Missing you....

I may forget your birthday. but, I'll never forget the day you left us. I can't look at this page without crying. I see your pictures and your urn on the end table in the living room and wish you were still with us. Nothing will ever be able to take your place. I fought to keep you alive and well when you were just a tiny little puppy the size of a beanie baby... Then, I came home from work one day and all of a sudden without warning you were sick and then you crossed over to rainbow bridge. I felt like something snatched you from me... I'll never forget that day.

Happy Birthday, Lucy

Don't think Mummy forgot. I still think of you. You would have been 3 today.. Hope you had something really good for your birthday with all your doggy friends at Rainbow bridge. Mummy loves you, Woosie.

Lucy's birthday..

Lucy would have been 2 years old on October 20. I still can't believe she's gone. I still cry. I still mourn. I still can't remove her urn from the box under the living room table. I remember everything we used to do together. I can't forget that tiny little 13 ounce puppy that once was my Woosie. I don't think the hurt and the pain will ever go away.

Your t-shirt

I was hanging up the clothes the other day, putting them in the little Amoire that I bought you and Star for Valentines Day this year. I was putting them on hangers while I was going through another box of some older clothes that I found. In it was your little "American" t-shirt you wore on your very first trip to the dog park. It wasn't clean. It didn't get washed like the others had. It must have escaped the laundry and I was glad. It still has your little black hairs on it and smells like a "little rat dog". I felt so close to you for a moment remembering the fun we had at Meet Up. I took the little shirt and put it in a ziplock bag with your collar. I'll never wash it and no one will ever wear it again even though it's tiny enough for Callie. It was yours and it always will be. I hope it smells like this forever. I miss you so badly.

I miss you...

I miss you so badly. I can't believe you're gone.. I try not to cry. Little Star doesn't understand where you are. It's so hard for me to look at your page..
Mummy loves you, Woosie.

You're My Family

You’re my family
You’re my destiny
The only ones
The only ones I want
You mean more to me
More than life can be
The only ones
The only ones I love
We’re united in our hearts

Everyone hurts, everyone bleeds
With all this pain right underneath
All we need is holding on
We got the key to carry on
‘Cause you're my family

The world is turning cold and dark
Our lives are so wounded, full of scars
And when I’m out here on my own
I don’t have to face it all alone
‘Cause I know

You’re my family
You’re my destiny
The only ones
The only ones I want
You mean more to me
More than life can be
The only ones
The only ones I love
We’re united in our hearts.

Lyrics by DORO

Lucy's gone..

I keep saying it over and over to myself and I can't believe it. I don't want to believe it's true. She died last night. She's gone and she's never coming back. Everything happened so fast. I feel like I could have done more and the doctors are telling me I did all I could do. She was fine in the morning when she and Star went out to potty or at least I thought she was. I took her out at 10 a.m. for the second time that morning. Then, I went to my dentist appointment and my client's office after that. I'm wishing I never left the house. There I think she's safe because I leave her with Star in their crate when I'm out. Yeah, right. Nothing in this world is safe.!! NO WHERE on this Earth is safe.
Her belly was bloated when I took her out at 5:30 when I got home. I was going to stop on my way home to Petsmart to get more cat food. Thank God I didn't. When I notice what was wrong, I imediately called the Emergency Clinic that was 10 mins from the house explaining to them what was wrong. They told me to take her to another Emergency Clinic further away because they thought she needed and Endoscope and they didn't have one. They gave me the phone number after they told me where to drive and I got Lucy and Star in the car.
I took the exit they told me and couldn't find the place on the feeder road.. I started dialing the Clinic and that was when Lucy wet all over me and started drooling excessively. Star was in my lap with her, I'm driving down I-10 and lifted Lucy by her harness so I could put her on the passenger side floor. I figured she could cool off faster by herself with the air conditioning on down there. Maybe she could stop panting. All the while I'm on the phone with the Emergency Clinic, frantic because I had no idea where I was. I knew I was close but, WHERE was this place? They ran out and got the Vet when I pulled into the parking lot. It's a good thing the Vet was coming out because there was a keypad and a buzzer on the door. The door was locked..
Not even 5 minutes later, the Vet came out and said she was gone... They think she had a seizure and choked on her own vomit. They kept reassuring me that there was nothing I could have done that I didn't already do.. When they examined her they told me there was a good possibility she had an abdominal or intenstinal obstruction...
I don't know what to believe and I don't want to believe she's gone.. Star keeps looking at me like, "Where's Lucy?' Now, she's all alone. I brought Star to our Vet early this morning for an exam and blood work. I just can't deal with this. If there is a God.. and I DO believe in Him.. WHY does he take my furry family from me!!!! WHY!?!? She was 13 ounces and fought to live when I adopted her.. Now in a breath, she's been taken from me. She wasn't even 2 years old!!!

I've been tagged by Birdie

Each player starts with seven random facts about themselves. Dogs who are tagged, need to post in their Diary the rules & their 7 pawsome facts. Then choose 7 dogs to tag and list their names. Don’t forget to bark them a pmail that they have been tagged and to read your Diary, or, send them a fun Rosette announcing they've been Tagged!


1. I like to chase the cats.

2. I bark more than my sister Star.

3. I eat cat fo0d when I can get away with it.

4. I bark at birds and bigger dogs.

5. I hate the vaccum cleaner.

6. I don't like to potty outside when it's raining.

7. I can't go up stairs


I tagged:

Star

Prince Carter of ModDog

Tia

Baby Jessie

Baby Poppy

Rico

Billie

Knock it off!!!

Mummy was outside with her new camera today taking photos of us. We were running around in our hoodies. We had to go to the see the Vet today. I got a rabies booster and we both got our nails cut. Star was lucky. She didn't get a shot. Star started getting fresh in the yard as usual. She was running around rough housing. Star teases me. I just had enough!! She thought she was going to wrestle me to the ground like she usually does when we go outside to play. NOT.!! Not this time!! My shoulder is still sore from the shot so, I let her have it!!! Mummy was still taking photos of us and happened to get this picture when we were arguing and barking. Mummy says she couldn't believe the picture came out so clear. "It's not PhotoShop", I heard her say.. "These are my girls in action!!"

The saga continues...

I pottied outside today. Well, not totally... I peed but, that's all. I got all kinds of praise from Mummy. She told me she was proud of me. We played ball outside. Me and Star like to play keep away and I play fetch with Mummy. We stayed outside for a long time.
Then, she let us in. We were playing mouse in the kitchen when all of a sudden I got this urge to poop in the middle of the kitchen floor. That ended all the fun. Mummy scooped me up and put me outside. Star ran and hid. She cleaned up the floor then called me inside. I knew I better come or I'd be in REALLY big trouble. Both of us ended up in our pens. Mummy took away my playpen. She has me in Kiwi's crate. She told me I can come out when I earn the right play by pottying where I belong. I had to stay in the crate with my chewie. Mummy says she won't tolerate this bad behavior any longer.