May 15th 2010 12:54 pm
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On April 27, 1997, a beautiful angel was born. In August of that year, he picked me to be his Mom. From that day forward he was a part of me, part of my soul, part of my heart, my life. Known as Taz {The Angel Dog} to myself and anyone who knew him, he gave every bit of energy and love he had to others. He taught me how to be a human being, how to love again. He gave me so many gifts; there are too many to mention. He loved everyone and everyone loved him. Even the ones that thought he was a pain in the ass couldn't resist that little face of his and those big soulful eyes.

On May 13, 2010, after a year long battle with many problems, he told me he was ready. He was tired and he knew if he went and got his real angel wings that he could still watch over me and that I would be okay too. He was such a trooper during this past year. All the tests, poking and prodding, all the contraptions he was made to wear. He never complained. I didn't know if I would have the courage and strength to give him that last final gift of letting him go. But when I saw the look in his eyes that morning, I knew. He gave me the courage to do what needed to be done. In his last moments, he let out one of his big sighs and he smiled to let me know he was okay now. He could finally sleep and graduate to go get his magnificent final glorious wings.

I'm struggling with his loss. The pain is sometimes unbearable. But he is watching over me and giving me signs that I will be okay. He was all about life, enjoying life and experiencing every single moment to it's utter complete joy. I only hope that I can honor him and carry on the way that he taught me to live...fully and with a smile on my face.

Rest my sweet Angel. Run as fast as you can. Eat all the carrots you want. Tear up your toys now...no one's going to throw them away because you've mutilated them. Mitzi and Dancer, I'm sure, are joyful to have you with them. Give them each one of those special Taz kisses that you always saved just for me. You'll always be my Angel Dog...Forever. Love you Forever.