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10 Weeks since you passed

August 10th 2013 4:16 am
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Dearest Buttercup,
It has been 10 weeks since you left us for the rainbow bridge. I feel like you are just on vacation and that you will be back soon. It must be because of the white butterflies that still visit me daily. No matter where I go there seems to be your incredible spirit with me . Your brother Paul and Aunty Carla are really having a rough time right now so I have been staying with them and taking care of your fur cousin Lilly. She is such a sweetie ..but in a very different way from you. She isn't a kisser or cuddler..but put a blanket at your feet and she just wants to lay on top of your feet. If you have to get up she will give you a WOOF to sit back down. She like you has a lot of meds to be taken through out the day , but NOT like you she is so darn picky about what she eats so it can be a huge challenge to get her to take her meds. So far I have been very successful. Brother Paul say i am in Lilly training and have passed . My official diploma will be coming in the mail LOL! The funny thing is she now gives them the big snub she is mad at them and keeps her eyes on me at all times. Maybe in some strange way she is helping my soul to heal without you . She like you gets me up in the middle of the night ..we go for potty, a wee snack and back to bed. There will never be another girl like you sweet angel. I miss you so much and love you forever!

Kissey kisses,
Love you ,
P.S. to my dogster pals ..if you don't see me posting for Buttercup it is because I am staying with my son and his wife for now. My daughter in law starts treatment next week for cancer and the stress has had a huge effect on both of them,complicated with broken sleep every night taking care of their aging dog Lilly. Please keep them in your prayers . I will post when I can. I only have my iPad with me and sometimes it is very difficult to post or type. Angel Buttercup and I will be back !


8/1/2013 9 weeks ago today ~~~~

August 1st 2013 4:20 pm
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Dearest Buttercup ,
Today is 9 weeks you left us for the rainbow bridge. I still have my white butterfly in the yard .. i have to tell you that Daddy and i went to Conn. this week-end for a family reunion. I was truly afraid to leave , because i didn't want to come home and find no butterflies in the yard. We arrived at cousin Sue's house on Sat. Her place is beautiful. After about 5 minutes in her yard .. there was my white butterfly .. than there were two .. i said * Sue do you have white butterflies .. she said no why .. i normally have yellow ones..* so i told her about the white butterflies ... Cousin Sue lost her Savannah ( yellow lab) not long ago we watched the two butterflies frolic and play all day we decided it was you and Savannah for sure ! On Sunday we went to play golf and sure enough there was my white butterfly .. we went to visit cousin Sue's business * Villarinas* and sure enough when i got out of the car there was a white butterfly .. i know for sure your spirit is with me everywhere.. but it does not help the loss i feel. Sometimes it makes me smile and other times it makes me cry . When we got home .. i went right to the back yard to water the flowers .. and no butterfly .. Cousin Sue kept saying .. Buttercup wants you to move here ! LOL ! .. well after a while sure enough there you were ..* the white butterfly *
We had a love affair that only the two of us will ever understand .I pray every night Buttercup for you .. and i kiss your sweet memorial box daily .. boy do i miss those kisses !

Until we meet again sweet Angel.
I Love you beyond words ,


July 25, 2013 2 months ago today ~~~~

July 25th 2013 2:02 pm
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Dearest Buttercup ,
Two months ago today you left for the rainbow bridge . Gosh the days get harder without you. We had a very special love affair and honestly i am not sure if my heart will ever heal . I know you are sending me signs that you are ok .. I pray every night and ask god for a sign from you . The white butterflies that are in the yard , that are following me no matter where i go ,i know must be your spirit. I did a little research about white butterflies and this is what i found out. They symbolize the soul of the departed loved ones, and life after death. They also represent a guardian angel ushering you along lifes path, and they also symbolize good luck. They are the most common form of communication after death. They also are a symbol of the resurrection. Last night i once again prayed for a sign .. i just wanted to see you in my dreams.. as i was about to doze off.. i swore i heard you doing your mona routine to get up on the bed.. i said "Patty you are imagining things ". so i turn the volume down on the T.V. i know i heard you 4 more times. I know you are with me .. but i sure miss holding you and just plan taking care of you ! I get angry that i couldn't do more for you Buttercup .. please know i did all i could do babygirl, my last gift was not to let you suffer ... I love you !

Fly free sweet angel,
I love you and miss you more than you will ever know !.


July 22, 2013 A poem from my pals Vern , Chloe & Cokenee

July 22nd 2013 2:21 pm
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Aunty Colette put together a wonderful slide show of my photos for mom and at the end was this wonderful poem ! We want to share it with everyone.. get out your tissues !

I'm still here

Please don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone but I'm always near.
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I'll never wander out of your sight-
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach-
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.

I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond,
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
and you'll see that the face in the moon is mine.

When you start thinking there's no one to love you,
you can talk to me through the Lord above you.
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,
and you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.

I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on every face.
Just look for me, I'm everyplace!

See i'm still here.. i am everywhere you look .. but it still isn't the same ..

I miss you everyday more and more Buttercup

Love to you my dearest Angel Girl ,


Thursday July 18 ...7 weeks ago ~~~

July 19th 2013 4:33 am
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Dear Buttercup,

Seven weeks ago you left us for the rainbow bridge... I miss you terribly .. i wish i could have you back with us.. i ask myself over and over, did i do everything i could do for you .. i kiss your box everyday .. and look for you everywhere. The white butterflies that are frolicking in the yard let me know that you are ok. Even on my bike ride the other day there was one right beside me .. i see them in your garden , they land on the front door .. it must be my sign that you are ok .. just to have one of your sweet kisses , I miss holding you , smelling you , taking you for a walk , bathing you , taking your picture, talking to you .. it is unbearable without you somedays ! Until we meet again my babygirl ! I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY !

Love and Miss you ,


6 weeks ago today ~~~

July 11th 2013 5:00 pm
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Dear Buttercup,
I can not believe it is 6 weeks ago today that you left us for the bridge..I wish you could have hung on .. Momma Colette and Momma Karen came for a visit with Vern , Cokenee and Chloe ! They would have just loved you to pieces ! Vern , Chloe & Cokenee enjoyed all your beds and your toys. They sniffed the yard looking for you .. Cokenee and Vern were waiting at the door to be let in and Momma Colette took their picture. When she uploaded the photo their was your ora right next to Vern .. Oh it just made me cry .. i could see you perfect ! I think Momma C. and Momma K brought great spirits with them and your spirit will live on forever with us ! Then yesterday in the afternoon i got a package from Aunty Sally , The Boyzz and Uncle Alan ... OH MY .. it is a perfect stuffed Maltese that looks just like you .. now here is the amazing thing .. we never have butterflies in our yard .. but since you passed on their are white butterflies everyday . The other day i went for a walk and one was following me .. i just know it is your spirit !! well, the maltese stuffed dog that Aunty Sally sent me has on the most adorable outfit with a beautiful butterfly on it ! You know butterflies are a sign of rebirth ...Thank you Aunty Sally and The Boyzz so much !! see you are everywhere with me .. Oh Dear Buttercup i miss you beyond words!! I would give anything to have you back ! The company all left today and the house once again is so quiet . I miss you Babygirl , I miss my kisses, my nozies and most of all your wonderful smell !

I love you Buttercup,
Mommy !


July 4th ~~~~~ 5 weeks ago today

July 4th 2013 5:25 am
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Dear Buttercup,

It is five weeks ago today that you left us for the rainbow bridge. I picked up your engraved plaque for your memorial box yesterday . It is beautiful just like you ,, this is what the inscription reads

October 23, 2004 - May 30 2013
Beasy, Missy B, Buttercupi , Butterbean
Moms Angel Girl , Dads Girly Girl
Giver of kisses and Nozies

You are forever in our hearts

We miss you beyond words....I keep thinking and wondering if there was anything possible that i could have done to extend your life .. i even called Dr.T to ask .. just to make sure ... our home just isn't a home without you .
I would give anything to have you back . Until we meet again sweet angel ! I

Now don't be afraid if there are to many fireworks this evening .. My love will calm you !



6/27/2013 So many wonderful Tributes !

June 27th 2013 2:48 pm
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Each day i come home there is another wonderful gift in your memory.. today i received from Puffy, Coco and their mommy a beautiful photo pendant necklace .. another one of my favorite photos of you waiting at the top of the stairs in your hydrangea dress with those pale purple bows in your hair... Absolutely beautiful !!! Your dogster pals have all been so wonderful sending the most amazing cards, donations, flowers, so many wonderful memories are helping my cope with not having you to actually hold or kiss.

Abbie's mom we Thank you so much for your wonderful donation of a tree being planted in Buttercups honor in our state... the card was an amazing collage of our favorite photos ..
Sarges mom .. we Thank you so much for the lovely card and donation to your local SPCA.
Dizzy & Harleys mom .. we Thank you for the lovely card and words of support
Carolyn Your dress designer we Thank you for your card of support
Angel Matos mommy we thank you for the wonderful card and memory coin
Angel Abby and Buddys mom we Thank you for the lovely card and words of support
Angel Woodies Mommy we Thank you for your card and for the words of support
Rajas mommy ..we Thank you for the lovely rose bush now planted in Buttercups garden
Vern and family ..we Thank you for the wonderful garden stone
Emma & Ben and their mommy we Thank you for the donation to the Morris Foundation , they do research for canine cancers.
Angel Duncan..We Thank You for your card and words of support .
Miss Dixie... We Thank you for the beautiful flowers, photo frame and most of all for letting Buttercup be a member of your family too !

I hope i have gotten everyone .. if i missed anyone please know it would never be intentional .. we love you all .. and THANK EVERYONE FROM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEARTS !

Angel Buttercup & Momma Pat


6/27/2013 One Month ago today.....

June 27th 2013 4:21 am
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Dear Buttercup,
One month ago today you left us for the bridge.. I kiss your sweet box everyday , i still can't believe you are gone. I miss you so much , those big perfect brown eyes, those wonderful kisses, taking you with me in the morning to the kamp and the evenings are the worst. I ordered you some wind chimes for your garden and they came yesterday. I have to get a small garden hook so i can put them up. When they blow they will be another reminder of you .. they play Amazing Grace

"Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come,
Tis Grace have brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home"

Your life started with danger on the street of Philadelphia , Grace lead Annie Trinkle to you and Grace brought you forever to me ..

I love you Buttercup and Miss you beyond words.

Each night i pray for a sign that you are ok.. and yesterday when i got home i received an amazing gift from your pal Bailey and his mom ... It was a beautiful hand crafted /painted photo of you on a beautiful silver pendant.. it was my sign ! Thank you Barb and Bailey for an amazing gift .

Kisses to my Angel Girl ! ,


6/20/2013 3 weeks ago today ....

June 20th 2013 4:59 am
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Dear Buttercup,
Three weeks ago today you left us for the rainbow bridge .. My heart is still broken .. i still look for you everywhere. Mornings are so tough as i get ready for work and you aren't waiting for me outside the bathroom door.. but the evenings are horrible.. i come home and stop by the kamp to visit your pals and come home without you .. no one to wait with me for daddy to come home , no one to watch the news with , and no reminders that it is 8 o'clock and time for our evening walk. Life will never be the same without you . All you dogster pals have been so supportive , caring and loving ! I finished your memorial garden and i can look out the kitchen window and see all the yellow flowers in your memory . It does give me great comfort ! Dad and i still can't believe you have passed on to your next life. I sure hope you are running free and having a great time .. until we meet again .. I LOVE YOU FOREVER BABYGIRL !


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