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Bela's Barkings

A year

A year has gone by since your passing, so today I put on my running shoes and went for a run honoring you.

When my very first step hit the road I began thinking of you. Remembering how we used to run side by side, how you always were there for me, by my side, at each step of the way, not only when I trained for races or ran for fun but in every day life, helping me to face all that the future hold in store.

I recalled how you used to give sneaky kisses, how you liked to sleep by my side, how we used to seek each other for comfort and cuddles. How you used to run and jump like crazy each time I came back home, like if days had gone by and not only a few hours; as if the world had just stopped for you until I came back to meet you.

i remembered that sunny Sunday morning when you last cuddle by my side and took your very last breath. That day it was my turn, that day the world stopped for me, right when I got that I was never to see you again, never to have one more of your sneaky kisses or saw your wagging tale. for a while I just stood there.

For 15 years you were my friend. When you were a puppy everybody wanted to be near you and meet you, you were so cute and lovely and adored to play and dance. When you were an adult it was your peak, you were strong, agile and fast. Watching you enjoy a run was beautiful as your entire being spoke of freedom. As you grew old you became wise, you learn to maintain a steady, constant pace, to be patience, when to fight and when to concede.

So much has happened since you been gone. Some bad, some good. But what I can tell you, my pretty girl, is that not a day has gone by without me thinking about you, without me missing you.

You came into my life and made a difference, thought me so much. In time I can only aspire to be as you thought me: gentle, wise, patient and of course, a little sneaky.

I love you pretty girl, you are and forever will be in my heart.

Dear girl, pretty girl

Time can't cure my heart
I still long for you and now
it is clear for me
I always will.

The other night we were running
together, as before
just the two of us
side by side, pace by pace
heartbeat to heartbeat.

And when I woke up I knew
that's the way it will always be
You and me together
heartbeat to heartbeat
because there is where you are
within me, in my heart.

I love you pretty girl.

My dearest,

It's been 3 weeks.
3 weeks without you.
My heart still aches,
I found you in dreams,
awaken,
your memory lingers,
it always will.

I miss your presence,
your company
and your lovely tail
wagging.
each time my hand
met your head, wagging
each time our eyes met.
wagging
each time I called your name.

I have a void now.
That void is you.
And it hurts,
I hope in time,
the pain will stop
only good memories to remain
and to fill in that void.

Until then I know,
I will miss you.
Mom