ABOUT ME!!! An Aussie Tale.......Woof Woof...
July 26th 2013 12:05 pm
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Rio dear sweet baby boy, how can I begin to explain the incredible loss I feel in my heart? How do I continue to breathe without you here. I can not stand the pain, the grief is so over whelming. You were more than a dog..an animal...you were in fact the greatest gift I could have ever been given. You whom I devoted the last eleven years of my life, my baby boy. Far more than a dog....a fearless soul who protected me and loved me. Did I deserve such devotion? I can only pray that you knew the depth of my love for you. I can only hope in those last seconds you felt every bit of my love for you. How did I do this? You whom I have fought so hard to keep alive to breathe to wiggle butt dance, to go for walks and car rides and to give belly rubbs too, you whom I would have done anything for,,,I had to let go. I had to..I had no choice. You might have died a terrible death, I could see how you were starting to suffer and the pain you were feeling. I held you so close my heart right next to yours...praying you would forgive me for the decision I had to make. God how I love you and will always love you. I have screamed at God....how could he take you from me. How could he not let me have you for more years? I love you Rio...my baby boy. You were such a good boy. I miss your paw reaching out for more belly rubs and I miss your eyes so full of love. You loved me....this I know..as much as I loved you if that is possible. Please baby boy...stay...........forever. I can only wish that now...how many times did I look in your eyes and tell you that? Stay with mommy I needed you so much to stay. Now you are no longer here and my heart is filled with such pain. I can not eat, or sleep. I can not think of going on another day without you by my side. I really do not know what I am going to do. To live without you seems pointless. People may say that the love I had for you was crazy but if that is crazy then I want a trillion more years of sharing my heart and home with you. I look at your leash and break down in tears...your doggie bowl that which I did for so many days hand feed you, even when you would look at me and I could tell you did not want to eat , but for me you would take another bite. How do I explain how deep and devoted my heart was to you? I can only tell you I would have gone on hand feeding you a million years if you would have only kept eating. You were tired...and now my life is empty without you. God give me strength to keep going...I love you Rio. I will always love you my baby boy. I miss you so much.
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Dos Rio Yushula / (RIO)