My Darling Spy~The Love Of My Life

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October 11th 2011 2:38 am
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If you have never lost a husband, I pray to God above you never do. You meet, you fall in love and then the biggest day of your life arrives. The day you profess your undying love "Till Death Do You Part". You say those words but you don't comprehend what that truly means. You see, all you can think about is spending your life together deepening that deep love you already have. You think life can't get any more incredible BUT then you learn a child is coming. Then another. Now your life is complete. You have the love of your life and now you have your family. You love, you live and you build the most wonderful memories. You are in Heaven.

One night you say good night to your love of your life, you give him your passionate kiss and you snuggle down. You sense something is wrong. Your heart goes into the panic mode. You turn on the light and your heart skips a beat. It wants to stop because you are in total fear. Yes this fear is real. There laying next to you is the love of your life, your world, the man who kept your heart beating with so much love has left you. He has taken his journey to the Bridge.

Now that your love is gone, you experience a new life that is filled with so much pain, begging him to return to you because your body aches so bad just to have him hold you again. Your nights are so lonely that you think you are going to scream. But you can't. Now you not only lost your love, but your heart remembers the night you lost your precious baby son who didn't even make it to two months old. OMD the pain is unbearable.

Spy my darling, the love of my life, my whole world, I miss you more than words can say. You were the most incredible husband and father that ever lived. Oh darling, you were chosen Diary Pick of the Day. When I saw the picture they did for you, I broke down and cried. Our daughter and I are so very very proud of you and just not because you are Diary Pick of the Day. Because of all the love you have given us and all the pups and kitties on Dogster. Cricket misses her daddy so much she cries herself to sleep. She watches out the window for you to come home from "work". When it is bedtime and you haven't come home, she cries and I hold her and rock her until she finally goes to sleep. Oh darling, how are we going to go on without you? How will this pain ease up? Your Tassy is devastated. Her papa Spy is gone. She and her babies are here with me now and they are good for our Cricket.

Darling, give mama Wendy and our son lots and lots of hugs and kisses from our daughter and me. You are free of pain, tiredness and darling you are a young pup again. So run my darling. Run like you did when you were just a pup. I will join you, mama Wendy and our Tiger Spy and we will never be separated ever again. So darling wait for me. And when you get lonely come see us. My arms ache for you.

I won't say good bye. I will say, until we see each other again.

I love, cherish and adore you.
Your "Ladybug" Always and forever

Barked by: Lexi (Dogster Member)

October 11th 2011 at 7:05 am

Such a beautiful entry and my eyes are leaking. Remember when you see the stars twinkling at night that it is really not the stars at all it is Spy's Love reflecting off his beautiful new Angel Wings and I will show him how to ride a shooting star down at night to leave soft kisses on your hair as you sleep.

He is safe in the arms of Jesus as he awaits you to join him.

Hugs and Love,
Lexi

Barked by: Sonny Bono Angel Dreamboat-#34 (Dogster Member)

October 11th 2011 at 6:55 pm

Spy I am so proud of you being on Catster today, it is truly an honor, the diary entry is beautiful it made momcat cry, I have been at the bridge almost 3 years and she still cries for me, come with me and let's go to the Angel Inn, hey you can even drive my Hummer, Sonny hangs his head and is proud he has another new furiend,we are in the best place...Heaven, I'm here for ya buddy,Sonny reaches over and wraps his wings around Spy

Angel Sir Sonny Bono

Barked by: Brewster (An Angel Now) (Dogster Member)

October 23rd 2011 at 10:10 am

I welcome you a little earlier, but it seems that you already had a lot of furs to welcome you to Rainbow Bridge. Here you will be that young pup again and having a grand ole time here. But there will be times that you will stop, think and walk over to the Rainbow Bridge window to look down on your family that you left. You will hold onto Tiger Spy's little hand and say to him, son, here is my family and yours that we had to leave. But let me tell you, they are the best and will always be in our hearts and thoughts as we are in their hearts and thoughts. One day we will be all together.
May this family find comfort from all of us here in Dogsters. We share your grief and sorrow.
Brewster, & The Tankus Gang

Barked by: Captain Spy (Dogster Member)

October 23rd 2011 at 11:01 am

I flew down to comfort my sweetness and daughter. I got on the lap top and saw all the love and support all of you have given my family. I saw all the gifts and POP everyone sent me and you all touched my heart.

Lexi, Sonny Bono, and Brewster & The Tankus Gang, you have touched my heart. Thank you for greeting me at the Bridge and making my journey incredible. You showed me the beauty of the Bridge and it isn't anything to be afraid of. Oh how I miss my family and friends but I will return. You see the love I have for my darling Sweetness and our daughter just won't let me stay away. All the friends I have here on Dogster won't let me stay away either. So all my sweet friends, I will return. I will carry our baby Tiger Spy down with me.
Thank you again my dearest friends.
Love
Spy

Barked by: Lexi (Dogster Member)

October 23rd 2011 at 4:07 pm

Oh! Angel Spy! I saw you with your Sweetness and daughter and you very so beautiful together. Please come down again and bring Tiger Spy with you. You are too loved to stay away♥