December 27th 2010 7:43 pm
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Well Diary, today was my first Bridge Bithday. I had fun here but I really miss my mom like she is missing me. Jan 6th will be one whole year without her. Sure I love all my old friends here and the newbies that arrive everyday. I love helping the newbies. But my heart and soul belongs to my mom.
A Bud in the Winter
I got a flower bud in the winter
Right after Christmas.
The petals were still closed
Trying to protect itself.
Days went by and one by one.
The petals opened.
Feeling more secure with the warmth of love
Knowing the feeling of safety.
Til one day all the petals opened
Feeling the love unending
This buds true colors was as bright as the sun.
It didn't matter any more how cold or warm.
This flower blossomed endlessly in vibrant colors.
This little bud that was so scared that she wouldn't open.
Finally let her petals down and embraced true love.
This bud turned into a beautiful DAISY.
January 11th 2010 7:30 am
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Hi Daisy's Diary
This is for my sweet precious angel.
Dec 22 / 03 I saw you in 2 photos and my heart cried out for you. You were at the SPCA in Yarmouth NS. I contacted them right away and did the adoption process. Sadly I could not get you until the 27th of Dec. It killed me to wait so long.
Finally the morning came and at 4 am we set out for the 3 hour drive to get you. I was excited, scared and so many other feelings but I knew you would be coming home with me no matter what.
When I finally met you, I just knew you were my heart. Yes you acted like a mean dog but I saw the scared dog inside. I told you that you will be forever safe and loved from that moment on.
Over the last years we have done so many things together. I have cherished every one of them. You made me see things in a whole different light. Like the first time you saw a chinchilla or the first time you saw a horse, kittens. You loved all the small creatures and tried to be momma to them all.
Sadly the end of August you were diagnosed with OSTEOSARCOMA in her back left leg. We did consider ampuatation but there was to many things against it. So we did everything else we could to keep you as long as possible with quaility of life. We were told that you MAY have 4 months. The cancer grew everyday and then got infected. I asked if you can hang on until after Christmas and your birthday. I told you I understood if you couldn't. Bless your heart, you stayed.
Jan 6th / 10 you got really bad. The infection got worse and split the skin. Then at suppertime, your leg exploded. Sadly, we knew that it was time. Your dad rushed home to go with us to the vet. I told you from the first day of this that you would not go alone even if you decided to go in your sleep.
We brought you in and you had to get weighed. In 2 weeks you lost 10 more lbs. In the quiet room we took you and they had a beautiful soft bed for you. Just like sitting on a cloud. We asked you to lay down and you did. I laid beside you with you in my arms. I had to hold you for as long as I could the last time. I hope you felt how much I love you.
With tears and crying in everyone there while surrounded by love from us all, the vet preped you for your final exit. You were such a good girl even then.
You laid your head against mine and I held you even closer. I could not nor did I want to, let go. My heart broke, no it shattered into a million pieces that will never be whole again because I am missing a big piece of it.
There was not a dry eye in the whole place. You have affected so many people. You are so loved by so many from everywhere you have been. You have changed the nay sayers about Rottys and turned them into Rotty lovers. From your terrible start in life with little to no trust to being a great ambassador for your breed. Everyday you made me more proud then the day before.
So my beautiful angel, with a shattered heart I say, I loved you at the start, loved you more everyday and will love you more til my days are over. Then I can have you in my arms again.
Remember my words to you that I said every morning of every day you were in my life..... Good Morning Beautiful, How was your night?
To all the friends who have helped us all through this. THANK YOU. Your kindness and continued support is priceless and we love you all.
My friends in HUD and Rotty Rules.... DOG BLESS you all.
December 27th 2009 4:28 am
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I made it!!! Back in August I was diagnosed with OSTEOSARCOMA
( cancer) and there were options but none were great. Mom and Dad decided at the last minute ( well when I was suppose to be in surgery ) to not have my leg amputated . There were to many cons to have it done. Needless to say their hearts were broken as they new for sure my time was very limited.
So they took me home and wanted to love me more ( as if that was possible and yanno what? It was :)
My family's wish was for me to make it to Christmas and my woofday. Guess what? Their wish came true!!!!!
I got to open presents for Christmas ( even ones that were not mine :) )and TODAY is my woofday. Mom said she has all kinds of things planned but it depends on how I feel. She said we will " go with the flow". Now I hope that do not mean we are going swimming because I hate swimming and I hate being in water. She wouldn't do that to me, would she???
She has a big box and whatever is inside SMELLS SOME GOOD. I am not allowed to see it until later today. I see all kinds of thingies still wrapped and I think they are for me. :)
I want to thank all my pals for their support especially over these last few months. They have been so wonderful to me and my family.
I look at my mom and she has tears of sadness because she knows it is very soon my time to go. She also has tears of joy because she has so many friends that support her in this time of heartbreak that I never wanted to cause her.
I feel so bad about that. I never want tears in my mommy's eyes. Like looking at her right now, sitting there looking at me, she has tears of sadness and joy. The joy is I MADE IT THIS FAR. Sadness because I do not have much time left.
Now puppers, I want to ask a favor if you can see your way to do it ok?
My final Christmas and woofday wish is to help a doggie pal of mine. Her name is ZOWIE. She needs surgery real bad and the rescue that has her really do not have the funds to do it. They have helped so many puppers that now their money is next to nothing. So, if you can spare a dollar or two, would you send it to them please? I understand this time of year is tough for everyone and please don't feel you have to do it. But if you can, that would be so woofable.
Here is the site that is hosting ZOWIE and you can donate if you wish to.
Ok, mom is doing something now and it looks interesting, GOTTA GO!!
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