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HAS IT BEEN 10 YRS ALREADY: WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE

April 16th 2013 12:02 pm
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(April 17th 2003)wILL mARK THE 10TH yR. OF YOUR PASSING
It was the day you went to heaven
Today I reflect back on that day with a very heavy heart. :-(
Much has changed sweet daughter of mine. The world the people the Cruelty
And the Love. But
FOR MOST PART DADDY AND I ARE THE SAME. Just an older and heavier version of us LOL
Few wks. Ago I had a mild heart attack and I just blew it off. 2 days later I found out what it was and what had happened. Now mommy takes Nitro to make sure it doesn't happen again. Promised dad and Trixie and Tomcat that I would take better care of me. I often look at your ashes and I wonder what to do. Do I leave you her in your cedar box until I pass and you can join me. Or do I sprinkle you somewhere so you can be free. I wish you could tell me what you wanted
if I owned my own house I would bury your ashes in the yard surrounded by sweet flowers and plants as I know how much you loved to sit in the warm sun on a breezy day. But sadly I have no place I own to do this.
Trixie health is failing and I just fear losing her too. Having to say goodbye to you about killed me. I just don't want to go thru that again. So if you could ask the Big Guy up there if he could give you some special powder to sprinkle on her for health I sure would love that.
Tom Cat is still plugging along.no longer walking the walk with me every day. He is very old as you know and very fat and slow. Been in a few bad fights and gnawed on by a coyote which he survived due to $ and a great vet WHO DID An AMAZING SURGERY. But time with him is fading.
Daddy sure loves that cat> Jennifer has the cutest little one his name is Steven and he is beautiful he is 5 now. She is expecting another child in October. We are all hoping a little girl. I’m going to try to create something very special for your 10th anniversary tomorrow.
Looking for inspiration.....
LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETIE AND I KNOW WE WILL BE TOGETHER SOON
PS I lost my dad and mom in the past few yrs.
if you see them please ask them to come visit me WHILE I SLEEP
I Have been having such a hard time finding peaceful sleep lately. I have so much fear loneliness and uncertainty on my heart that I guess its keeping me restless at night. I miss you curled up in my side Trixie doesn't want to sleep next to me. Likes her space. There is such a cold where you were once.
God Bless you little Angel
XOXOXO
Mommy

 

New Years Day 2012 "Happy Birthday Sweet Angel Puppie"

December 31st 2012 4:01 pm
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Wishing you a very special day at the bridge. we all missing you mostly me ! wanted you to know that i can Not sleep with out a pillow curled tight to my tummy every night,
even after all this time.
19.5 years of you curled as tightly to my tummy as you could get.
Trixie she is a wonderful loving part of my life But saddly
She does Not curl up to me that close.
and rarely Ever sleeps with us.
that is her choice.

Puppie there is Not a night gone by that when i lay my head down to sleep that i don't miss you
I hope Heaven is as beautiful as i read, and that you are as happy as they say you are,
I want Nothing more in the world then to know you are at peace ,and waiting inbetween playing for me to come up to those gates.
Tomorrow i will open your urn and i will light your candles and i will look at your photos and cry again. then i will hug Trixie tight and thank God above for sending her to save me from dying of a broken heart.
then i will say a pray for her to be by my side as long as you were darling.
tonight after i fall asleep i hope i will wake to feel you climbing up on the bed with me. one more time
God Bless you my sweet Angel
We are another day closer till my journey to the gate.
Can't wait to hold you in my arms for eternity,
Now go Play!!!
Mommy Daddy will have you on our minds and well you are already forever in my heart.......
God Speed

 

ADOPT 2010 - ADOPTION SAVED A STREET RAT LIKE I WAS

April 22nd 2010 12:42 pm
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MY STORY:
I WAS FOUND ON THE STREETS I WAS ABOUT 6 MONTHS MAYBE 9 MONTHS OLD PREGNANT STARVED WHERE YOU COULD SEE MY BONES BULGING OUT FROM MY SKIN.I WAS SO FRIGHTENED . MOM HAS A VERY PERSONAL STORY OF HOW WE SAVED EACH OTHERS LIVES .BUT THIS IS TO PERSONAL TO SHARE HERE. ASK I'M SURE SHE LOVE TO SHARE IT.
POINT BEING I WAS TAKEN IN TO MY FOREVER HOME 1985 OR SO
AND I WAS A PART OF THAT LOVING HOME TILL
APRIL 2003 WHEN I WENT TO THE RAINBOW BRIDGE..
I WAS NEVER HUNGRY OR UNLOVED .MOMMY USED TO STROKE MY HEAD FOR HRS AT A TIME .I SLEPT CUDDLED IN MOM TUMMY ,SHE CARRIED ME EVERYWHERE.MY FEET HARDLY TOUCHED THE GROUND.BUT WHEN THEY DID I WAS OFF AND RUNNING YELPING HAPPILY TO THE WORLD .
LOOK AT ME I AM LOVED .. EVERYONE I AM LOVED.
ADOPTION MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. IT MEANS A STREET RAT LIKE ME CAN FIND A WARM BED A FULL BOWL OF FOOD /WATER A GOOD DR TO FIX MY BROKEN LEG .
FREEDOM FROM GIVING BIRTH ON THE STREETS TO MORE PUPPIES THAT WILL ONLY PARISH FROM HUNGRY DISEASE OR INJURY.

A FAMILY WHO LOVED ME ENOUGH TO HAVE ME SPAYED MY SHOTS. FIXED MY TEETH.
BUT ALL THAT FALLS SECONDARY TO THE LOVE I FOUND WITH MY ADOPTED FAMILY OVER THE NEXT 19 YRS. THE LAST 5 YRS OF MY LIFE I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE
AS TIME WENT ON MY HEART GREW SO WEAK.
I WAS PUT ON 3 DIFFERENT MEDICATION
THESE MEDICATIONS WERE THE ONLY WAY I COULD LIVE AND THEY WERE VERY EXPENSIVE.
I HAD TO HAVE THEM 2 X DAY.
BUT DID THAT STOP MY FAMILY? NEVER!
SADLY I NEW THAT THERE WERE TIMES MOM DAD GAVE UP THEIR OWN MEDICATIONS THEY NEEDED OR FOOD TO MAKE SURE I HAD LIFE SAVING MEDICATIONS I NEEDED.

THEY NEVER WENT FAR FROM HOME BECAUSE EVERYTHING IN THEIR LIFE WAS SCHEDULED AROUND MY NEEDS.
I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT THERE ARE FEW OUT THERE WHO LOVE SO SELFLESSLY AS MOMMY & DADDY DID.
THOSE WHO DO ARE ANGELS ON EARTH.
TO A LIL STREET RAT LIKE ME.
WELL I LIVED A LONG LOVING LIFE. AND WHEN THAT FAITHFUL DAY ROLLED IN UPON US I GOT TO SEE THE REAL LOVE.
THE TRUEST TEST OF ALL.
AFTER BREAKING MY BACK IN A LIL FALL OR TWIST DR SAID AT MY AGE IT COULD HAD BEEN A COUGH. BUT AFTER 7 DAYS OF ROUND THE CLOCK MORPHINE AND MOM DAD SLEEPING WITH ME ON THE FLOOR..
THE FINAL GIFT THEY GAVE ME WAS THE ULTIMATE GIFT FROM A BELOVED FAMILY. AN HONOR SOME SAY... BESTOWED UPON A DOG/CAT OWNER .
THEY STAYED WITH ME AND HELD ME IN THEIR LOVING ARMS WITH TEARS STREAMING DOWN THEIR FACES AS I TOOK MY FINAL BREATH AND WITH MY LAST EXHALE I SET THEM FREE FROM MY VIEW..
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

THAT RAINY APRIL DAY
APRIL 17 2003
MY JOURNEY ENDED .
NOT ON THE STREETS STARVING TO DEATH.
BUT IN MOMMY & DADDY'S LOVING ARMS.

ADOPT A STREET RAT WE HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE...
OUR HEART IS FREELY GIVEN FOR A LIFETIME
JUST ADOPT US AND GIVE US THAT CHANCE.
MY FAMILY DID.
AND I GAVE THEM MY HEART FOR INFINITY



OUR TIME IS SLIPPING AWAY

HOW DO I HOLD ON TO YOU
AND STILL LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO LET YOU GO?
HOW WILL I PUT OUT THE LIGHT
WHEN INSIDE MY HEART THE FIRES GROW?
HOW DO I TURN BACK THE TIME
AND TURN DEATH FROM THE DOOR?
HOW WILL I FILL MY EMPTY ARMS
WHEN I CAN'T HOLD YOU ANYMORE?

HOW WILL I JUST STEP BACK AND LET THINGS BE AS THEY MUST.
HOW CAN I SAY GOOD -BYE
WHEN I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH.
HOW WILL I STAY WARM AT NIGHT,
WHEN YOUR NOT CUDDLED BY MY SIDE?
HOW DO I PREPARE FOR THIS ?
LORD KNOWS HOW HARD I'VE TRIED.

HOW WILL I GIVE YOU BACK TO GOD
WHEN I FEEL THAT YOU ARE MINE.
HOW WILL I EVER ACCEPT THE FACT
WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.

WRITTEN BY AUDREY W. (AKA MOMMA)
DEDICATED TO MY MOST BELOVED FRIEND IN THIS LIFETIME
THIS POEM WAS STARTED 1 YR BEFORE I PASSED AND FINISHED A WHILE AFTER I PAST.
AUDREY WILMOT

 

EASTER MIRACLE -APRIL 4 2010

April 6th 2010 10:59 am
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The warm sun is warming my ole bones this beautiful spring day.
My life has been a bit Topsy this past few months. We a baby 2 yrs old who moved in and the constant having to run faster then my ole legs can travel.but i am getting mighty good at dodging him..
He is cute don't get me wrong. Then the loss of my fur sister Has been very hard at times.
then Easter day i felt the world move and it frightened me so badly. i live in Calif so we feel the earth move a lot.but nothing like this .it made me throw up a lot.
but i think that was Cali flapping her big ole wings..I know she kept us safe for she is my angel with Puppie now.watching over me and mommy and daddy and the whole family.
So this years Easter day was filled with blessing..the
BIGGEST BEING LIFE.
this could have been the BIG ONE they they been predicting.and it could have slipped us all into the Pacific Ocean.but we were safe
our Easter Miracle i call it
Easter Day April 4 2010 Cali was hit with a 7.2 Earth Quake and we are all OK
That is a miracle

 

LETTER FROM THE BRIDGE FROM PUPPIE

April 12th 2008 9:04 pm
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Oh momma looks.
Aren't they just the most beautiful wings you ever seen?
I fly so fast and everywhere with just a thought.
Mom I have been with you all day today mommy. When you were typing my story I was lying next to your chair. When you were decorating my page I was watching you. As you cried this morning I cried with you.
And as you open my special cedar box with my ashes in it I flew up into the air so you could inhale me. Never think that I’m gone I'M NOT.I AM in your thoughts your prayers you laughter your tears. every memory ever day that we walked together for over 19 yrs. how could I not be with you, I know that you feel me climb on the bed sometimes late when you’re sleeping. You are not dreaming I am there watching your every breath as you sleep. Lately I have been staying much closer to you’d know you have been very sick. And maybe, just maybe our days together are not so very far away. It is not for me to say. Thank you everyone for my wings. bambina I love ya lots .and tunner you were such a helper to mommy to, thank you for your selfless gift.
Well I must go home now momma.dont you cry.i'm always only a thought away oxoo puppie 2/22/07

 

7 DAYS BEFORE MY 5 YR ANNIVERSARY AND MOM HAS FINALLY FOUND- PEACE

April 9th 2008 9:43 am
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MOMMA!!!
HAS CHANGED MY PAGE TO SHOW THAT THERE HAS BEEN SOME CHANGES INSIDE MOMS HEART,
YOU SEE MOM HAS BEEN SO HEART BROKEN FOR SO LONG AND HER GRIEF HAS BEEN VERY APPARENT TO THOSE WHO KNOW AND LOVE HER,
IT WAS VERY HARD FOR MOM TO SAY GOODBYE TO ME,
BUT TODAY MOMMA WOKE UP AND LIKE EVERY OTHER DAY SHE WENT STRAIGHT TO MY PAGE,
SHE WEEPED AS LIKE MANY MANY DAYS AND YEARS BEFORE.
THEN SHE SAID !!
PUPPIE
I THINK IT IS TIME WE BRING YOU IN TO SOME BRIGHTER LIGHT ,.SO OFF SHE RAN TO CREATE JUST THE RIGHT BACKGROUND TO ESPRESS HER FEELINGS TOWARDS ME,
WELL AFTER MANY TRYS MOMMA HAS IT THE WAY SHE FEELS , THE HARDEST PART WAS TO TAKE DOWN HER BACKGROUND WITH MY URN AND MEMORIAL. THIS SURPRISES ME ,AS THE ANNIVERSARY OF MY PASSING IS IN 7 DAYS,
BUT MAYBE THE LORD WORKS IN STRANGE WAYS ,I AM HEALING ,AND IT WARMS MY HEART SO ,TO SEE AFTER 5 VERY LONG TEARFUL YEARS .SO IS MOMMA
AND IT IS ALL BECAUSE OF THE LOVE FROM DOGSTER AND ALL HER FAMILY HERE,
WELL THIS LOOKS LIKE A NOVEL SO I WILL CLOSE FOR NOW,
WITH THIS ,..
MY MOMMA IS BACK WHAT BETTER GIFT COULD AN ANGEL PRAY FOR,

PUPPIE THE WINGMAKER

 

I AM SORRY MY PAGE MIGHT MAKE YOU CRY

January 28th 2008 4:38 pm
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IT HAS BEEN TOLD TO MOMMA MANY TIMES HOW MY PAGE HAS BROUGHT PUPS FAMILIES TO CRY WHILE VISITING.
I AM SO SORRY.
I AM NOT ATTEMPTING TO BRING HURT TO YOUR LIVES.
BUT IT DOES RAISE QUESTIONS TO MOM, SUCH AS HOW WELL IS MOM REALLY HEALING... I KNOW IT WILL BE 5 YRS APRIL 17TH SINCE I FLEW TO THE BRIDGE.
SOME TIMES I FEEL MOM SHOULD HAVE HEALED MORE. BUT TRUTH IS MOM HAS NOT MOVED ON THAT FAR YET.
AND IN ACTUALITY MOM MAY NEVER FULLY ACCOMPLISH THAT.
BUT THIS PAGE IS HER WAY TO HONOR ME HER BEST FRIEND IN A WAY THAT WORKS FOR MOM AND I.
YES IT IS SAD YET LIKE A BEAUTIFUL FRIEND POINTED OUT TO US.
TEARS ARE HEALING,
SO WITH EVER TEAR DROP THAT FALLS WHILE VIEWING MY PAGE THAT IS ONE MORE PIECE OF MY MOMS BROKEN HEART THAT HAS HEALED,
GUESS SHE WILL HAVE TO CRY A BILLION TEARS TO HEAL HER HEART BECAUSE IT WAS SHATTERED IN A BILLION PIECES,
1 TEAR PER PIECE. OF MY BROKEN HEART
A TEAR AT A TIME IT WILL MEND STRONG ONE DAY.
I HAVE TO BELIEVE IT WILL.
I JUST HAVE TO.
IT IS WHAT KEEPS MOM GOING.
WELL THAT IS ALL FOR NOW
LOVE PUPPIE

 

ADOPT 09 CONTEST

December 30th 2007 1:27 pm
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OUR TIME IS SLIPPING AWAY

HOW DO I HOLD ON TO YOU
AND STILL LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO LET YOU GO?
HOW WILL I PUT OUT THE LIGHT
WHEN INSIDE MY HEART THE FIRES GROW?
HOW DO I TURN BACK THE TIME
AND TURN DEATH FROM THE DOOR?
HOW WILL I FILL MY EMPTY ARMS
WHEN I CAN'T HOLD YOU ANYMORE?

HOW WILL I JUST STEP BACK AND LET THINGS BE AS THEY MUST
HOW CAN I SAY GOOD -BYE
WHEN I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH.
HOW WILL I STAY WARM AT NIGHT,
WHEN YOUR NOT CUDDLED BY MY SIDE?
HOW DO I PREPARE FOR THIS ?
LORD KNOWS HOW HARD I'VE TRIED.

HOW WILL I GIVE YOU BACK TO GOD
WHEN I FEEL THAT YOU ARE MINE,
HOW WILL I EVER ACCEOPT THE FACT
WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.

WRITTEN BY AUDREY W. (AKA MOMMA)
DEDICATED TO MY MOST BELOVED FRIEND IN THIS LIFETIME
MY DOG PUPPIE BUBBA WILMOT.
THIS POEM WAS STARTED ONE YR BEFORE I PASSED AND WAS FINISHED 1 WEEK AFTER MY JOURNEY TO THE RAINBOW BRIDGE.
THE WORDS FINALLY CAME FULL CIRCLE TO MOM.

ADOPTION MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME.IT MEANS A STREET RAT LIKE ME CAN FIND A WARM BED A FULL BOWL OF FOOD A GOOD DR A FIXED BROKEN LEG .FREEDOM FROM GIVING BIRTH ON THE STREETS TO MORE PUPPIES THAT WILL ONLY PARISH.
A FAMILY WHO LOVED ME ENOUGH TO HAVE ME SPAYED MY SHOTS. FIXED MY TEETH. BUT ALL THAT FALLS SECONDARY TO THE LOVE I FOUND WITH THIS LIL DOG AND THE JOURNEY WE TRAVELED TOGETHER FOR 19 YRS.

 

My Tail of Devotion for PUPPIE THE WINGMAKER

June 26th 2007 7:31 pm
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Oh my dear sweet puppie: today is so bitter sweet a day. On the upside it is a day you found peace and comfort and freedom from the horrible pain you suffered, you were given your wings, on the down side I felt the best friend in my lifetime die in my arms .To me unless someone has had TO put their best friend to sleep. They can never truly understand the deep seeded guilt one would feel. YET at same time the sense of HONOR THERE IS to be there till the END .THIS IS A BLESSING HANDED TO A PET OWNER.AND ALSO A DUTY!!!!!
It was mixed for me I could not put you threw anymore because of my selfishness and need to hold on, THERE WAS NO DOUBT OF THAT , BUT OVER THE YEARS FOR ME, I HAVE REALIZED THERE IS A REAL PURPOSE IN THE KNOWLEDGE WE LEARN THREW SUCH AN EXPERIENCES. I learned the true meaning of loving till it hurts, giving till you can give no more and then giving beyond all sense of logic and heart...i learned that to love you need to hold tight and yet the true test in time will come when you must love enough to let go,this is a true test. So I gave you back to God because by all rights you had finished all you were sent to do, you had lived long wonderful life. and we were the truest of best friends.
I will never forget the day we met, my ill angel. And I will always remember the first time we snuggled. YOU SAVED MY LIFE.
I never felt anything like THAT since. and I will never forget 4 yrs ago today on a rainy cold mourning in California how I held you wrapped safely in you Elmo blanket and I felt your life slip from my grasp and as I felt your sprit leave threw my body .
Puppie I will be ok!! On this I promise you. and I will continue my life in sobriety, and I will be getting you my ill angel tattooed on me real soon, today I will sadly go back to that same vet hospital and this time I will leave trixiemae and it just breaks my heart, but this time she will come home with me later after her test are done,
Godspeed my best ever friend in this and every life time,
To come, I will bring you where ever I go,
Till we are together again I will leave wishing I had one more day one more time one more sunset maybe I be satisfied but then again I know what it would do .leave me wishing still for one more day with you.
Xooxoxoxoox
Mommy and daddy (we send puppie kisses to you today)


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4 YRS ANNIVERSDARY ~I HAVE WINGS MOMMA

April 17th 2007 8:31 am
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Oh my dear sweetPuppie : today is so bitter sweet a day. on the upside it is a day you found peace and comfort and freedom from the horrible pain you suffered, you were given your wings, on the down side i felt the best friend in my lifetime die in my arms .
To me unless someone has had to not only put their best friend to sleep. They can never truely understand the deep seeded guilt one would feel.
and at same time the sense of honor to be there till the end.
THIS IS A BLESSING HANDED TO A PET OWNER.
AND A DUTY!!!!!
It was mixed for me I could not put you thru anymore because of my selfishness and need to hold on,
OVER THE YEARS FOR ME,
I HAVE REALIZED THERE IS A REAL PURPOSE IN THE KNOWLEDGE WE LEARN THRU SUCH AN EXSPRIENCE.
I learned the true meaning of loving till it hurts ,
giving till you can give no more and then giving beyond all sense of logic and heart.
I learned that to love you need to hold tight,
and yet the true test in time will come when you must love enough to let go,
THIS IS THE TRUE TEST.
So I gave you back to God becase by all rights you had finished all you were sent to do, you had lived long enough to see momma finally get it.
Clean and sober off everything,
you lived thru my disease of neglagence and addiction, the things i dragged you thru with me have scared my heart,
yet you never protested because it was me you truely wanted to be with, and you were every where I went.
I will never forget the day we met, my lil angel. and i will always remember the first time we snuggled and I wasn't high,
oh I never felt anything like THAT since,
I will never forget 4 yrs ago today on a rainy cold mourning in Calif how I held you in my arms and held your heart to mine .
I felt your spirit leave thru me as if to say one final GOODBYE.
Puppie I will be ok !!
this I promise you.
and I will continue my life in Sobriety,
I will be getting you my lil angel tatooed on me real soon,
today I will sadly go back to that same vet hospital and this time i will leave trixiemae and it just breaks my heart TO GO THERE AGAIN ,but this time THANK GOD she will come home with me later after her test .
GODSPEED my best friend in this and every life time TO COME.
I will bring you where ever I go ,
till we are together againI will leave wishing I had one more day one more time one more sunset
maybe THAN I"D be satified!!!
BUTthen again I know what that would do .
leave me wishing still for one more day with you.
xooxoxoxoox
mommy and daddy (we send puppie kisses to you today)

 
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