least watching out for him? I have to believe that you are. If I don't, I think I'll go crazy. I miss you so much. Your softest hair and ears. Your vet said hi to me the other day and I said I didn't have much use for him, now that you are gone. The other mutts are all so healthy. BTW......you taught Roxy well before you died. She is a total sock theif! She doesn't toss them like you used to, she just hides them all over the house! My dad didn't have many loved ones. Just me. And his little brother. I just wanted to ask you a favor my sweet love? Will you just check in on my dad from time to time? He would never think he needs it, but he does. And I know you are hovering over Sally's bed right now. She needs all of you Angel pups right now.
Your loving mama

Mom's newest tattoo

Mom just came home from getting her newest tattoo. And it's of me!! Nothin' says love like ink!

Ha! Ha! Now she's suck with me forever! And aparently, it was just as much of a pain as I was too. Literally........I could feel her pain while it was being done all the way up here!!!!!!!!

Mom is REALLY happy with it and so was the artist.

I'd write more, but frankly.....I'm tired from feeling all the PAIN.

Miss Molly

You're finally back home my girl

Your ashes came back yesterday and you rode in the car in the front seat for the first time ever. The box urn that grandpa made for Riley is large enough for both of you. I will keep your baggies seperate but but you together so you can always be on our mantle side by side. I will go to the trophy shop and have name plates made for both of you and have grandpa put them on the urn. It is a beautiful urn made of 3 different types of wood. I still don't know what to do with all your stuff. Right now it's in a box upstairs. I saved every collar and tag over the years, every harness and bandana, even some tore up socks and undies just for nestalgia.

Today is good. I haven't cried yet. I even went to your page without crying. Which is hard to do.

I love you my sweet.

Mamma

First day back at work without you

Today was my first day back to grooming since you had to leave me. I groomed you so many times I couldn't begin to count them. Everything in that building reminds me of you. I watched your body leave for the crematorium today and broke down and cried. I was ok until then. It seemed so final at that point.

Are you watching over us right now? Are you wispering in Roxy's ear to be extra good? Cause she is. I think she misses you. Lulu really misses you. Joe is just trying to find his new place in the pack. You know how macho he can be.

I miss you my sweet. Daddy even misses tripping over you in the middle of the night. What will we do without you? Who will protect me now? Roxy? I don't think so.

Fly free my Miss Molly girl.........
Momma

Mommy, I'll be ok

Dearest mommy,

Please don't cry over me. You know how much I hated it when you would get upset. Please remember all the good times and then there were the bad too. But I had a good life, a long life. The vet said I lived 2 years past my life expectancy with my mast cell tumors.( Just so everyone knows the vet suspects one of her mast cell tumors matastized into her brain, causing the siezures and muscle tremors, lack of coordination and not wanting to eat.) I looked pretty bad but now I'm healthy again and running hot laps like crazy with Riley. Mittens is following both of us around, chasing our tails. Crazy cat! I am sorry you feel so bad mommy. I miss feeling your touch and protecting you. But I'll be watching over you from the Bridge. Never forget that.

With loving kisses and tail wags,
Your Miss Molly girl

My last vet visit

At approx. 1:30pm Dogster time I peacefully joined my brother Riley and all my fur Angels at the Bridge.

Right now my mom is too upset to type much, but wanted all of my bestest pals here on Dogster to know how much I and she appriciated all you did for me over the years.

Good bye my earthly friends. Hello to a new adventure where I can eat anything I want and never have a hotspot again................

With tears in her eyes,

Miss Molly and mom

Back from the vet.....again

Well......we are going to try the higher dose of Prednisolone. My allergies are going crazy and it will help that and hopefully slow the growth of the tumor. I got a neato shot of antibiotics that lasts for 2 weeks today. So mom doesn't have to give me more pills. My whole face is scaby and bloody and I have 3 hot spots I can get to even with the stupid cone on. Mom took it off for a bit and I left bloody prints all over the carpet. I mean really? Who has white carpet and 4 dogs??

I'm so very touched by all the prayers and rosettes from all my Dogster pals. I would like to especially thank the B&A club and Rudy Patudy and Sassy for calling all angels for prayers.

I love you all so!!!!!!!!...........

Miss Molly

Brain tumor......

Well, my bloodwork came back and it was all within normal limits. My vet talked with an Oncologist about my symptoms and they agree that I probably have a brain tumor. Yes, we could do a MRI to see exactly, but it is very expensive and the outcome is the same. At my age my parents don't agree with chemo and radiation and yet another surgery, on my brain no less.

Steroids are helpful in reducing the size of the tumor sometimes, but Ican't tolerate those high of doses.

I wish I had better news. Mom is all torn up about it. She didn't even ask the vet how much time I have. She knows it's probably only months now. She was hoping to have me until I was 13 years old.

I thank all of you for your prayers and support........I think I will be needing it........

Miss Molly

Another vet visit

As some of you already know, I had a seizure type thingy a couple of weeks ago. Since then my allergies have gone crazy, I have scabs all over my muzzle, eyes, ears, a couple hot spots on my tummy. I had a huge scab on my head which was infected so I was put on Cephalexin for that. The vet sais the infection is gone and doesn't understand why my muzzle and lip skin is just schluffing off. I've lost 2 1/2 lbs in this time and I am accually being fed a little more than usual, cause the vet said I was too thin. So yesterday they poked me and took some blood and I had to pee in a cup and they even did a rectal exam and took some feces for a fecal (how degrading). Mom should get the results today. I had another more like tremor lastnight. It was short, but my leg just started shaking and twitching uncontroleably. The vet also noticed how shrunkin in my head is looking. I'm losing my muscle tone in my head. Mom noticed that but everyone just thaught she was looney.

I will update with the results later on today............

Miss Molly