Monkey Times

I still can't think of you running, my boy. August 19th 2008 9:04 am Last night, I was trying to sleep. You were heavy on my heart. I was trying to remember all the wonderful times we had together, exploring Grandpa's ranch, the beach, the mountains, and all the times we took you to the High School. As long as I thought of you walking, I was fine, but as soon as I thought of you running, my entire body got tense and my stomach felt like it was in knots. Baby boy, I still can't think of you running. I want to run and grab you in my arms and protect you... Even now, just typing this, I'm in tears. I hope, one day, I will be able to remember your joy of running free... but for now, please, just come to my memories with your wings. I'm still not ready. I love you, son... I miss you so much it hurts. My arms ache to hold you, and protect you. Stay near, baby. Keep reminding me of your joyful spirit, kay? Love, Mommy

Samuel Jacob (4/1/97-4/4/08)   Family Pets ♠ Mickey ♠ Bernadette 02/05/04 - 09/25/08 ◊ Grizzly Bear 1987-2003 ◊Kodiak Bear 1988-2000 ♥ Sara ♥ ♥Baby Cat♥ ♥ Astro 1992-2004 Wally B. ☺ ☺The Roo Crew ☺ Angels of the Roo Crew Jenny Subscribe (What does RSS do?)